Well...

I was going to tell you that I was actually having a good day, i know i've been dragging this depressed thing into the ground...but overall i say topday was good, nothing bad happened, thoguh i can't recall anything great happening, it was just there, minus bad stuff. laqst night was alright, i don't if i didn't let things bother me, or what the deal was....i know i went through the 5 steps of whatever, denial, acceptance, this and that about 100 times, funny shit. it\s whopper wednesday and i'm good....well i was, of course i always have to have something knock me back to reality...it's funny how one little thign, one word, or rather a grouping in a sentence can slam you to a halt, like hitting i brick mailbox doing 70 in your car, you stop dead in your tracks. your heart falls to the pic of your stopmache, beatting every now and then and with such a force it makes you jolt as well. you won't die from this, oh no, you'll suffer some more...all the while the brick structure is fine, standing tall, mocking you..

there will be a public announcement made by me.....though i think i am going to scrap the original speach......