Complicated...
and is no way directed to who you think it is....just in general...

i don't know how to start this off, i could start with different things, but i'll just go with whatever comes off my fingers...every wonder how things turn out like they do, or rather why things turn out like they do? like how you start talking with someone, getting to know them, maybe you astart liking this person...then just a bit down the road they exclude you from the picture, maybe not fully, but they gto someone else..then come down the raod even later and those two have been together for a couple months and they are madly in love with each other....like in high fidelity where john's first girlfriend starts making out with another guy, only years to come they end up marrying, and nobody remembers john's character as being the first boyfriend...

it's wired because you always hear people say, "well if you would have told me back then i'd be here now, or something to that extent, i'd never beleived ya" and that's absolutly true, you can't predict the future of what may come, you can only expect things to happen based on generalities and habitual outcomes...

life is so messed up, and everything around you just makes things worse and more complex...i suppose you could disect thigns one at a time...but i doubt you'll ever get an answer...

i'm sorry, i'm getting distracterd and very tierd...so i know this post will not make any sense....

but even in the world's disorder, there are patterns...maybe it's just my life, maybe other's have this too, but do you ever notice patterns that happen in your life, or how one situation reminsd you of another..how your life is just like a cirlce, in that you are moving on this circle which itself is moving on a plane, so that there are intersecting points, but they aren't the same way traveled, it's a different path, so as to not make it the same thing, new people or places, but same concept, and off of these new points there can be intersecting points from the traveled circle life..and these points seem like something before, which is all based off that one original happening..it'd look like if you were to draw a cirlce, but very slowly moved the paper to the side as you did it.....

but how/why do they turn out like they do....you are expecting them to maybe go a certian way, then all of a sudden it's not....i mean all the right ingrediants were there to have caused somethign, in which it did, but it goes askew somewhere in the process...

wow, things are interesting...