Merrrrrrrrrr....

You know, sadly enough that has never been a title for a blog posting..and believe me I looked. Astonishing isn't it...but if we all remember correctly, and in fact I had to be told this...the very title of this blog, the entire thing that is, was Merrrrrrr with some crappy subtitle as always, but still....the whole thing was called Merrr at one time in history. So that means I never titled a blog post Merrr because of the pure unadulterated redundancy..makes sense...because I was almost positive I made a post called Merr, but then I also remember renaming it for that simple fact it was the damn title.....

wow, a lot of garble there....but this comes to light only for the reason I heard somebody else say it...yeah, somebody else said Merrrr, in question form. Yeah, I about creamed myself when I heard it...it's not every day you meet someone who uses such made-up crazed words as yourself and (insert other things here...) or has their initials make up the word M.E.R., ouch, sorry abut that, low blow.....I'm even hurting from that one....

but yeah...I can't remember the origin for Merrr...but slightly I do..there are parts of it I remember..maybe stemming from the Latin root Merp, or is it Greek..something like that...

anyways, that's all I gots for now..just something I wanted to share with you all..kinda like show and tell, rather it was stumble upon something weird and tell it to the select few who still read...goodnight

Lasagna Day 05/22/04
Well actually 05/23/04..shut up...

Well Saturday was a fun filled day...a long awaited day, that only made everyone wait more...

I worked at the Robin in the morning, knowing I should have gotten it off or switched or something..but left it alone..got off and starting making my way to Jim's...but he wasn't home, so what to do...killed an hour and a half driving the 1/2 hour is trying to get from Scherreville to Highland, no joke...and as soon as I got there I go right to it..getting out all the ingredients and going to town...

Jim left again to pick up his girl Amy..everyone else was at Pete's, so I was alone...then Tom showed up and I directed him to Pete's as well....I got off to a late start not only because of the delay, but because I forgot to prep the damn garlic...yeah, that took a lengthy time..but once that was out of the way it was clear sailing...well as clear as a 4 hour sauce can take...

everyone eventually made their way back to Jim's and we waited..and waited....Pete had to work at Target..and well, left before eating..yeah....

I felt terrible, cooking this dinner for the folk and having them eat so frickin' late....I slaved in the kitchen for 6 hours..I even enslaved Amy and Jessica who were nice enough to pretend to want to help out...they helped cut up the rest of the garlic and some of the vegies...there were a couple times I could have used a few more burners on the stove, but whatever..I made with what I had, and in pretty good fashion too...

I cooked on Saturday and we ate on Sunday..it was close to 1230 when dinner was finally served..everyone enjoyed it, or so they told me..maybe it was just the prolonging of the hunger that did it, or maybe all the love I put into it, but yeah I thought it was alright..

and thankfully Jessica took it upon herself to make dessert, a yummy chocolate cake...Relieving that stress from myself, but I did have a cake planned to boot..but I didn't have to make it, whew, relief....

so we had 2 and a half lasagnas to go around...I was really stressing at the end, running down to almost nothing for ingredients and toppers...time definitely not on my side, and a crowd of people dying of starvation with one already gone..yeah I was feeling it the next morning...at least one showed sympathy towards me, made me feel a bit better, but still I fucked up

and the funny thing is, I actually got calls from old friends on Saturday, asking if I wanted to do something, how funny is that...but it gets better..when I told them I couldn't because I was cooking lasagna their response was, "so...who are you in love with?" oh man, it kills me...

anyways that was my tumultuous weekend...how was yours???

Have I Given Up...

on people, but hitting the head here I'd have to say my friends..well what used to be my friends...

why are certain things bothering me unlike ever before, what's the deal. I mean I am trying to do my best here, let this phase pass so we can get back to track like normal...

driving you to a point where breaking seems all but too certain, their annoying little tendencies spinning you in circles..and then they do something to show that they are:caring..that they are:compassionate..they are:friends...what gives..

so based on past experiences, I'll bite my lip, not let myself get pinned, stay out of the corners, even when those fuckers are pushing you in there...and keep my distance I guess, whatever works....just let the cycle take its course...

It's Been A Couple...
Or I've Had a Couple...

Alright, here's a little bit of useless information that pertains to nothing in particular, has no relevance onto anything, no point, significance, the points can't even stand alone, makes utterly no sense and is just a bunch of garbage to begin with, but in light of saying it 12 times in most recent history, here it is again...

The Point System:

So everybody has in their head the ideal mate, some people can narrow it down to shoe size, which is just crazy...but for me, well, I really don't have an envisioned woman, I mean really, what's the point....you're just wasting everyone's time with that sort of nonsense..making everyone live up your expectations and standards when they are built upon an ideal system, and we aren't living in a communistic state so why bother???

So as for me, I play it by ear really..I'm always open to new ideas, will hear anybody out, and tries to (I say try only because I know I can't always be perfect) but isn't judgmental based on first appearances...

But then there's the point system...so when I meet someone I can like them or dislike them...however it turns out, they can earn "points" in my book by having/doing/being/whatever some of the following things....

Bonus Points:
- you are wearing a skirt or like to wear skirts,any length of course that's fine by me...you like to get dressed up in a skirt every now and then, ok... *side tangent, if I asked you to wear a skirt for a special occasion don't get pissed for whatever reason you have against me that day
- if you can speak French, it's so dirty I like it...kinda ties in with the next thing, yet not..
-or just have have an accent in general, like Egle with her Lithuanian accent
-or are mexican, latino, spanish, whatever..can't explain tat one to well...maybe it was Vanilla Sky that sealed the deal with that one....or maybe yet it was the Wagners..yeah I could so go for that
- Musically inclined...can play an instrument or sing, something like that..don't have to be a master, just show some liking and interest..
- Crazy...but in that good way, not the psychobitch going awol on your ass..crazy in the good way, you know...

I don't know how much the next are "bonus points" but are something...
- must appreciate good (my) music..Led Zeppelin, Bob Dylan, the Stones, etc..maybe I'm getting too ideal for you
- Not stupid..must show some intelligence...must like going to the art museum, aquarium, plays, etc..
- oh, and as for kissing goes...has to do one thing, one word..not gong to it into it, but yeah, that has to be there...

Now of course there are "bonus points" and "Extra Credit points" the difference is subtle, but there....let me explain...meet a girl, she has a given characteristic I like, such as wearing a skirt..she gets a bonus point for that..it's a random thing..nobody gets docked points for not having those characteristics..it's just a slight preference sort of thing..but then the extra credit points are something that is beyond the norm, nothing I would ever ask for, but found someone who had it/was it/whatever, they get extra credit points...nobody asked them for it, but they went out on there own, put forth the extra effort and BAM...understand???

Extra Credit:
Basically pretty simple stuff..if you are an actress, or are extremely rich, famous, model, musician in the sense you are really good at whatever you play or are in a band, an author, famous artist/photographer..you know, something along the lines of that..

Now most of the time the girls I like are the brown/dark haired girls..breasts just a handful (all I need), maybe wears glasses...smarter than I, pretty girls to me.....and then there is the one girl every cycle to come in who breaks all those norms..the blonde haired, blue eyed, large breasted, ditzy girl...like Egle...but that always amounts to nothing (which is for the better) and I'm back to the good ol norm..

I think that's everything...but I feel I forgot something..who knows, well, whatever the case may be, those are just some things I'd like, not necessities, but whatever, it's late and I need to lay down now....

That Was A Close One...

Yeah, my mother is back in town and I almost made a trip over to my grandparents, accidentally..I forgot she was coming up this week for something, but luckily I remembered before I even got started over there

I remember having the conversation with my grandma on Friday about the whole ordeal. my grandma called us both stubborn..she actually thinks my mother is more stubborn than I am, wow....

but yeah, she should be gone by wednesday, evenso I'll call before I even make an attempt over there this week...or I "could always just stop in anyway, I'm sure your mother would like to see you...you've only got one mother..." yeah, she only has one kid, and that's all she'll ever have *zing* oh god, I always love to bring out those jokes about my mother whenever possible...because not only is it funny, my grandmother even laughs at them, ha.

so yeah, just a little bit o info for you all...

Cheese on the Concrete....

Just a quick update....who knows how long it will be before I post some more...and I was on a roll too I know....

Let's see...today is Friday..I think it may be a movie night....lord knows I'll attempt that with a girl..but that'll fail (even though she said to call) and I'll end up doing what I do every night....

Remind me to order my mouse pad....mouse pad, who would ever have guessed....yeah, order that...

Tomorrow is Lasagna dinner party night....yeah, cooking two lasagnas..one very meat filled, the other very not meat filled....I've decided I'll be too exhausted to make desert so someone else has to make/buy a chocolate something....has to be baked too, baked chocolate and Merlot is an orgasm of the senses....

then after the dinner date, we will all watch a movie of my picking....and lordy will everyone shoot me for my picking....So Pete said he'd never watch another movie with Hugh Grant in it again, well he'll break this vow when he watches Love Actually with me...ha...ha..ha

but that's all I have on the screen for this weekend..next weekend there's a show...and yeah..that's it....wait, isn't there a show this weekend too??? oh my, well whatever....see you in my dreams ~ Jason Face

Conversation...

Is priceless....I hope I never utter the words, "well, this is an enlightening conversation" or some other sort of witty ass sarcastic remark such as that ever again....because damn, I love conversation..and I suppose even when there is "nothing" left to be said, it's just at a point when it's either really awkward and for some reason you "can't" talk, or maybe you and the other people/person are on the same exact wave length, you know what you are thinking....I'm rambling I'm sorry.....

I guess I've just enjoyed the past outings a lot..and maybe the conversations have rocked so much for everyone is because they are new..throwing new people into the equation can usually add up for some fun..sadly it's just getting more outrageous as well...which goes with my other topic to come in another post...

Random Idiot: So what did you do last night Jason
Jason: Oh the usual...Alt+Tab'ed at a ridiculous rate in order to decide which pics I liked..you know, same ol same ol
Random Idiot: ...

yeah, there's some props for ya kid, originality I lacked, though revised, still the same thing..take it

did have a good conversation in the beginning of the night last night, already mentioned that before, as I said, it got me know where but it was still nice to get it out..

then I had a conversation online later that was just as good...

ohh, and I had the greatest conversation...never said and can only be replayed in five years, maybe..depending if I feel like diverging such information to the public...

ohh, and why do I say, "goodnight" at the end of my posts when you just as I know damn well I won't be going to sleep for an extended period of time..it's just funny to see..

Well, that's all for now...Jason Face out

You're Fantasies Are Unlikely, But Beautiful...



Yeah..that's a painting, not a picture...

So I stumbled upon some of Gerhard Richter's work, I like his style, and well...he's damn good at it..

so here's a link for you to check out some of his other works...

makes me want to get to Chicago everso more quickly..when is that trip..anywho...

alright, enough creative energy..I'm off

And After Two Glasses...

Alright, what's up? Good god, did I actually just say what's up in my journal...ughhh, anywho look at me go, it's late, (it's never late, ha I contradict myself with the best of them) and now I'm a babbling idiot without any rhyme or reason...

Two glasses of wine keeps you in good health right? Sure, I'll play along with that, I'm always up for a good Merlot...

So it's now 340, I wonder how long it will actually take me to type this bad boy out..I think I started shortly after 3..and look where we are.....would you believe there are people who are actually up and online at this hour, amazing...and yeah, I'm talking to them...ok so there's only one, don't call me out on it...

It's still nice outside, yeah..I just went out to my car....almost made me have the desire to talk a walk or something, but instead I am here...I think I want to sleep, that's why....

I did talk some things out tonight, didn't really get me anywhere..in fact I just got up to the point of about to chisel away, but then we called it quits...

ohh ohhh, on a related subject, my mind made a breakthrough the other day..well not so much as a breakthrough break through...it was just able to "do" something it hasn't done or been able to do before...this makes no sense to anyone but myself..and I don't think the breakthrough is for the better, I mean it's now opened the floodgates for more problems, it was a step in a direction I didn't think I was going....yeah, confusing...and it was totally random, I had no control of it, just sitting in the car, and BOOM there it was..and instantaneously I said with regret, "well what now" yeah...

oh yeah, Lucky Charms...apparently I had some LC high and crashed horribly...don't ask me, I wasn't really there...but it seems that I was all giggly for an extended period of time...then I fell asleep..during Donnie Darko.....yeah well, I guess it was fun to watch?

Well I think that is all I can handle right now, gots to work in the morning..and there is a planned "break feast" in the workings for 6am....ughhh, I really don't want to wake for that, it'll be too early, but food is food..

ohhh *swoon*, take one last, big breath and shut her down....this is Jason Face reporting from the nether regions of the mind, I good you bid evening....

Wanna Go For a Walk??

Man, tonight is beautiful out....I feel like a bastard sitting here wasting the night away...god, I could go out and do anything...but what...I could go for a walk, but I'm not in the mood to do it alone..I would want a dog to walk with me, to keep me company, someone I could talk to...a person would be alright too I guess, but I'm not in the mood for someone to rip apart my little world, then throw all there problems onto me...wow, as you can see I am definitely in the venting mood..and that last comment was not directed at anyone, so don't get all upset....I just want to see through my fog first, and with a dog I can do that..some random babbling insight from a person would kill me..as I walked, but if we were to sit and talk..I'm down for that...

complex I know...

but it's getting late for all my people round the globe, all crashing into their little beds and whatnot...but it's never too late for me..I've said that before, and I mean it....it's never too late for me to do something..maybe too early, yeah I can see that.."give me a couple more minutes, I'm trying to sleep here..." but never to late...

so the picturesque night will be salvaged, somehow...and hopefully soon..I'll do something for sure, just what I don't know...spur of the moment type of person anywho...

See You in My Dreams,
Jason Face

Flashback...One Year Ago...

Oh man..I was just about to do this:

Gas is $2.09 for a low....

but then I realized I did it some time ago..in fact it was one year ago this month...oh man, to hell with the circles....

"You Got to Pull It the Fuck Together.."

Time for something I shouldn't really get myself into....but in here so might as well take control of the wheel, right..or am I totally off track with this absurd rationality of the mind...whatever...

So there are things that bother me...Believe it or not...I was reminded just how good I am of leading others to believe I am, infallible, having no secrets..but I suppose the people who know me the most know that isn't true, and whether they accept me for the foibles is beyond me, I know how some peoples problems and relentless bitching would drive them mad..but I've always had more patience...what, did he just say that..

Ahh, there's the rub...so it's all a situational sort of thing isn't I..given the right person I will be able to "bear" them at all costs...I think its people in general I have more patience with, it's situations I don't...make any sense.

Ex: Traffic Jams = when I am late or need to get somewhere, I get upset at the traffic, at everyone around, and especially those fucking truckers for being in the left god damned lane...is it all their problems, or am I just redirecting my anger of myself onto everyone else..granted truckers have no fucking business in the left lane to begin with..and take a fucking long time to start rolling again at lights, I somehow got into this situation causing myself to be late....

Yeah..I was about to go into another example..but the only time I truly get irritated at others is when I put myself in that situation..if I am standing in a long line..and I got time to kill, that's cool with me, granted I will make a remark about the ignorance of the store not opening another lane, but it'll pass..but onto people, not situations..

The only time I loss it with people is when they become completely retarded, lose any sense of intelligence and have no idea what I ma talking about...basically if I have to repeat myself many many times..yeah it's definitely when I have to repeat myself several times...other than that, do whatever...push me, pull me, cry on my shoulder and then beat me with a stick, as long as I don't have to repeat it to you, then fine..

I suppose my tolerance for such things is abnormal, I .....Caught myself..caught myself, almost revealed a secret, well so much as known-unknown hidden truth..but I did however, unveil 4 (or was it five with the last ramble, I forget) of them last night, two from the same story, with an admendum to the fist one later on in the next story....#but nobody caught them# (said in a singing fashion).

And then you got the, "tell me, why are you so nice to me" quote,which would make some people spit out their Merlot upon hearing such a statement directed at me..(shouldn't it be the opposite, why are you such an ass to me..don't worry, I get that a lot as well...) Well as I explained it, certain people just have some bonus points to start out with..for instance being a girl..I was raised with traditional values, holding the door open for others and such, and basically it was a sin to disrespect a girl..until she warms up to you, well in my book.. (oh remind me to do a bonus points post, it's been brought up many times lately, funny enough, so I'll kill more webspace with such a post) Anyways...being a girl almost always gets your foot in the door and I'll be nice to you, let you get away with things that would probably drive me crazy, make me angry, or something...and why is that...well I think that has to go with a "secret", I can't remember if it was mentioned or not, I will say I did, because it seems more obvious of a statement, so yeah..you missed it again. HA, ohh, it's all falling into place..

anyways, this is totally not going where it was originally going to go..which is a good thing... *oh my god, my mother just signed online..panics..*

It was actually really good to ramble off somethings the other night, I mean I know what's going on and what has gone on...but rambling about things kinda clears it up a little more as well..plus I wasn't rambling to myself, yet I was, I mean nobody heard me..(and if they did I'll rip their ears off)..

alright getting nowhere, fast..so I'm ending it here...what you don't know, won't hurt you,when you find it out, the past and present will make more sense, and then you'll be able to prepare for the future and all its events....don't worry, I'll slip up soon enough (ask me when I am sleeping..or drunk I suppose, but sleeping you will get anything from me) Alright this is JasonFace signing off....

Brilliance Is In the Eye of the Beholder....

Alright, so I fell asleep during your damned movie....yeah..still doesn't give you the right to bitch about Vanilla Sky...aghh, that came out a lot angrier than intended..anywho...

Wow...I noticed that my wastebasket had trash in it..so I was like, what could possible be in there, and I looked and man..that thing is loaded with crap...from a long time ago too..so here we go, a nice cleansing we will do...

And my monitor is freaking out....yeah, first time in awhile I have been in front of my computer...in fact it had restarted, must have been sometime today because I had someone check to see last night if I was in fact still online, and indeed I was..but yeah, monitor will be going out shortly, which saddends me, but what can I do, things happen..just a couple of whacks....that'll do it

alright, I know there is something I should be doing, something here...but what is it, grrrrr..I know what I have to do tomorrow, but that's not now, nor can I setup for tomorrow, I'm totally winging it, so in the meantime....

I guess I'll tell myself a story, HA..actually a double HA to that. but before that....

Squeeze My Lemon...

Alright, here's a post, though I'm lacking any reason....

Today was an ubberly brilliant day, well I just enjoyed the piss out of it, the weather aspect that is...He had this heat spell, making things all hot and humid (like a cat..and well I didn't like it so much...then today, ohh today...it was great..it was dark all day, and rainy..and a bit cooler..oh man when I got outside I felt so alive...I was angered that I spent the majority of it sleeping..I wanted to go out and live, take some pics that best resembled the mood and yeah, just breathe....

but because of my sleeping in I lost all time to do anything I should have and went about my business doing what I normally do that brings me joy in other forms, hanging out with the guys..there was one rough/sad/bad point, but not going to talk about that right now...

ohh, as for jobs, we are making bets to see what will last the longest, who will give first..will I quit, get fired, or will it last til august when I legally leave..who knows....Target gave me two final warnings, how do you get TWO final warnings..shouldn't one be a final warning and the other be my termination..that's how I would figure it..so yeah I was disgruntled yet apathetic, not giving a damn with my cockiness..signed my name Jason FU Angus on all four forms and called it a day..then left a note making my soon to be resignation final...

so that's life, fun stuff...I am just going to do whatever, doesn't matter, if I want time off, I'm taking it, to hell with whatever I did before...I'm at that point of giving it all up again, damn lack of caring...it's like filming someone running up a hill..the runner is in the screen the entire time, making incredible ground..then all of a sudden the runner stops but the screen keeps going for a bit, then realizes there is no runner and pans back to find the runner has stumbled, fallen asleep or whatever..yeah that's me...I was running, but only with the vision of what was in the small screen, something happened, I got tired, tripped, who knows, but am out of the picture on the ground giving the finger to the rest of the trip..so help me...that's all for now..need to find my recipes.....

Happy Birthday Jimmy C!!!

Alright, so you turn 21, go you....and yes I said we would get together the other day, don't know how much you were actually looking forward to do that, I mean I'm in the ousted townie group or something, but here is a post for you, and yeah, don't you fret little big man, we'll get together or my name isn't T.J. Thompson...

so yeah everyone wish Jimmy a Happy 21st....

Mother...

Alright, so today was Mother's Day, and I had my list of "mothers" I needed to call, all 84 of them...well not that many, but you get the idea. And in the process of calling all these other mothers, I almost forget to call my grandmother..it was nearly 6 when I called, and yet, I was still the first person to call her, how bad ass am I...oh, did I call my "actual" mother...nahhhh, I don't think I have the number, and even if I did, what would be the point, we're both stubborn and we'll carry it to the grave..

So yes, to those mothers out there who have extended their motherly love onto me, thank you. I wish there was more I could say or do, but yeah, a phone and this post, I hope it will suffice.

Another Saturday Night
(Jason Evolves Watsed?)

A perfect ending to a perfect extended night..well I guess you could say...

So after returning from the glorious Canada trip I was back in Lowell, only because Vince was in town and had called me out..So I headed down to meet up with him (and Dewes actually) but Dewes bailed on us...rather, ignored us...we stopped by his house a couple times, knocked his screen window out only to come back later to find the lights in the house on and the screen back in place..thanks Davie....

Anyways, this all disappointed Vince and rather made him upset...I told him he was a fool for deciding to return to Lowell for the summer..the mere essence of being a townie has changed, god only knows what could be in store, I will guarantee nothing grand..so by 9 I left Vince, there really wasn't much left for us to do anyhow...and there I was traveling back up north...

it was planned to watch the Video..the what at the time was the Great Canada Video, which later became known as the Infamous Weekend Video....So yeah, we were watching the video...something that everyone needed to be a little tipsy to watch I guess..but that only proved to be the clincher....

So to everyone I called Saturday night, you are truly loved by me in some way shape or form...actually it would be the last calls I made of the night...I believe the first set were just chance by alphabet....but those who got called between 12 and 1, yeah, I love ya, but you probably already knew that....the last phone made was a terrible call to make, it left me wondering who I was actually talking to, and in a panic only to have the crew find me, realize what went down and steal the phone...and then that's when the fun started...

they turned the camera on me and yeah, another hour and a half of video of me in my most brilliant state, oh lord..I can only do that drunk..yeah, watch the video, it's hilarious...

but just in the same, I now know of the cure to make me stone sober..it's no miracle drink..rather an act of some sorts.....oh god did I ever sober up from it, side effects being a panic attack like syndrome and me shaking horribly...

all in all it was a great night, can't wait for more..

Infecting New Lands...

So get this..Pete and I have today, tomorrow, and the following day off....and you know what we are doing...ROAD TRIPPING...damn straight. Gonna load up the vehicle and take as many pop cans as humanly possible, go to Canada, see some old friends, that's right a stop in AA..so yeah, that's that....

That's all I got on my mind, well I had other things that happened the past couple of days, but really haven't been around, and aren't right to post here, in this post in mean...anyways...wish us the best, and if you receive a phone call from me this weekend, you are loved..honestly

Five Five Five...

Happy Cinco De Mayo to all..and for those of you who are blessed enough to be Mexican, I love you even more...or rather this ones for you..something along those lines. I sent a text message to some people in my phone book, and though it said "all" it was only 10, the max I could send out at one time, so if you got that, feel damn special..

Anyways, Here's a random bitching about the number Five...and music......what's with all the crapass bands with the number five in their name, Five for Fighting, Ben Folds Five, Maroon Five, etc....is it cool to have numbers in your name, like Blink 182 or Sum 41.....if so, praise me for my frickin' name..I've got a color a number and a day, what more could you ask for, and I've been doing it for a lot longer than these other fucks..."if using numbers in your name is cool, call me Miles Davis" yeah yeah.....whatever, I not only got a number, but there's a Five in it, as well as a three, which is actually the second most popular number bands use..so I just fucking rock, face that.

It's Showtime..at the Apollo Muse

Ohh what a night, indeed. So the day went by, pretty hum drum, I slept through most of it, waking up every now and then realizing I missed most of my windows of opportunities, but made the two important ones I suppose.

You'll have to pardon the randomness and horrible typing, I just woke up, well sorta, and it's taking a lot to put together these sentences, good thing for spell check, though if you were to see me type right now, and see how easily distracted I am, wondering where I am and all, you'd laugh....

These posts are getting too long, so this will try to be short..er.....tonight was the night of the show..I went, great shit...saw a couple people I knew (who cares) didn't see Julie there, and she even called for directions..whatever. the place was crowded I'll say that..Toshi was being stupid (yeah, she's Asian) so I got nowhere with her, and fast, but I still got to enjoy the show....the Flying Aarons were crazy...musically not as well, but performance, off the wall.

after that it was time to drive around..loading up my car proves to be more and more of a hastle..honestly, I need to do something about that...maybe...driving was fun, making up songs on the spot with an accompanied guitar in the backseat, it was nice..well all I did was drive, but it was nice traveling music, a band where ever you go, hell yes. Steak N Shake is where we landed, had a good time there, nice large group..ohh ohh, they picked up a keyboard/guitar/harmonica player and added him to the show, that was good..sorry for that tangent...

then the night was called and everyone departed, I took home several peoples and had a good time. oh, my Lithuanian princess called me at 11 saying she just wanted to get some sleep, she is working a double tomorrow, which is what I told her she should do to begin with...but she is really insistent that we "hang out" together sometime soon..yeah yeah..I won't throw any towels in at her just yet, for pete's sake that is (oh my god, that is the first time I could legally say that..and I didn't mean it like that either, god I rock my own little world)..so yeah I'll see what happens with that, though, in all honestly, I dread even having to hang out with her...two different worlds colliding...and I'm not one to fake or put up a front to have someone like me..but I am one to do whatever it takes to please a person, so lines get drawn somewhere.. I know my world will blow her mind away, and let alone her away as well, it just isn't going to work I know that..oh funny relationships I have with these girls I tells ya...

anyways, I've finished my 20oz of coke..yeah everyone knows how I get on road trips, always buying something to drink for the trip down somewhere...and especially when I just wake up, I'm hungry too..so I guess I'll finish off these munchkins later, I know I am not tired now, but I have to sleep before work..the thirty minutes in my car a little bit ago won't suffice, I won't even try it....oh and for future whatever, note to self..anytime someone offers a place to stay and my drive is an hour long back to where I am going...I think I'll put more thought into taking it...stubborn little bitch I am..

oh..well normally I get into trouble for putting names in here, but I feel like I am neglecting everyone, so here we go....I had a great night everyone: Pete, your bass, your texting, it all moves me, I love you. Tom: I finally met you, we didn't talk much, but we soon will, keep up the waa waa's. New Keyboard guy who is Tim's Friend: Yeah, way to pick that shit up, you add a new element in the band, well yeah, you're adding another instrument, of course you add a new element in the band..anyways, I don't know you. Ashley: ok I think that is what your name is, you are Jim's girl (note, don't forget Jim) I have met you twice, and being all this week, you seem like a cool person, way to go. Ashley's Friend: Sorry, you just get a brief note on here, back to where you came from..Liz? Jim: Almost forgot about you brother, ha, well not really, you're there *changes to high voice* now you wanna go roll in the grass? Ummm Jeff & Michelle: I saw you guys tonight, yay, though I see Jeff a lot from work, I put you two together, so ya'll rock, way to take those pictures. Creepy long haired guy dancing in front of me so I couldn't take any pictures: Yeah dude, you reminded me of Cousin It from behind...keep coming to the shows, give your support, but just get the hell out of my way next time. Oh and Amanda: Pete's new girl, you love Pete, you know it..now show it and have like 10,000 of his babies, way to come in from Chicago! Toshi: Nothing for you, make me think something's wrong with you, ohh if only the 8008 was working I would be all over her. Josh: way to switch shifts and come to the show, kinda freaky..I think you are in love with me, but whatever, it's cool, everyone loves me at least once in their life, you best appreciate the ride home. Oh other guy who played guitar in my car: Tim? anywho, way to play the guitar in my car while I drove, good times. And shit, that brings me to Jessica: Last but not least, honestly, I didn't forget..great job performing, and the after show concert singing in my car..congrats on first place for the essay contest thing, good thing you woke us up when you did, I'd hate to have found myself hours later with the car still running and probably late for work...

shameless props to you all...