So I'm making it official...
I am sick?

I woke up today, and I had no intention on actually getting up any more than that...I wanted to call off from work - which when it comes down to it, the same reason I had for not going is what actually made me go in..go figure..all I had to do today is follow a server around for a shift..whoop-dee

the follow more or less ended up being a reverse follow - with me doing most of all the work, whatever. being at work, moving around, kinda got me going, but I knew I wasn't feeling it and decided after I got off of work to go and take a nap...

so 9 rolls around and I wonder how I slept for so long...I look at my phone and noticed Mindy called, but didn't leave a voicemail. so I called her back to bitch at her for that, naturally. during our conversation she kept trying to get me to come to some OG party tonight...one: I'm sick and just need rest..2: I am anti-social..and see: it's a going away party for Erin (and it's a guy...) and I could really care less about it, so whatever....

after the conversation was over I went to my norm of checking my email accounts..sudenly I grew hungry and cold..so to avoid both of those things I laid back down....I would have had a bowl of cereal, seeings how that's what I really wanted, but I recently ran out of milk..send some text messages, playing the pity sick role and I got responses...

Amber was nice enough to pick me up some milk, saying it was in exchange for the favor I did for her the night prior, but funny timing since we had a bit of a bad moment earlier before my first nap...she was definitely not in a good mood as she dropped of the milk; and there was nothing I could do about it. I finally gave up and she left. as that was happening I received a phone call from Lauren, who was throwing this party, and begged/demanded my presence...I tried to tell her I was sick, but that went over everyone's head.

well in light of the milk that I was given I was feeling better, and I knew it would make me fell better I *did not hint* to someone earlier that I was out of milk, it was more of a bitching, but had they gotten me the milk I would have been able to do their bidding..whatever...

I showed up, with the intention that I would be there for an hour at max, I really do hate parties. I showed up and there were a lot more people than I had expected, and I wasn't to fond of that..even people who never go to OG parties were there, creeped my shit out...so I stood around, took in some people watching, people tried to talk to me, but I didn't want any part of that. then Mindy found me and that's when things grew worse. I had to put up with her dunk ramblings for the rest of the evening..that and she wouldn't get off my lap so I was virtually pinned in the chair for longer than I had expected..the longer I stayed the more I wanted to be alone that night. I just wanted to go home and sleep alone in my tent..but Mindy didn't want that, of course.

so any attempts I made to leave the party went BFRDB, Mindy kept stalling me..regardless I brought her back ot her place, actually I followed her and her roommate back to their place. I stayed the night, but I wasn't happy about it. things are stupid.













"you're sad...you make me sad.....no?"

Region Cancelled..
how many times...

So yet again a much needed trip to the region has been post-poned.....

another action packed day for Jason, that never actually happened...I spent the better part of the day lounging around in bed, doing absolutely nothing. I woke up on time for my planned trip

Absolutely Sunday...
..ohhh fuck...

Today was a day of events; premonitions to good music, but overall it was good

The day started off slowly...I stayed the night at Mindy's and only awoke to her getting ready for work - which in itself was a contraversial issue..she had picked up a Wednesday night shift for Asa in favor that he would work her Sunday morning shift...well when it came down to it, after they had a manager approve it and switch it, she saw that Asa was already working Sunday morning..so who was at fault - managers didn't catch it, and they already approved it...I told her to call in and see if they actually needed her, but she decided to actually go in and check it out..well regardless she was on the Who's Who list and had to work..

so then there I lay, with the intention that she'd be back after a quick nap, if not sooner...well 230 rolled around and I had to get up..so then I started getting my day together, getting directions and the sort..Jim called and had a question about eggs, then he asked if I wanted to go to Denny's..hell yes Denny's..but I soon found out I couldn't leave..I was home alone at Mindy's place, and there was no way I would be able to lock the door behind me if I were to leave - and she's pretty adamant about locking the door whenever she goes out..so I didn't go out for brunch..then I crashed her computer somehow (frickin' XP) so then I just decided to go back to bed.

finally 430 came and there was no excuse for her not there any more..so I gathered my things and my self and left..figuring she'd be home soon enough to the unlocked home - and if she weren't, it'd be her damn fault? funny thing, as I am pulling into my drive-way only five minutes later she calls me to let me know she's just getting out of her car. I explain my details and start to get ready starting with the shower...

I'm a Rockstar..
and a golden god...

but why am i stating things we already knew to be truth to begtin with...

Stupid Saturday...

Isn't It Ironic..
just a little..

Wednesday is the Same Ol Wednesday..
..and it's four-twenty....

No real celebrating for me, just normal Wednesday mood...

First off, let me start by saying Happy Birthday Hitler...Way to go Columbine Shootings....and now light one up for me and pass it around...whew, now that that's all out of the way, let's carry on with Wednesday...

Woke up early to a lawn mower, funny thing was my response; I heard the noise, saw how bright it was outside and I said, "Are you kidding me?" as in I thought I over slept..but in reality it was only 8 in the morning..but the phrase "are you kidding me?" could be applied to the douche rocket who decided it was wise to mow the grass at 8..which we all know is a horrible idea since there is still dew on little blades of grass, making for a horrible trim job..anyways..I woke up later, on time, and tried to remember ever falling asleep...as the night went, it was silence, cry, bathroom, I think start to talk, then nothing..wake up to a lawn mower..whatever..

dumbfounded, I went to my lawyer..which the appointment was for 1030..I get there, fill out some papers, and then wait...it was almost noon before I got to sit down.and not with the lawyer, but with some chick..what the hell..I mean I have no problem with this lady doing her thing, having me sign my name thirty times, but honestly..if you are going to have me wait well over an hour, I want to see the my frickin' lawyer..I mean, that's what I pay for..whatever..

after that I went back here, gave a call to the Urb - they fucking LOVE me to death..they have some little scheme up their sleeves, so we'll see what happens.. and then after that it went back downhill...today has definitely been a roller coaster...

Jessica and I started talking about the whole Mindy situation, mainly what happened last night...and then Amber called to see what my deal was...she came over moments later and we talked about the whole Mindy thing..again....THEN things got out of hand, things were said and done that I did not favor..and now I'm not on speaking terms with the world...

I went to work with that attitude, and goddamn if everybody didn't notice..everyone telling me to smile, I would just retort with a song lyric, "kill me now kill me now kill me now" . and then things at work started pissing me off...people not pre-bussing, having to babysit the tray jacks, the other busser peacing out before I was even caught up, people just leaving trays of shit at the dishwasher - mainly for me to come by and clean it up - people trying to cheer me up, one person calling me the wrong name, and Ecco not being closed out until we closed the store...whatever...

Tom came by and tried to clear things up, I told him I am not one to complain about things, I'd rather just bottle them up and then go off on the mother fucker who was constantly leaving their fucking tray at the dishwasher..he said he knows I don't like to open my mouth about things, but if there is anything that ever bothers me let him know, as long as it is constructive....who's to say what's constructive..people can't do their job..one person's wrong is another's way of life, who the fuck am I to call them out and judge....

so I made good money, found out I will be in the serving training class next week, excited? hardly not..came back here and called it a night....my left arm severely hurts, my mind/heart/soul is all aching as well. I don't know..I think I'll be stupid and call some people...oh yeah, and the dance party is dead...but we still have the normal Wednesday mood....













67% of Americans say "I Love you"..10% Actually Mean It.

Tuesday's the New Wednesday...


So anyone find it ironic that Holocaust Remembrance Day is the day before Hitler's Birthday???

What a day and what a happy mood I was in..go figure, Tuesdays rock..in the beginning..this may in fact be a little streak we got going here...can we keep Tuesdays being an awesome day, for the most part..until it turns Wednesday and all goes to hell..

woke up in my tent, got the girl off to her class that she could not skip, but I stayed awake, it was weird...I started doing random things, like writing a "much needed"(?) letter..whatever

I Spit on Your Grave...
..which is kinda kinky...

Ok, so some may call this weird, but I am attracted to the way my saliva smells when reacting to certain skin...

ok, I have always been a big fan of my own saliva, don't ask me why, I just like the way it smells, it's an arousing/comforting sort of feeling..every since I was a little kid it always made me happy to smell it, and even yearn for more. Ever lick your lips, and then you smell a little something, and then you push your upper lip to your nostrils and take in a big breath hoping to find out where tat smell is coming from..yeah, I do this all day..

And now, I have come to the realization that it (my saliva) reacts differently to different people. For the most part, generally speaking, I never noticed my saliva scent on any other's skin. It always seemed non-existent, just as if I were to put water onto someone's skin. And the few times there was something different, it was a nulled, faint aroma; something barely there, almost to the point to leave you wondering if you really did indeed smell that..

But of course with the lesser you must have the greaters, there have only been a couple accounts of a really strong, I want to say pungent, but not containing the evil connotations, scent. These of course have come very recently, and I tell you, it makes me happy. Having my saliva react on these ladies skin in such a powerful way is disturbingly exciting...I don't know if that is a good thing, that A, my saliva turns me on, B, it reacts differently with different people, and 3, whether having a stronger reaction to my saliva means I am supposed to be with this person...

Sunny Day...
Cancer and Vince...

yeah..they go together, in more ways than one..believe me..

Today was my day off...and though I said on my next day off I was going to get things done...you can't get anything accomplished on a Sunday...so I did just that, nothing really...I'm sure I would have tried making a blog post, but would have gone stir crazy trying to bide my time...but luckily Vince and Elizabeth stopped by.

Granted they did wake me up from one of my naps, and freaked my shit out by banging on the window..I was happy to realize it was them. we talked on the steps for a bit, catching up in some ways, then we went inside..I had to change into going out/worthy clothes..but first i played DDR for Vince, then showered quickly.

we then took a stroll down Mitchell to see the perspective area for where we will be living next year...Chris has a house, actually his grandfather's, for us to live in - since he won't be needing it because his douche ass bought friends, sold out, and joined a frat..whatever..he said I could look at the house anytime..so I called him yesterday, asked if I could stop in and take a look since my friends I'll be living with were going to be in town..he replied with some crazed response that it won't be a problem, he'll set up an appointment with his grandfather??? anyways, we walked up and down the road, commenting on which house we hoped it would be, I suppose that was funner than if he actually known the street numbert..whatever..

We got back to the house and then Vince decided we should eat at McDonald's, so we drove over to Reed (we were too tired from walking?) and there we met back up with Amber who was more than happy to buy our meals - I even got to take a Big Mac home for later!

Then Vince wanted to go to Target for whatever reason, I don't ask, it's something to do..so we went...then went ot the mall, bought candy..but the kicker is that it's a candy store so I thought they may actually have the coveted coke bottles I have been searching for..but alas, no..they have non-sugarcoated coke bottles and they also have blue coke bottles, which taste plain as hell (I know what you're thinking, I should automatically like those..well fuck off..)

Fuck Little 5..
and all their parties too..

God..if there was one week I'd like a vacation....it'd be this weekend..

So I decided to sleep in, a recurring theme I am now living with..there wasn't really anything I wanted to do..I had work at 6, so I finally rolled out of bed at 2..I had wanted to go to all the garage sales in the morning..but I wasn't going to wake up at 7, and only get maybe 2 hours of sleep..so whatever..my hype about crap for sale from the night prior suddenly vanished into my dreams.

I left Mindy's and went home, I pull into the drive way, get out of my car and one of the female's from the house next door starts talking to me..though to anyone else it would have seemed like a casual next-door neighbor exchange, I could sense something in the words..she asked if I could do her a huge favor..she asked if I could take her and her friends to the little 500 race..Ugggh, the one thing I was trying to avoid with all possibilities...she handed me ten dollars and bought my soul.

I took her and her three friends to the other side of town where the damned thing was taking place..making our way through the hordes of drunkards with a quick stop at an ATM, wherein this girl accidentally pushed the $100 button when in reality she wanted only $20..the buttons aren't even close to one another..whatever...

so I broke my own restrictions and was semi-involved with the weekends activities...frankly I don't get it...do we really have to have some sort of lame excuse to cause ourselves to have liver damage, lose conscienceness, possibly get raped, for an entire weekend...blows my frickin' mind...

so after that I found out my internet didn't work, I had no idea what to do..so I took a nap. it was uneventful, but good...got up just in time for work..I went in and found out it was going to be a hellish night. the parking lot told a different story, it looked somewhat full, but I was able to get a spot rather quickly, and more spots were around..but one of the bussers called off, and it was mainly parties of 5 or more for the night..I closed, made decent money and went back home..

I was happy because I had the house to myself, yay! the internet was still dead, so I watched TV...which angered me to a point of confusion...I was watching SNL..which normally ends at 12 on CST, which is what we are currently on..but for whatever reason it ends at 1am here...I was so blown away by that..

I was going to call it an early night, once everyone got home..but then the internet started working and I had to catch up on everything I missed...and then I had to pick up Amber from a party (a little 5oo party I'm assuming..) and bring her back here for the night.

so there's the jist of it all...I don't understand Little 500 weekend, don't want any part of it, I've accepted sleeping into my way of life - not feeling worthless for that reason anymore, and yeah..life is a meaningless waste of time....













Life is not a waste of time, time is a waste of life. So get wasted all of the time and have the time of your life!

Fragile Fridayís
Handle with careÖ

So my question to all is, just why is it that Fridayís tend to be the worst day of the week?

Well it started off nicely, I always enjoy it when I wake up next to someone..but of course I was in no mood to actually wake up; I was tired, upset with the world around me, and just wanted to cuddle myself to deathÖso of course I was late for work, but I only made myself as late as I could actually be before they would need me. I am supposed to be there at 1030 ñ for what reason I am stilling debating, putting tables together or some lame thing, which the hosts actual end up doing before I even get there, so whatever. The first table leaves at 11:42 without fail. Nothing ever before that, and itís the first of many to come, especially on a Friday.

I worked my ass off, for whatever reason I was in extreme helping out mode, pre-bussing tables for servers and just rockiní in general. I was able to keep up with the pace of the afternoon, I never had a break, but didnít really care. There was even one point where Ecco looked like a war-zone ñ having a huge party leave and ironically all the other table around get up as well.

Then after 2 they cut down to closers, everyone peaced out, and I was left empty handed. I was outraged by the fact that I busted my ass, kept up with everything, and for as busy as it was, they left me there to die. Just as I was starting to become happy and everything, BAM, people fuck me over and send me right back to the way I wasÖ

The highlight of the day was the huge water fight Cassidy and I had in the alley. So it goes, I was getting a drink from the pop machine, and I was singing a song that was playing on the radio, it was the oldies station so it was one of the good classic songs that have the high parts..you know what ones Iím talking about..so I was singing it, and I knew someone was going to comment on my singing.. most the people just laughed or smiled, but then cassidy made a comment, something about whoís meowing or whatever..so in mist her sentence I threw ice cubes at her back. She turned and asked why I did that, I replied with because I wasnít ready to do what I had originally wanted to, which was this..and as I said that I was filling my Dixie cup with water and then splashed it towards her direction. She walked over to me, dumped out the sugars in her sugar caddy, and started to fill it up with water. Thatís when I took off and flew out the in door.

I ran round to the bar and asked Ryan to fill my cup up with waterÖand then I walked in the out door to throw Cassidy off. It was a standoff, we both looking at each other across the way, holding our respective cups of water. I told her we could end this right now, put down the waters and call it a day before it gets ugly. But of course she wanted to get even, a feeling she would later regret. After she said no, she threw the water at me, I tried moving out of the way and charged her, hoping to get a closer shot with the water. After I nailed her with my cup, she turns and grabs the pitcher of water behind herÖshe threw that a couple times before she ran out, and then I charged again, grabbing the other pitcher of water and dumping it all over herÖand as she stood there I refilled a it and splashed her in the faceÖshe was shocked. After I made a fool of her I quickly ran and grabbed the squeegee to clean off the floor and dispose of any evidence of a water fight. Luckily for Cassidy she was wearing a water repellant shirt, and though it did itís job the best it could, she still had water on her and wet marks all overÖa couple people congratulated me as being victorious, some saying they knew it was going to get ugly and they just had to stick around not to miss a thing..ohhh good timesÖ

The closers did tip me out (most of themÖCassidy grrrÖ), and the funniest thing was even Michael tipped me out, and he has never in his life tipped me out. But it gets better when everyone was talking about tipping out bussers, and who was good, Michael actually had the nerve to say he generally will only tip Jeremy and I outÖI would have called him out right then and there had he just not tipped me out todayÖbut he ended up getting his uppings to comeÖ.

So, after the closers were cut and going home, Michael on his way out made a mistake, one that may cost him his job. Right before walking into the foyer he stopped at one of the plants and slyly pulled out a bottle of Principato Wine. He would have gone undetected had the bottle not slipped from his hands, fell to the floor, and shattered everywhere. I was at the host stand along with a group of people and we were all really confused as to how something glasslike would have broke over thereÖwell my natural busser instincts kicked in, I grabbed a mop, broom, sweeper, squeegee, and wet floor sign and cleaned it upÖas I was cleaning J.T. came up to me and I asked him, ìdid that just really happen?î he replied saying yes, and that earlier he had overheard Michael telling Cassidy about how he does it all the time..

Well managers somehow got wind of all this, and a select few were brought into the office one by one to write down what they saw/heardÖyeah, weíll see what happensÖ

So I got off of work, being disappointed as hell with my disposstion. I was asked to stay and bus for tonight, but I had plans, which I decided to cancel..well I was going to cancel them in order to bus, but then after all that happened, I just wanted to go home by myself and take a nap. I had even told Summer I was busy tonight with things when she called me at work earlierÖ

I went home, showered and then Mindy called and asked if I wanted to go grocery shopping..the one thing I love to do, so of course I obliged. I went over to her place, took a nap in the time it took her to get ready and then we went shopping. To tell you the truth, shopping was fun and all, but not my normal fun-ness; I think it had to do with the fact that I just woke up and was not really in a good mood to begin with.

We got back, she cleaned out her fridge and I got to eat everything left! JT came over and helped Mindy/talked to her about whatever was troubling him..I was the jerk on the couch watching Backdraft asking every ten minutes where the hell dinner was..we were having a taste test of which BBQ sauce Mindy should use for the party on Sunday and which pasta and cheese she should useÖthis later turned into a smell test of her perfumes because I said she should wear something that actually smells good ñ like what her roommate was wearing, Happy Heart; which stunned the roommate completely since she hadnít even walked by me but I could smell it from across the roomÖI have a nose for these thingsÖ

JT left right after dinner and the roommate went out because it was her birthday..but Mindy had to stay to start baking and getting things ready for her momís birthday party. We stayed up til 4, her baking the cake, me laying on the ground watching TV with the occasional walk into the kitchen to see what was going on or steal a taste of the frosting.

After that it was time for bed, I was ready 6 hours ago, but whatever..the day was long, had itís ups and downsÖ












"If I had a dime every time your ghetto booty knocked into something..."

WNDP28...
CANCELLED?!?!?!?

I brought it into the world, I have the right to take it out....

Four Twelve
A Lot for One Day...

I don't know why, but this monday actually rocked...go figure...

So the consisted of nothing much....i awoke at 8, and random intervals, but couldn't necesarilly get up because of the person sleeping with me in the tent...so i waited half awake, half asleep til the alrams started going off at 10 and Mindy awoke...by then i wasn't in the wake up mood, but since i wasn't fully asleep i walked her to the door and stayed awake for a bit longer...i accomplished some things, printed out some important documents, but never went through with the second halves of those...whatever, i passed out at noon, feeling i needed a nap with the intentions of doing the second half after i got up..

i re-awoke at 3 and pissed the day away with menial shit..i was happy to see i left myself a slice of the pizza from last night for me to eat today. after that i played DDR and showered ( i know, i'm rockin' at this cleanliness thing..) it was a little sad because it took me back to when we were first getting settled into this house, back in the fall of '04 - i know soooo long ago...but yeah, our days used to consist of playing DDR in the afternoon, in the sweltering heat, raising the temperature of the house past 80 and making it smell like a college dorm...it was good, well except the last part...

after i showered it was time to go to work, 6, wow..a late start for a monday, but whatever, they love doing random things with my scheduling...

Ghostbusting Sunday...
..and all was well...

Sunday was a day of firsts, and just an overall easy day...

So I had to be at work by 1, which is a weird time for a Sunday shift, but whatever..I worked with two bussers I don't care for..one I've never worked with, the mentally handicapped one, and the other the 'retarded' potsmoker...I swear, where do they hire these fucks..so the only problem I have with the actual handicapped kid, besides the fact I don't look at the handicapped, is he can't really do the job well..he misses a lot of steps and is slow....alright, he's frickin' handicapped....and as for the potsmoker, it's been at least a month since we've worked together, probably because they noticed the disdain I had when I did work with him..I actually thought he was doing a mediocre job of bussing, but I won't give him any benefit of the doubt, I've hated him since day one and I know he's no good..so he's thrown into the category of those who can't bus worth ass....

I worked til 7, funny thing being the amount of money I made was shit..the people who were cut at 2 tipped me out, but those who closed lunch didn't even bother - I just don't get people, there's no rhyme or reason or rationale....so I walked away with a whole six dollars..now I know it was slow and all, but five of that was from those lunch fucks..the other dollar from a dinner person who got cut before I...oh, and I did get a hug as a tip out from Karla, yeah, that rocked my world....

so being cut at 7 made me overzealous...the day was a little awkward, but a gradual build up to something good....the entire time bussing I couldn't/didn't want to open my eyes, it felt like there was something in them..but not necessarily tired..it was weird....then I got into the "let's fight..or throw things" mood...which actually turned into crazy Jason running around mood...so yeah.when Karl asked who the DBD busser was, with me replying as myself, he told me to get out and I started jumping up and down like some madman...and after the thrtee minutes of that I stopped, and his response was,"no, seriously..get the hell out" I was everso happy...

I made it back here..ate a quick snack, played DDR and then showered, feeling everso refreshed. Later Mindy came over and we watched Ghostbusters 1 & 2 - with her never seeing either of them before in her life...good god I thought there was something wrong with this girl, especially since she loves the hell out of BTTF!!! they go hand in hand, both exceptional movies of the 80's!

so we watched them, enjoyed the piss out of them, ate my deep dish pizza, and then we called it a night...it was weird going to the tent at 130..hell, anything before 4-5 is 180 from the norm...but we didn't go to sleep then ( I mean how could I?) we stayed up for a little bit longer til we passed out. Note, I had to turn the A/C on in the tent and leave the door partly open...I'm not used to this extra body radiating heat thing...













The last thing I currently need is a girl who appreciates me....

A Beautiful Day..
my favorite accident..

Today happened..that's about all I can say..it was good, things happened, but nothing random?

it was a very beautiful day today, the weather was slightly a little warm, but the sun was shining brightly, birds were chirping and flying about, all was well and happy..but I had no idea...I slept til11, and I had no intentions of getting up. but I knew that my day was going to be short so I might as well just get it over with..

I made it to work on time and, you know, for a Saturday, it wasn't like a normal Saturday...I was able to keep busy for the first two hours..then the other busser got cut by the third..during the third and the fourth I basically sat around..I ate a salad, harassed a fair share of people, staged mock fights..all with breaks every 15 minutes or so in order to check tables and make sure they were clean....

my replacement came in at 4, she wanted to pick up my shift but didn't want to go in at noon, so I agreed to come in for four hours so she could sleep in...I left work, I even got tipped out as well, made me very happy. got back here, passed out for a little over an hour, and awoke, grabbing something to eat and started to get ready for the night...and even after I got a phone call to let me know what the deal was, I still took my time getting ready, gosh I'm such a fuck...

I decided to drive only because I thought if I went with my original plan of walking I'd arrive late..I parked in my favorite downtown area to park at and then walked the remaining distance to Rhino's. there I met up with Amber, Jess, and Shizamm..we waited in line for a bit, more people merging into the mesh in front of us pushed us further back in line..

the line finally started moving and we got inside, and then quickly pushed our way to the front. as soon as they started to check the sound I forgot that I left my earplugs in my car (yeah, I'm one of those people...) we had to sit through three other bands before Motion City got on..the first two bands..whatever...the third band..yes, that's where it was at...if I were to walk away from that show tonight, I would have at least heard one descent band.. I mean they weren't completely rockin' my face off..they were just this group of old guys playing good music..

Then Motion City got on..it was funny because they were all professional about it, they had in their ear-pieces and in the beginning were constantly like, "umm, could I have more/less whatever in my eairpiece..." the show they put on was good..I especially enjoyed the singer's hair...one thing I don't like about shows..well two things...one: you got those rowdy kids who feel it is appropriate to push and shove..that's their dancing...and two: it's always too hot..these places don't have AC, or they just refuse to turn it on..

one of the funnier points of the night was the irony of a conversation I had wit Amber...once inside we noticed it looked like middle school had just let out...so we were commenting on that, and how I should hook up with one by the end of the night..so in between the breakdown and setup of the third/fourth set this random girl comes up to me and commented on my outfit..Ironically enough her group of friends were standing in front of us, so she stood with them...and then she kept talking to me..well me and Amber..but mainly me. the girl did give me her number, and we danced throughout the night, and yeah, she liked me....

so after the show the place clears out, few sticking around...I wanted a pic for some odd reason, but didn't find one, no biggie..so the band members came out and were taking pictures and signing autographs, so Amber and Jess were standing around the guys to get things signed..and then there was me..I just had a question..once the crowd thinned I walked up to the singer and had this brilliant conversation...
AP - So I don't want any autographs or anything..I just got a question..
MC- ok, shoot
AP - so I was wondering just how do you get your hair like that, cuz it's fuckin' cool
MC - umm,well, I use volumizers..yeah a lot of those..then I got this clay stuff...it comes in an orange can thing and I can't think of the name...but it's like a wax putty thing and I just put that in there with the volumizers and whatnot...
AP- ok, cool deal, I was just curious because the hair rocked my face off..*starts to turn* oh yeah, and uh good show too...

so, yeah, after I told him his hair rocked my face off I started to leave on that note..then I realized I had to make a comment about the show, otherwise I'd be some sort of douche..and then I said "good show", so clitche and ingenuine...but that low response after the hair response, I felt a little stupid..

so then I got back to my car, went over to Big Red - they had Grey Goose Vodka on a killer price, so I picked up a couple bottles..and then went back to 412. upon entering everyone was completely faded and the "party" was pretty much dead...and it was only 12:30...everyone who wasn't passed out was telling me the night's events, involving drunkenness, concussions, and an ambulance trip to the hospital..great.....whatever party animals...

my night ended with some food and on the computer now...













"you're adorable...he's adorable..isn't he adorable..."

Happy "V" Day...
A good make up day

So after the horrible day of Thursday, Friday came and made up for it; not by doing anything extraordinary..just being alright...

For once I actually woke up...the alarm went off and I woke up..there was no problem, I knew it was time to get up, and I did just that, weird..I got ready and was on my way, extremely early for work might I add. work was slow, especially for a Friday..it was too nice of a day so everyone was out enjoying their day, having picnics, and not going to the OG..

now I'm not one to go out of my way to make it a point to let everyone know it's my birthday, but at work, when you're working on tips, you got to sell it like it's your job..so as soon as I got in, I wrote "Happy Birthday" next to my name of the "Who's Who" - a list of names of who is working and what their section is and so forth...well it worked, I had people coming up ot me throughout the day saying, "I saw someone wrote happy birthday next to your name so I had to wish you a happy BDay as well!!!" the funny thing was when Mindy B came up to me and jokingly asked if I wrote it, I told her out right I did, for the sole purpose that people would give me pity tips since it was my birthday...in the end, even though it was slow I still walked out at 4 with thirty dollars and a five dollar gift certificate to KFC..oh, and some free food I snacked off from Mindy, and Kurtis actually got me the Ashlee Simpson CD!!!...how rocking is all that?

got out of work, changed into my uber-scene clothes in the car and went for my interview. it went well, I am invited back for the second interview with the store manager...yay, maybe a possible second job..we'll see..and then I went back to the house..snacked on my HUGE trifle and then passed out...funny thing about that is while I was lying down I thought, god, it'd suck if I were to fall asleep and have Amber call me only to find out I had fallen asleep...well that's just what happened...she called wondering where I was, if I was ready or not..of course I was not..I still needed to shower and prep myself..I did all of it in a hurried fashion, running out the door, made it to the MAC to meet up with Amber so we could watch

*Awww, I'm a jackpad and didn't even finish this...well, let's see what I remember...we watched the opera..it was in English so that threw me off...but afterwards we walked to this little convenience mart in one of the dorms..I grabbed a crap ton of food to buy with Amber's remaining meal points..funny thing though..as we get up to the checkout, drop everything at the counter, the guy starts to ring up the food and Amber can't find her swipeycard thing...yeah, so she ran all the way back to her dorm to get this card, came back and "paid" for my food"..a birthday gift in a way...just in enough time too, they were pretty close to closing...and we weren't the only ones who forgot their ID thing as well..so naaaah.

we walked back to my place, horrible idea carrying all those groceries, but whatever..when I get home I realize I forgot to grab my keys, and for once there is nobody home..so I had to break in and climbed through the window..a few moments later Katy from work stopped by and we all just hung out....and that's all I can remember now...we stayed up for a long time, talked, and then went to bed?













If anyone remembers what the title is about...I'll laugh

Horrible...
what's the use...

So far it's been a completely horrible day..and I've only been up for half an hour...

why is it when you're happy, when things are leaning toward the good side of complacency, things happen, good/bad, but you're fine with it all..when everything has to come at you? and of course it isn't one thing, because you'd be able to overcome that no problem..but it's when your at your best they throw everything at you. in the thirty minutes I was actually awake and moving around I had at least three things utterly destroy my day, building up on one another, becoming more powerful as the second hand passes...

I'm going back to sleep













Actions speak louder than words....

WNDP27..
bad vibes...

So like all good things...wait, did he just.....

Tonight's WNDP was one that may be considered the final straw on the camel's back, the key turning point in shifting the momentum to a sudden halt, the end of an era...that is if nothing is recticified, reconciliations...

A funny note of mention, while at work the WNDP was on my mind, not tonight's in particular, rather the whole entity..I was questioning just what would become of the WNDP over summer break and more importantly, next school year. with the only person really pushing for it, aka me, out of the house that would leave Neil as the next in line to want it to happen..and that's only at times...so as for the WNDP taking place every Wednesday night that may not seem likely....

when I arrived home, at 11 - I was in no real hurry to get out of work, no more Ashlee at 1030..and in reality it you would come on at 930 due to the time change - I really wasn't in the WNDP mindset...I opened the door and there wasn't a soul to be found (other than the housemates..), and I was surprisingly happy with that.

TueDown...
nothing to go...

second day off from work, no trips made...I was doing other important things...

So like yesterday this one started off the same way...waking up to alarms next to Mindy, though this time she actually did get up for her classes. I was thinking about getting up, I really wanted to shower feeling everso nasty in that warm sort of way..but I slept through it all....later I awake to Mindy crawling back into the tent with me only a couple hours later.

We awoke again at 4, this time with Mindy leaving for work..she asked me to walk to her car at the Union, but I knew I had to take a shower or something before I did anything, especially looking as homely as I did, what with my hair a mess and all..yeah.

She left, I went upstairs to play DDR, and then I showered. I really didn't do much after that either, caught up on some blogs, ate a sandwich, should have actually did some other things, but never got around to wanting to do so...

Later I went grocery shopping with Amber...funny how I love to grocery shop, but this was not the same..I was out there..the lights played a big part to the deliriousness..not going out into natural light, or artificial for that matter..just staying in a tent all day kinda kills the eyes..I bought some food..nothing I ever really need, just things I throw into the cart..I don't understand...

Came back here, but Amber had to get back to finish up homework or something of that matter...we had a..I don't know what you would call it, it wasn't an argument, those are fun..there was an unpleasant, unsettling departure...whatever, just makes me feel worthless - then my stubbornness makes me walk away...

So then I sat around waiting... since it is Tuesday we have our little tradition going on Tuesday nights; wherein we all get together after 11 and watch Court TV, well, that's my plan - I like to watch Forensic Files and the Greatest Heists...everyone else is all about hanging out, playing games, drinking, and whatever else...I just want to watch Court TV y'all..

it was an interesting night, as it always is..Mindy made chicken noodle dumpling soup (god I love food..), people came over, I grew tired of it all..I just wanted to watch TV, but their loud drunken talks wouldn't allow it..so I read magazine for a bit as they played What the Fuck. the crowd randomly thinned out, leaving JT (and of course Mindy and myself..) I won the hairy ass contest, as(s) always, hands down is it really a competition though? there was a quasi-cuddle session on the couch for awhile...JT of course trying to get a little fresh, but he decided to leave and let us go at it, as he nicely put it..

so I stayed the night, and I do actually like to cuddle with Mindy, a rarity yes, but it's a little impossible as she has no covers on her, a fan blowing and is half naked..whereas I am completely clothed, wrapped up in blankets and trying to shield myself from the blowing air....I don't think that's a good sign, but whatever...

Those who know can never say, those who say can never know...

Mindy Monday
Nothing accomplished

I can sum up the day with this. ..yup.

So of course after coming back to my place we spent the night together, got a couple hours of sleep before the alarms went off..but we ended up getting more. Every time an alarm went off Mindy turned them off; she needed to be at work by 1130, needless to say she never made it. Now it was her choice to not go, I tried to coax her to get up and go..she kept saying she?d just be late..but late never happened, she never showed and never called despite my efforts...

So putting that aside the whole day we spent in the tent, no joke. We did get up at 3 to make "breakfast", which consisted of French toast, something that I had been craving for a little bit now. After that superb meal, we took a nap, again we did wake up at different random times throughout the rest of the day, getting out again at 10 to go to subway. We got to Subway right after they were closed, we think, only because they locked the doors behind us and were upset..though the doors were unlocked, people were inside, and the "Open" light was still on..and come on..who closes at 1030 anyways

After coming back and eating our Subway we walked to Reed and got some McDonald's desserts. Those two instances, and me moving the cars around at noon were the only times I had actually made it outside on that beautiful day.. We lounged around for a bit, I showed her some pictures on my computer, then we decided to watch a movie..while looking through my DVD collection she asked me, "did you like Vanilla Sky" I about had a breakdown...so that was the movie we decided to watch, with me constantly pausing it so I could laugh, or minimally explain some things.. by the time we got finished watching the movie it was close to 5, so again she stayed the night. Tonight marks the official day of something with the heating blankets being turned off.

Because Mindy stayed with me the entire day, I had yet another excuse to not go to the Region. Litterally nothing was accomplished, I slept an entire day away while spending 30+ hours with the same person. Funny side points were the several arguments we heard throughout the day, things about paper towels, toilet paper, and stink bombs..

All in all it was a good day, nothing was accomplished, but I got a much needed rest? And besides, I knew I wasn't going to the region on Monday, it came too soon and I wasn't prepared..especially picking up two shifts on my day off..whatever













Nothing achieves nothingness, and I'm fine with that....

Picking Up Centrally
..not going Upland...

So what would have been my day off, one of three, turned to be a double shift and me starving

So yesterday as I got to work I noticed a little note Tom put up at the host stand, asking if anyone could come in tomorrow to help host. Well he was standing right there so I told him I could do it, I need the hours anyways, and he told me to come in at 1130. I figured it was my day off, but like I said I needed it and I would get out of there relatively early, 4 or so, and then be able to finish up my things and get ready for a long-awaited Region Trip. But then of course Chip wanted to back out of his picking up my Sunday Night shift, asking me to take it back along with ten dollars. I reluctantly obliged and therefore was stuck at the OG all day on Sunday.

I don't mind hosting, it's fun, as long as I get to greet..seating is where the actual pain comes in..having to know who just got sat what's open, and having servers constantly bitch at you..whatever, I'll open the door for people and say the same things over and over again...Anyways, I was able to greet seeings how nobody else actually likes to greet, therefore it's mine by default.

I was working til 4, and that only because I had to start bussing by 4..so at 3 as I was rolling silverware I called Alaina and asked if she could do me a favor, pick me up some Wendy's before she came into work..she said she didn't know if she would be able to because that would make her late..I didn't understand the exact science behind all that..it was 3 when I called, she just got out of the shower..and Wendy's is on the way here, right down the road..whatever

Regardless, Alaina came into work at 4 sans my Wendy's..and I was completely crushed. Luckily Sara P saved the day, somewhat, giving me her leftover appetizer meal. That amount of food was enough to make me less belligerent and not want to break anyone's face at that moment..maybe just some glass.

The night progressed, it not stopped being busy, even after 9 we still had people coming in..it was ridiculous..the highlight of the night was when Tom ordered Smokey Bones food for all us. I was soo happy to have free food, not only because it's food, it's free, but my hunger was starting to re-appear. And then I threw out the stupidiest/funniest joke ever...I told the ol food=shit joke...Tom just looked at me, and disappointingly told me to go buss some tables..and as I passed by him again, I was like, come on, you know you're gong to be telling that one laer..and he agreed...it's soo good, yet so stupid.

Got off work and made it home by 11, the plan was to meet at Upland right after work, so I quickly changed and made my way. Upon getting there I saw Randall and Kara were already there unbeknownst to the plans, and they were getting ready to peace out but then they saw us arrive so they stayed..

We stuck around for about an hour or so before rolling out over to Lauren's. but as we made it out to the parking lot we met up with Will and Char, and they tagged along with us. At Lauren's we all just hung out, they put a movie in, we tried to play Clue afterwards, but that was a no-go. So then we played Sorry... I was the victor of that one. I didn't really like hanging out with that crowd to be honest, something was off...I don't know if it was the illegal drugs or just what..but I went into my quiet reclusive mode, not saying but two words all night.

After Sorry was completely finished everyone decided to peace out. As we walked out Mindy came over to me and we started talking outside by out cars. We both had stories to tell one-another..so we decided to go back to my place since it was so cold outside now.

Back at my place we talked, giggled, had a good time and then went to sleep by 6. It was a pretty crazy day looking back on it, nothing crazily crazy, but just a weird day all in all. The Region changed times whereas we did not..so now we are on the same time with them..and to tell you the truth..I don't like that at all. I don't like how no matter what, it will be the same time..which will make any future road trip to the region even more of a problem..I've always like to go with the thought it would take at most 2 hours to get there..and at most 3 to get back..now....now it's the same both ways..I have no change of time to give me a benefit...this sucks....


My Pick for NCAA Championship...UNC over Illinois!!!












Time is just a waste of a recorded past and an unsustainable future...

Happy Birthday Grandma