The Virgin Mary....
So as I was coming home, geting out sorta early from Target, 6 or so, doing my usual route down 41 cruising at 70 i pass by the Virgin Mary, now as we all know this is my time to have my religious moment for the day. I was thinking about stopping, but passed that idea for i needed to get some sleep because asian tony was coming down today. So as i am taking my look at the statue, i notice a car off on the service road next to it, no big deal, probably just the farmers or something, until i noticed the car's front end was up in the air. In my very jason-esque manner, i did my U-turn at 231 and 41 and headed back. when i pulled up there was somebody already there, but i proceded to see if they needed help or anything. The lady handed me a card for a towing truck, so i called for one, saying they'd be there in 45 minutes, and the guy who was there before i decidd to get on with his way. It was really amazing what she did, apparently she was coming from Crown Point and wanted to visit the statue at 1am, crazy. but in the confusion of not being aboe to see te right roads, she took the serice road next to the statue, i'll admit, it is near impossible to get to the Virgin Mary at night, the entrances are not lit up and you have no idea where you're aiming for. So she has to be flying down this service road which extends straight for a good 150 feet becasue at the curve there was a huge concrete sewer drain pipe thing. she nailed that, knocking that over and under her car, propping the front end of it in the air. i say no signs of skid marks on the ravel road whatsoever. i havea pic on my xanga, it's funny. so i stayed and conversed a bit, then figured it was appropriate to the call the police, she didn't want me to so i had to sneak to my car to do so. the cop came and we waited...and waited. a little time frame for you: i arrived on the scene at 6:20, called for the tow at 6:22, cop came at 6:45, re-called for the tow at 7:00, re re called for the tow at 7:30, called for our own tow at 7:45, our tow arrives at 8:00, gets her out and i am back on the road at 8:17, yeah close to 2 hours there talking and whatnot, when i should have been sleeping.....
i'm always helping out..oh, the cop said he passed by the statue in the morning and noticed the car but thought nothing of it, then felt bad for not stopping and praised me a little. yeah i can rock at times....
Sunday, August 03, 2003
Saturday, August 02, 2003
Irony at It's Best....
So as I lay here, trying tot sleep admist all the cals from asian tony updating me where he is at, my mind gets on memory lane and takes off at the Bad Times exit. I tell him the sad story and to look for a certain town... It was August 1st 2001 and I was leaving Ann Arbor after a week of Freshman orientation, good times. I headded out early as I was to meet with Brooke upon my arrival back in Indiana. I was still in Michigan, but 30 miles from the boarder when my transmission fried. It wa a terrible time, actually over three hours in that damn place, from truck stop to police station. why it took my parents three hours to go about an hour's worth of trip is beyond me, and the ride home was another two. so all in all the day was completly blown, but here's what i want to point out....since yesterday was an "anniversery" if you will, it seems too ironic that my point can be made twice. So here it my point, brooke was supposed to come over and visit with me or something of the sorts, well she never came over, never called, nothing, I was totally left in the dark..speed ahead a couple years to yesterday. actually the night prior, i called brooke on my way to target, she commentedhow she worked til 4 on that day of the first. well i tried my damndest to get ahold of her yesterday, never did, she never got ahold of me either. I come to find out from her sister she left the phone at home and spent the night with her friend. yeah...i really hate the end of july..at least my other curse didn't happen...yet....
So as I lay here, trying tot sleep admist all the cals from asian tony updating me where he is at, my mind gets on memory lane and takes off at the Bad Times exit. I tell him the sad story and to look for a certain town... It was August 1st 2001 and I was leaving Ann Arbor after a week of Freshman orientation, good times. I headded out early as I was to meet with Brooke upon my arrival back in Indiana. I was still in Michigan, but 30 miles from the boarder when my transmission fried. It wa a terrible time, actually over three hours in that damn place, from truck stop to police station. why it took my parents three hours to go about an hour's worth of trip is beyond me, and the ride home was another two. so all in all the day was completly blown, but here's what i want to point out....since yesterday was an "anniversery" if you will, it seems too ironic that my point can be made twice. So here it my point, brooke was supposed to come over and visit with me or something of the sorts, well she never came over, never called, nothing, I was totally left in the dark..speed ahead a couple years to yesterday. actually the night prior, i called brooke on my way to target, she commentedhow she worked til 4 on that day of the first. well i tried my damndest to get ahold of her yesterday, never did, she never got ahold of me either. I come to find out from her sister she left the phone at home and spent the night with her friend. yeah...i really hate the end of july..at least my other curse didn't happen...yet....
Thursday, July 31, 2003
Asains Attack Lowell!!!
Well, actually just my favorite asain coming to lowell for the weekend, then maybe a couple others days in the next month as well. so i gave him directions on how to get here from michigan, ahh i remember giving directions from lowell to michigan not to long ago.but as we all know i am the master of directions, right zach, they were so amazed by the detial i gave them when the visited me, yeah, i'm great giving directions, maybe someone else could pick up on that, **coughedcough** i actually gave him two sets, told him to take whichever he prefered, but yeah, if all goes well he will be arriving saturday sometime, then it's off to lafayette to see zach and party it up down there, yeah. hahaha. but if he doesn't make it sat, i will be upset, but he'lll be here sunday he says, so whatever, we'll just see what happens. oh, if you go to his new website, you'll see just how asian he really is, lordy it's funny. but yeah, that's all for now, my weekend sounds like it will be fun filled full of friends and such, there's only one person missing from it i really want apart of it.....
Well, actually just my favorite asain coming to lowell for the weekend, then maybe a couple others days in the next month as well. so i gave him directions on how to get here from michigan, ahh i remember giving directions from lowell to michigan not to long ago.but as we all know i am the master of directions, right zach, they were so amazed by the detial i gave them when the visited me, yeah, i'm great giving directions, maybe someone else could pick up on that, **coughedcough** i actually gave him two sets, told him to take whichever he prefered, but yeah, if all goes well he will be arriving saturday sometime, then it's off to lafayette to see zach and party it up down there, yeah. hahaha. but if he doesn't make it sat, i will be upset, but he'lll be here sunday he says, so whatever, we'll just see what happens. oh, if you go to his new website, you'll see just how asian he really is, lordy it's funny. but yeah, that's all for now, my weekend sounds like it will be fun filled full of friends and such, there's only one person missing from it i really want apart of it.....
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Monday, July 28, 2003
The College Student's Guide To Instant Messenger Etiquette
1) It is required to offer all IMing partners some kind of farewell before signing off of Instant Messenger completely. One must wait until all parties have said goodbye before signing off.
2) One must use indicator of sarcasm and/or humor after making like comments, i.e. Smiley Face or equally appropriate laugh symbols.
3) One must inform the other party if one must take a leave of absence from computer terminal. Feel free to use any abbreviation necessary. i.e. AFK, BRB.
4) Serious topics can only be discussed in an Instant Messenger environment under the following circumstances:
If said relationship is primarily based on online communication.
If said relationship is newly formed.
If serious topic is very embarrassing.
5) Be aware that all information in an IM conversation has the ability to be saved, pasted and/or forwarded to at least 237 of the IM partner's closest friends.
6) One does not reserve the right to get angry if any Instant Messenger information is shared with the general public.
7) It is recommended to wait at least one minute or the time it takes for screen name to leave boldfaced state before messaging buddy.
8) Wait a minimum period of 10 minutes after initial IM before accusing party of IM avoidance. If, after 10 minutes, buddy has not been reduced to his/her idle state, one reserves the right to be offended.
9) Be familiar with the status of all buddies, such as people you will never IM, people you don't actually know, or people you stalk. Make certain each buddy is separated according to status, as to avoid accidental IMing.
10) One cannot be the initial IMer consistently over a short time period. After a maximum of 3 initial IMs, one must refrain all IM initiating until other party initiates an IM interaction.
11) ONE MAY NOT SIGN OFF MID CONVERSATION. However, if there are circumstances beyond your control suck as getting "logged off" or "booted," one must offer an explanation upon the next IM interaction.
12) Recommended time between each response is a maximum of 1.5 minutes. If user provides reasonable explanation (i.e. slow server, external events, or multiple IM interactions), response time can be extended.
13) If involved in a particularly intense IM conversation, all other IMs must be terminated immediately!
1) It is required to offer all IMing partners some kind of farewell before signing off of Instant Messenger completely. One must wait until all parties have said goodbye before signing off.
2) One must use indicator of sarcasm and/or humor after making like comments, i.e. Smiley Face or equally appropriate laugh symbols.
3) One must inform the other party if one must take a leave of absence from computer terminal. Feel free to use any abbreviation necessary. i.e. AFK, BRB.
4) Serious topics can only be discussed in an Instant Messenger environment under the following circumstances:
If said relationship is primarily based on online communication.
If said relationship is newly formed.
If serious topic is very embarrassing.
5) Be aware that all information in an IM conversation has the ability to be saved, pasted and/or forwarded to at least 237 of the IM partner's closest friends.
6) One does not reserve the right to get angry if any Instant Messenger information is shared with the general public.
7) It is recommended to wait at least one minute or the time it takes for screen name to leave boldfaced state before messaging buddy.
8) Wait a minimum period of 10 minutes after initial IM before accusing party of IM avoidance. If, after 10 minutes, buddy has not been reduced to his/her idle state, one reserves the right to be offended.
9) Be familiar with the status of all buddies, such as people you will never IM, people you don't actually know, or people you stalk. Make certain each buddy is separated according to status, as to avoid accidental IMing.
10) One cannot be the initial IMer consistently over a short time period. After a maximum of 3 initial IMs, one must refrain all IM initiating until other party initiates an IM interaction.
11) ONE MAY NOT SIGN OFF MID CONVERSATION. However, if there are circumstances beyond your control suck as getting "logged off" or "booted," one must offer an explanation upon the next IM interaction.
12) Recommended time between each response is a maximum of 1.5 minutes. If user provides reasonable explanation (i.e. slow server, external events, or multiple IM interactions), response time can be extended.
13) If involved in a particularly intense IM conversation, all other IMs must be terminated immediately!
A Nice Conversation Piece...
The following is aconversation I had with Steph over the weekend, well kinda, but here is how it should have basically went....
Steph and zach are talking about some guy steph knows and he's calling her wanting to get together, enter me....
Me: "So wait, you don't beleive in love at first sight?"
Steph: "No, how can you?"
M: "It's a feeling you get, like I think I like that person"
Z: "Yeah, like hey I want to talk to that person, like he night be a cool person or something"
S: "And what about when you're wrong?"
M: "I've never had that problem, your gut instincts are hardly ever wrong"
Z: "Yeah, exactly. I mean he could be the one Steph"
S: "No he isn't, and besides he lives in philadelphia"
Z: "So.."
I interupt...
M: "So wait, you don't believe in love at first sight, and you don't beleive in a long sitance relationship?"
S: "No"
M : "Then you my firend do not beleive in love, what you believe in is settling down with someone you really really like"
Well that's the truth is it not, think about it, if you don't beleive in those fairy tale movie esque qualities, then you can't beleive in the fairy tale movie esque feeling of love and doing anything for that love, maybe it's just me...
The following is aconversation I had with Steph over the weekend, well kinda, but here is how it should have basically went....
Steph and zach are talking about some guy steph knows and he's calling her wanting to get together, enter me....
Me: "So wait, you don't beleive in love at first sight?"
Steph: "No, how can you?"
M: "It's a feeling you get, like I think I like that person"
Z: "Yeah, like hey I want to talk to that person, like he night be a cool person or something"
S: "And what about when you're wrong?"
M: "I've never had that problem, your gut instincts are hardly ever wrong"
Z: "Yeah, exactly. I mean he could be the one Steph"
S: "No he isn't, and besides he lives in philadelphia"
Z: "So.."
I interupt...
M: "So wait, you don't believe in love at first sight, and you don't beleive in a long sitance relationship?"
S: "No"
M : "Then you my firend do not beleive in love, what you believe in is settling down with someone you really really like"
Well that's the truth is it not, think about it, if you don't beleive in those fairy tale movie esque qualities, then you can't beleive in the fairy tale movie esque feeling of love and doing anything for that love, maybe it's just me...
Sunday, July 27, 2003
Post with No Name
So it's after 830 and here I sit, power went out this morning, so I had to turn off my computer before the back-up power supply went out as well, but it was funny to see all those lowell F'ers not online for once. so with nothing else to do i slept, though I didn't really want to. I was hoping for a day to do some clearing up, but it rained and for soem reason I wanted nothing to do with it, very odd. my dreams agian didn't help me out at all, no ghosts this time, but oter hurtful things, hell, even costas was in my dream, yeah, scary shit. Oh, even my blog was in my dream, in fact it was my last post, but the link for evil spirits was different, it was a link to like winners of Jr. Miss or some other girly pagent, crazy. i woke up several times, but had no idea what time it really was, just darkness everywhere. brooke called me i think twice, but my memory is fuzzy. she's knows somethings wrong with me, but i just keep blowing her off because i don't know what to say. i think part of my problem is the fact that we won't really see each other in these last 2 weeks, and when we do, well, yeah, problem number 2, but i can't go into all these things with her, i'm just a bastard who will sit here and rot. another reason why i'm made is my tought process is messing up on me, if i have something to say, and someone says something else before i say it, my thought is completely gone, all i'm left with is a little note saying, yeah i was here. this has happened more often than it should be, I don't think that's a sign of anyting, just me. and for anyone to say i've changed, good god does that piss me off. everybody knows i'm not a fan of change, so ten why would i do so? i'm still the nmessed up person i've always been, nothing nor nobody can change that, i'm me, if you think i've changed, well then you didn't know me. people anger me, and my friends are many miles away, or will soon be, for about 9 months i will go back to having nothing, suprisingly it's a little less than what i have now. i don't know why exactly i am rambling all this unto you, I'm defiantly not asking for sympathy or pity,maybe it's just if you see me and i'm acting down or a little different, this is why, sorry to trouble you with all this garbage, i'll try to get back to something soon....
So it's after 830 and here I sit, power went out this morning, so I had to turn off my computer before the back-up power supply went out as well, but it was funny to see all those lowell F'ers not online for once. so with nothing else to do i slept, though I didn't really want to. I was hoping for a day to do some clearing up, but it rained and for soem reason I wanted nothing to do with it, very odd. my dreams agian didn't help me out at all, no ghosts this time, but oter hurtful things, hell, even costas was in my dream, yeah, scary shit. Oh, even my blog was in my dream, in fact it was my last post, but the link for evil spirits was different, it was a link to like winners of Jr. Miss or some other girly pagent, crazy. i woke up several times, but had no idea what time it really was, just darkness everywhere. brooke called me i think twice, but my memory is fuzzy. she's knows somethings wrong with me, but i just keep blowing her off because i don't know what to say. i think part of my problem is the fact that we won't really see each other in these last 2 weeks, and when we do, well, yeah, problem number 2, but i can't go into all these things with her, i'm just a bastard who will sit here and rot. another reason why i'm made is my tought process is messing up on me, if i have something to say, and someone says something else before i say it, my thought is completely gone, all i'm left with is a little note saying, yeah i was here. this has happened more often than it should be, I don't think that's a sign of anyting, just me. and for anyone to say i've changed, good god does that piss me off. everybody knows i'm not a fan of change, so ten why would i do so? i'm still the nmessed up person i've always been, nothing nor nobody can change that, i'm me, if you think i've changed, well then you didn't know me. people anger me, and my friends are many miles away, or will soon be, for about 9 months i will go back to having nothing, suprisingly it's a little less than what i have now. i don't know why exactly i am rambling all this unto you, I'm defiantly not asking for sympathy or pity,maybe it's just if you see me and i'm acting down or a little different, this is why, sorry to trouble you with all this garbage, i'll try to get back to something soon....
What's the Real Deal with Bill McNeal???
So I am thinking I'm in some sort of slump, but I don't recall ever having a late July early August slump, normally everything is fine at that point, except for three years in a row of car troubles happening around that point( cursed curse) I mean I was even moping around at the Sox game Friday (yesterday still in my head) as I mentioned in my Xanga, but I was totally enjoying it, just couldn't show it. So today (really yesterday, but I'll just say Saturday) I figured I just needed rest, sleep cures all right? well except laziness and other things, but sleep should do the trick, by the time I'd wake everything would be forgotten and I'd be fine. Think agian, sleep only fed it. And not only did sleep make things worse, but during my sleep I had dreams, or should I say nightmares, yeah nightmares, I had nightmares. There were a multitude of dreams, but i can't remember what order they were in or where they broke, they just ran together. I remember they made me depressed in the dream, I cried or felt like crying, sometimes I was in my old house, sometiems here, renting out parts of them as well becasue they were made into one house, and brooke was there but she was saying things which only made everything worse. and then there were ghosts, god i am so terrified of ghosts, but only in my dream, I mean I have always wanted to go to ghost sites and be a parapsychologist. but for some reason ghosts are in my dream and they are always evil spirits, always doing some sort of harm, and I think this time I was going to die. eek. at one point I thought they were gone, but then as the parapsychologist came over his detectore thing was going crazy and the whole house was haunted, not just one room. I don't know what any of this means really, I've always thought my old house was haunted, but I didn't think about that at all yesterday or any time recently. So there must be a lot going on, I don't know what is going on really. At work tonight Wendy asked me if I wanted to go to the warehouse with her after everyone left, normally I would say yes becuase I hate the fact that we're there on saturdays for only a couple hours, but i told her no, it would be best for me not to be around people at that point because earlier i went off on a coworker for writting on my car, which I had warned them about many times prior. I don't know, it's just something that makes me erally mad, probably because it's harder to get off. i'd rather have someone piss on it then write in the dirt messing up the paint and all. Well I'm hoping tomorrow is nice, I just want to sit outside and look around for a bit, maybe go driving out in te country and whatnot, just someting to get away from it all, or clear my head, or find direction. I'm getting a little tired, though I'm afraid to fall asleep knowing that it will probably mess with me some more, but at this point I'd say if I were to fall asleep, I'd be lucky to not wake.
"Search til the end, when you do you'll realize you're at the beginning"
So I am thinking I'm in some sort of slump, but I don't recall ever having a late July early August slump, normally everything is fine at that point, except for three years in a row of car troubles happening around that point( cursed curse) I mean I was even moping around at the Sox game Friday (yesterday still in my head) as I mentioned in my Xanga, but I was totally enjoying it, just couldn't show it. So today (really yesterday, but I'll just say Saturday) I figured I just needed rest, sleep cures all right? well except laziness and other things, but sleep should do the trick, by the time I'd wake everything would be forgotten and I'd be fine. Think agian, sleep only fed it. And not only did sleep make things worse, but during my sleep I had dreams, or should I say nightmares, yeah nightmares, I had nightmares. There were a multitude of dreams, but i can't remember what order they were in or where they broke, they just ran together. I remember they made me depressed in the dream, I cried or felt like crying, sometimes I was in my old house, sometiems here, renting out parts of them as well becasue they were made into one house, and brooke was there but she was saying things which only made everything worse. and then there were ghosts, god i am so terrified of ghosts, but only in my dream, I mean I have always wanted to go to ghost sites and be a parapsychologist. but for some reason ghosts are in my dream and they are always evil spirits, always doing some sort of harm, and I think this time I was going to die. eek. at one point I thought they were gone, but then as the parapsychologist came over his detectore thing was going crazy and the whole house was haunted, not just one room. I don't know what any of this means really, I've always thought my old house was haunted, but I didn't think about that at all yesterday or any time recently. So there must be a lot going on, I don't know what is going on really. At work tonight Wendy asked me if I wanted to go to the warehouse with her after everyone left, normally I would say yes becuase I hate the fact that we're there on saturdays for only a couple hours, but i told her no, it would be best for me not to be around people at that point because earlier i went off on a coworker for writting on my car, which I had warned them about many times prior. I don't know, it's just something that makes me erally mad, probably because it's harder to get off. i'd rather have someone piss on it then write in the dirt messing up the paint and all. Well I'm hoping tomorrow is nice, I just want to sit outside and look around for a bit, maybe go driving out in te country and whatnot, just someting to get away from it all, or clear my head, or find direction. I'm getting a little tired, though I'm afraid to fall asleep knowing that it will probably mess with me some more, but at this point I'd say if I were to fall asleep, I'd be lucky to not wake.
"Search til the end, when you do you'll realize you're at the beginning"
Thursday, July 24, 2003
Take that Jerks!!!
Ok, so yesterday i went to Burger King, of course it was Whopper Wednesday. so i'm at the counter waiting for my whopper no onion and chicken tender things when in walks a couple that sends a shiver down my spine. i remember these freaky people from the days when i worked at costas, and let me tell you i have met some of the strangest people becasue of that store..anwyas, this is the freaky couple wherein i most often notice the lady, i wouldn't really recognize the guy if it weren't for her. she's the somewhat short, bright red lipstick on, hair all over the place and colored diffferently throughout the lengths, kinda a orangish red is what she is going for yet whit at the part on top. she's a bigger lady and hobbles and as well. but the thing that makes her more distinct than anyone else is what they do to you, yeah they are the pamphlet passer outers. i knew my time was coming, they walked up behind me, started to make conversation and such like they normally do, but i knew i wasn't going to ake any of their shit. so as my order came up, i said that's me, and they, in normal fashion, went to shake my hand, i oblidged adn then they went to stick their paper in my hand, i quickly pulled away, leaving just enough gap during the handshake to escape, kinda hudinii-esque. i put my hand up in the NO style, then shook it as i said these words..."sorry, i'm old enoguh to think for myself" then walked away..it was amazing!
Ok, so yesterday i went to Burger King, of course it was Whopper Wednesday. so i'm at the counter waiting for my whopper no onion and chicken tender things when in walks a couple that sends a shiver down my spine. i remember these freaky people from the days when i worked at costas, and let me tell you i have met some of the strangest people becasue of that store..anwyas, this is the freaky couple wherein i most often notice the lady, i wouldn't really recognize the guy if it weren't for her. she's the somewhat short, bright red lipstick on, hair all over the place and colored diffferently throughout the lengths, kinda a orangish red is what she is going for yet whit at the part on top. she's a bigger lady and hobbles and as well. but the thing that makes her more distinct than anyone else is what they do to you, yeah they are the pamphlet passer outers. i knew my time was coming, they walked up behind me, started to make conversation and such like they normally do, but i knew i wasn't going to ake any of their shit. so as my order came up, i said that's me, and they, in normal fashion, went to shake my hand, i oblidged adn then they went to stick their paper in my hand, i quickly pulled away, leaving just enough gap during the handshake to escape, kinda hudinii-esque. i put my hand up in the NO style, then shook it as i said these words..."sorry, i'm old enoguh to think for myself" then walked away..it was amazing!
Everybody Knows the Ballad of Frankie Lee Buying a Stairway To Heaven in the House of the Rising Sun on Desolation Row Next to Positively Fourth Street at Closing Time
so yesterday i was listening to the radio to kill time as i sat in the office twiddling my thumbs..oh i have been starting to play a little on the computers, making comments and such, homestarrunner and whatnot, yeah it's all good..but as i was saing, i was listening to the radio and i heard Peter frampton's Baby I Love Your Way, ok bad enoghu it's peter F'ing frampton, to quote high fidelity, but it was a female version, so i'm listening to it, then all of a sudden the words are different, i sit there and think, wait this isn't right, then i finally catch on, they started singing lyrics to freebird. so now i'm all confused, then i'm thinknig maybe they'll rock out, but then it went back to baby i love your way. ok can someone please help me figure out why they put those two songs together, is there some musical secret i did not know of, or this is just some mystery and more songs should be put together to sound better?
so yesterday i was listening to the radio to kill time as i sat in the office twiddling my thumbs..oh i have been starting to play a little on the computers, making comments and such, homestarrunner and whatnot, yeah it's all good..but as i was saing, i was listening to the radio and i heard Peter frampton's Baby I Love Your Way, ok bad enoghu it's peter F'ing frampton, to quote high fidelity, but it was a female version, so i'm listening to it, then all of a sudden the words are different, i sit there and think, wait this isn't right, then i finally catch on, they started singing lyrics to freebird. so now i'm all confused, then i'm thinknig maybe they'll rock out, but then it went back to baby i love your way. ok can someone please help me figure out why they put those two songs together, is there some musical secret i did not know of, or this is just some mystery and more songs should be put together to sound better?
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Speaking of......
Yeah, speaking of the Illinois State Fair, would anybody like to go this year? it is a tradiation in the making or myself, this will be year number 3 for me. jimmy i'm looking in your direction if you are around. hell you could make it an event by far, why not, take 2 days, i don't care, whatever.....zach, i know you need a break from everything, come on, ted nugent is playing there.. it's august 8th through the 17th. who doesn't want to see the butter cow??? zak, i don't think you ever got those pics for your mom, we could get them this time, he he. we could also listen to boston, or hootie and the blowfish, or the symphonic pops orchestra of chicago...yeah it will be a good ol time guys.....
Yeah, speaking of the Illinois State Fair, would anybody like to go this year? it is a tradiation in the making or myself, this will be year number 3 for me. jimmy i'm looking in your direction if you are around. hell you could make it an event by far, why not, take 2 days, i don't care, whatever.....zach, i know you need a break from everything, come on, ted nugent is playing there.. it's august 8th through the 17th. who doesn't want to see the butter cow??? zak, i don't think you ever got those pics for your mom, we could get them this time, he he. we could also listen to boston, or hootie and the blowfish, or the symphonic pops orchestra of chicago...yeah it will be a good ol time guys.....
To Go, or Not To Go, or its it TOGO's?
So Tony, my favorite asian has given me an offer i couldn't refuse, well ok i can refuse it, in fact i'm questioning what to do about it, that's why i'm posting...anways...he has asked me to come down to NC to drive up with him to UofMichigan, and he'll pay for the plane ticket. ok here's the catch, we all know i do not fly on planes, good god i'm i deathly afraid of them, but problem averted, he said i could take a greyhound, if i could endure the 16 hour long ride...yeah if i can stay up for many hours past 24 on little to no sleep driving across indiana 4 times over, yeah i can do tat...anyways i got to drive up to michigan with him, so what's the difference, on the plus side i'll get to stretch out and whatnot, unlike driving, though my ass will be feeling the hurt after it is all done. another good thing is i will have plenty of time to write my thoguhts and whatnot, he he, yeah.....ok so i got things planned, august 4 through however many days it will take to drive all around, missing out on some good fair days, hopefully not the illinois state fair, it's a thought.....
So Tony, my favorite asian has given me an offer i couldn't refuse, well ok i can refuse it, in fact i'm questioning what to do about it, that's why i'm posting...anways...he has asked me to come down to NC to drive up with him to UofMichigan, and he'll pay for the plane ticket. ok here's the catch, we all know i do not fly on planes, good god i'm i deathly afraid of them, but problem averted, he said i could take a greyhound, if i could endure the 16 hour long ride...yeah if i can stay up for many hours past 24 on little to no sleep driving across indiana 4 times over, yeah i can do tat...anyways i got to drive up to michigan with him, so what's the difference, on the plus side i'll get to stretch out and whatnot, unlike driving, though my ass will be feeling the hurt after it is all done. another good thing is i will have plenty of time to write my thoguhts and whatnot, he he, yeah.....ok so i got things planned, august 4 through however many days it will take to drive all around, missing out on some good fair days, hopefully not the illinois state fair, it's a thought.....
Just For the Record...
Ok, I really hate it when people post AIM conversations in their blog, now i know sometimes they are funny and whatnot, but especially the lengthy ones need to be stopped. Now yes I realize i did this only a few posts ago, would have liked to edit it at the time, but i needed to post it quickly for i was on the go, and didn't want to go back and mess with it. so yes, i stress people please stop with the madness, it's over-used, over-rated, and frankly, i just don't get it. i would rather read, "sdjfhraejhfLJFhbvilvasldublsvdhfvblfdv hdfjgtaeoirle8w75vb " than have to sit through reading some stupid aim conversation that only you and the person you were talking to will enjoy. i really regret ever having posted tat one with zach now, but i think it's a combination of both that and other people's that is just eating away at me. i'm done venting now...maybe...
Ok, I really hate it when people post AIM conversations in their blog, now i know sometimes they are funny and whatnot, but especially the lengthy ones need to be stopped. Now yes I realize i did this only a few posts ago, would have liked to edit it at the time, but i needed to post it quickly for i was on the go, and didn't want to go back and mess with it. so yes, i stress people please stop with the madness, it's over-used, over-rated, and frankly, i just don't get it. i would rather read, "sdjfhraejhfLJFhbvilvasldublsvdhfvblfdv hdfjgtaeoirle8w75vb " than have to sit through reading some stupid aim conversation that only you and the person you were talking to will enjoy. i really regret ever having posted tat one with zach now, but i think it's a combination of both that and other people's that is just eating away at me. i'm done venting now...maybe...
HA, I'm insane....
So you know those pop up's when you're online, and at first it says "about:blank" in your toolbar and for the page itself, well i have no clue what it means, like i'm sure most of the internet surfing public out there, so zach help us out...but that's not the reason for this post, the real reason is i could've swore that it just said "all about blank", which to me is funny, don't know why, i laughed, and am still laughing, i think it has to be the way i am saying it, try it different ways, "all about blank" .Ya know, like it's "all about blank" ok this has to be the most meaningless post ever, sorry
So you know those pop up's when you're online, and at first it says "about:blank" in your toolbar and for the page itself, well i have no clue what it means, like i'm sure most of the internet surfing public out there, so zach help us out...but that's not the reason for this post, the real reason is i could've swore that it just said "all about blank", which to me is funny, don't know why, i laughed, and am still laughing, i think it has to be the way i am saying it, try it different ways, "all about blank" .Ya know, like it's "all about blank" ok this has to be the most meaningless post ever, sorry
Saturday, July 12, 2003
Damn Idea....
Anyone who has lived a life knows what an adveture it can be, face everyone has problems, granted some people more than others, but everyone at some point in their lives has come across troubled water. hell even rich people have problems, like which half a million dollar car they should buy next, but seriously i'm talking about real problems faced by people like you and i. Some people can fake throug it, falsifying their reality to make it through each day, ehich is basically like what i've done. i've tricked myself into thinkng that everything is alright at the current moment, when, only the opposite is true. I know that's not healthy, and it will make my reality only harder, but maybe that's the idea, whatever gets you through it all. some hide behind flimsy beliefs, like everything will sort itself out, others seek religion, whatever gets them through it. So while faking my present state, zach is going through yet another tumultuous turn in his life, and i have been reading on his blog, as you should be right now. So he IM's me today and we begin to talk about how much life sucks, when almost immediatly he mentions the idea, and i whole heartedly back him on this idea. now let me explain what is going on....zach and i have always had this idea to write a book, mainly on political structrings, organizations, philosophies, etc etc. Then last year zach started with his crazy ideas to travel around, becoming this sort of drifter, moving to canada and other things. So i ran with this idea, coupled it with an idea that was running in my head, and then the "idea" was born. What it is exactly is just this; we would travel across the country documenting our interactions with people from all over. we would find out basically what makes them them, their beliefs, ideas, values, morals, everything. and of course we would be writing in journals, videotapping, recording all that happened. it would be the sociological study of the century, maybe even never ending. we would be able to write a book, and of course i'd foresee a movie deal out of it. it's original as all hell, don't you think so. all i would want is some financial backing on this, maybe a publisher, producer, unniversity, anything really, we're non profit.
zachjb42 (3:25:09 PM): SUp!
zachjb42 (3:25:13 PM): How's it going friend?
Blue35Tuesday (3:25:20 PM): i'm good, how are you?
zachjb42 (3:25:32 PM): Doing pretty shitty.
zachjb42 (3:25:35 PM): Life just blows.
zachjb42 (3:25:36 PM): In a slump.
zachjb42 (3:25:44 PM): I feel a little bit better now that the house is clean.
zachjb42 (3:25:49 PM): I just spent 3 hours cleaning.
zachjb42 (3:25:50 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (3:26:08 PM): So what's up?
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:15 PM): wow
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:18 PM): noithing
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:20 PM): i'm sitting here
zachjb42 (3:26:22 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:26:28 PM): Now I am just sitting here...
zachjb42 (3:26:30 PM): I needed a smoke.
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:35 PM): hha
zachjb42 (3:26:42 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:26:46 PM): I got a craving.
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:46 PM): life sucks
zachjb42 (3:26:51 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:26:53 PM): That it does sir.
zachjb42 (3:26:58 PM): I might not be able to go back to school.
Blue35Tuesday (3:27:04 PM): i read about that
zachjb42 (3:27:05 PM): They totally fucked up my Financial Aid.
zachjb42 (3:27:12 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:27:22 PM): So now I am totally pissed and in the same situation that I was last year.
Blue35Tuesday (3:27:30 PM): they just teased you with it
zachjb42 (3:28:05 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:28:06 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:28:12 PM): We should really start writing our book.
zachjb42 (3:28:17 PM): Just our observations about things.
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:28 PM): ha, that'd be bad ass
zachjb42 (3:28:34 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:28:43 PM): We could publish it through one of those DIY publishing things.
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:46 PM): i'd love to be able to sit around and observe shit like that
zachjb42 (3:28:47 PM): It's realitivily cheap.
zachjb42 (3:28:54 PM): Plus we could sell it on Amazon.com
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:57 PM): if only we would have win the lotto
zachjb42 (3:28:58 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:29:00 PM): And get paid.
zachjb42 (3:29:01 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:29:09 PM): I would love to travel the country and just chat with people...
Blue35Tuesday (3:29:20 PM): hell yes
zachjb42 (3:29:36 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:29:40 PM): That would be awesome.
zachjb42 (3:29:52 PM): I was looking into starting a non-profit organization.
zachjb42 (3:29:58 PM): Getting some grants and the like.
zachjb42 (3:30:04 PM): I would love to just research things.
zachjb42 (3:30:10 PM): Write papers or discuss my findings.
zachjb42 (3:30:15 PM): Just how felt about certain things and why.
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:10 PM): yeah, i wonder if we could pitch the idea to a company
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:18 PM): both a book company and movie
zachjb42 (3:31:22 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:31:27 PM): I wonder...
zachjb42 (3:31:31 PM): That would be pretty cool...
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:32 PM): they could make a movie out of it, and they would pay us a bit to do i
zachjb42 (3:31:48 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:31:51 PM): That would be awesome.
Blue35Tuesday (3:32:58 PM): i wonder...
Blue35Tuesday (3:33:06 PM): i would totally be up for it if we had the backing
Blue35Tuesday (3:33:18 PM): i mean, what do we have to loose, really
zachjb42 (3:38:03 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:38:04 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:38:06 PM): Nothing.
Blue35Tuesday (3:43:37 PM): so do you think it is possible to pitch this idea to someone?
zachjb42 (3:44:12 PM): It might...
zachjb42 (3:44:18 PM): We could investigate it.
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:25 PM): i think it is worth it
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:29 PM): the time has come
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:40 PM): this is our opportunity
zachjb42 (3:44:50 PM): Perhaps...
zachjb42 (3:44:54 PM): Let's investigate it.
Blue35Tuesday (3:45:05 PM): doors don't close without windows opening, otherwise the presure in the hosue would be too great
Blue35Tuesday (3:46:15 PM): you see what io'm saying is, our lvies suck, doors have closed repeatedly on us, and unless you don't take this chance, what may be our window, we will end
zachjb42 (3:47:02 PM): True.
zachjb42 (3:47:33 PM): Let's go for it...
Blue35Tuesday (3:47:47 PM): :-D
Blue35Tuesday (3:50:50 PM): hell, we may even get some unniversity and their sociology department to back us
Blue35Tuesday (3:55:35 PM): sorry, my computer restarted
zachjb42 (3:56:25 PM): That's OK.
zachjb42 (3:58:28 PM): http://www.pitching.com/pitching_secrets.php
zachjb42 (3:58:50 PM): Perhaps he could teach us how to pitch...
zachjb42 (3:58:58 PM): LOL
Blue35Tuesday (3:59:05 PM): :-$
zachjb42 (3:59:23 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (3:59:29 PM): But seriously, here is a good place: http://www.ifebp.org/bookstore/pbinfobk.asp
Blue35Tuesday (3:59:44 PM): that was the only face i could think of appropriate
zachjb42 (3:59:56 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (4:00:26 PM): We need to find a publisher that publishes books like ours.
zachjb42 (4:00:33 PM): What are some books about traveling America...
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:05 PM): hmm, i'd say it's more a sociological type book as well
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:14 PM): i'm not into books so i have no idea
zachjb42 (4:01:24 PM): Neither do I.
zachjb42 (4:01:29 PM): I like books, just don't read'em.
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:50 PM): i think i will take a trip up to barnes and nobles in a bit
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:55 PM): maybe we should call G as well
zachjb42 (4:01:59 PM): http://www.blackwellpublishers.co.uk/asp/sociolog.asp
zachjb42 (4:02:05 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (4:02:10 PM): What's his phone number?
zachjb42 (4:02:13 PM): Or you could call him.
zachjb42 (4:02:17 PM): I'll keep finding publishers.
zachjb42 (4:02:25 PM): So what else do we need to look up.
Anyone who has lived a life knows what an adveture it can be, face everyone has problems, granted some people more than others, but everyone at some point in their lives has come across troubled water. hell even rich people have problems, like which half a million dollar car they should buy next, but seriously i'm talking about real problems faced by people like you and i. Some people can fake throug it, falsifying their reality to make it through each day, ehich is basically like what i've done. i've tricked myself into thinkng that everything is alright at the current moment, when, only the opposite is true. I know that's not healthy, and it will make my reality only harder, but maybe that's the idea, whatever gets you through it all. some hide behind flimsy beliefs, like everything will sort itself out, others seek religion, whatever gets them through it. So while faking my present state, zach is going through yet another tumultuous turn in his life, and i have been reading on his blog, as you should be right now. So he IM's me today and we begin to talk about how much life sucks, when almost immediatly he mentions the idea, and i whole heartedly back him on this idea. now let me explain what is going on....zach and i have always had this idea to write a book, mainly on political structrings, organizations, philosophies, etc etc. Then last year zach started with his crazy ideas to travel around, becoming this sort of drifter, moving to canada and other things. So i ran with this idea, coupled it with an idea that was running in my head, and then the "idea" was born. What it is exactly is just this; we would travel across the country documenting our interactions with people from all over. we would find out basically what makes them them, their beliefs, ideas, values, morals, everything. and of course we would be writing in journals, videotapping, recording all that happened. it would be the sociological study of the century, maybe even never ending. we would be able to write a book, and of course i'd foresee a movie deal out of it. it's original as all hell, don't you think so. all i would want is some financial backing on this, maybe a publisher, producer, unniversity, anything really, we're non profit.
zachjb42 (3:25:09 PM): SUp!
zachjb42 (3:25:13 PM): How's it going friend?
Blue35Tuesday (3:25:20 PM): i'm good, how are you?
zachjb42 (3:25:32 PM): Doing pretty shitty.
zachjb42 (3:25:35 PM): Life just blows.
zachjb42 (3:25:36 PM): In a slump.
zachjb42 (3:25:44 PM): I feel a little bit better now that the house is clean.
zachjb42 (3:25:49 PM): I just spent 3 hours cleaning.
zachjb42 (3:25:50 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (3:26:08 PM): So what's up?
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:15 PM): wow
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:18 PM): noithing
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:20 PM): i'm sitting here
zachjb42 (3:26:22 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:26:28 PM): Now I am just sitting here...
zachjb42 (3:26:30 PM): I needed a smoke.
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:35 PM): hha
zachjb42 (3:26:42 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:26:46 PM): I got a craving.
Blue35Tuesday (3:26:46 PM): life sucks
zachjb42 (3:26:51 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:26:53 PM): That it does sir.
zachjb42 (3:26:58 PM): I might not be able to go back to school.
Blue35Tuesday (3:27:04 PM): i read about that
zachjb42 (3:27:05 PM): They totally fucked up my Financial Aid.
zachjb42 (3:27:12 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:27:22 PM): So now I am totally pissed and in the same situation that I was last year.
Blue35Tuesday (3:27:30 PM): they just teased you with it
zachjb42 (3:28:05 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:28:06 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:28:12 PM): We should really start writing our book.
zachjb42 (3:28:17 PM): Just our observations about things.
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:28 PM): ha, that'd be bad ass
zachjb42 (3:28:34 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:28:43 PM): We could publish it through one of those DIY publishing things.
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:46 PM): i'd love to be able to sit around and observe shit like that
zachjb42 (3:28:47 PM): It's realitivily cheap.
zachjb42 (3:28:54 PM): Plus we could sell it on Amazon.com
Blue35Tuesday (3:28:57 PM): if only we would have win the lotto
zachjb42 (3:28:58 PM): Yep.
zachjb42 (3:29:00 PM): And get paid.
zachjb42 (3:29:01 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:29:09 PM): I would love to travel the country and just chat with people...
Blue35Tuesday (3:29:20 PM): hell yes
zachjb42 (3:29:36 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:29:40 PM): That would be awesome.
zachjb42 (3:29:52 PM): I was looking into starting a non-profit organization.
zachjb42 (3:29:58 PM): Getting some grants and the like.
zachjb42 (3:30:04 PM): I would love to just research things.
zachjb42 (3:30:10 PM): Write papers or discuss my findings.
zachjb42 (3:30:15 PM): Just how felt about certain things and why.
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:10 PM): yeah, i wonder if we could pitch the idea to a company
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:18 PM): both a book company and movie
zachjb42 (3:31:22 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:31:27 PM): I wonder...
zachjb42 (3:31:31 PM): That would be pretty cool...
Blue35Tuesday (3:31:32 PM): they could make a movie out of it, and they would pay us a bit to do i
zachjb42 (3:31:48 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:31:51 PM): That would be awesome.
Blue35Tuesday (3:32:58 PM): i wonder...
Blue35Tuesday (3:33:06 PM): i would totally be up for it if we had the backing
Blue35Tuesday (3:33:18 PM): i mean, what do we have to loose, really
zachjb42 (3:38:03 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (3:38:04 PM): I know.
zachjb42 (3:38:06 PM): Nothing.
Blue35Tuesday (3:43:37 PM): so do you think it is possible to pitch this idea to someone?
zachjb42 (3:44:12 PM): It might...
zachjb42 (3:44:18 PM): We could investigate it.
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:25 PM): i think it is worth it
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:29 PM): the time has come
Blue35Tuesday (3:44:40 PM): this is our opportunity
zachjb42 (3:44:50 PM): Perhaps...
zachjb42 (3:44:54 PM): Let's investigate it.
Blue35Tuesday (3:45:05 PM): doors don't close without windows opening, otherwise the presure in the hosue would be too great
Blue35Tuesday (3:46:15 PM): you see what io'm saying is, our lvies suck, doors have closed repeatedly on us, and unless you don't take this chance, what may be our window, we will end
zachjb42 (3:47:02 PM): True.
zachjb42 (3:47:33 PM): Let's go for it...
Blue35Tuesday (3:47:47 PM): :-D
Blue35Tuesday (3:50:50 PM): hell, we may even get some unniversity and their sociology department to back us
Blue35Tuesday (3:55:35 PM): sorry, my computer restarted
zachjb42 (3:56:25 PM): That's OK.
zachjb42 (3:58:28 PM): http://www.pitching.com/pitching_secrets.php
zachjb42 (3:58:50 PM): Perhaps he could teach us how to pitch...
zachjb42 (3:58:58 PM): LOL
Blue35Tuesday (3:59:05 PM): :-$
zachjb42 (3:59:23 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (3:59:29 PM): But seriously, here is a good place: http://www.ifebp.org/bookstore/pbinfobk.asp
Blue35Tuesday (3:59:44 PM): that was the only face i could think of appropriate
zachjb42 (3:59:56 PM): LOL
zachjb42 (4:00:26 PM): We need to find a publisher that publishes books like ours.
zachjb42 (4:00:33 PM): What are some books about traveling America...
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:05 PM): hmm, i'd say it's more a sociological type book as well
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:14 PM): i'm not into books so i have no idea
zachjb42 (4:01:24 PM): Neither do I.
zachjb42 (4:01:29 PM): I like books, just don't read'em.
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:50 PM): i think i will take a trip up to barnes and nobles in a bit
Blue35Tuesday (4:01:55 PM): maybe we should call G as well
zachjb42 (4:01:59 PM): http://www.blackwellpublishers.co.uk/asp/sociolog.asp
zachjb42 (4:02:05 PM): Yeah.
zachjb42 (4:02:10 PM): What's his phone number?
zachjb42 (4:02:13 PM): Or you could call him.
zachjb42 (4:02:17 PM): I'll keep finding publishers.
zachjb42 (4:02:25 PM): So what else do we need to look up.
Thursday, July 10, 2003
Something I Thought You Should Enjoy As Well
From: Song of Love and Hate-Diamonds in the Mine
The woman in blue, she's asking for revenge,
the man in white -- that's you -- says he has no friends.
The river is swollen up with rusty cans
and the trees are burning in your promised land.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in the boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in the mine.
Well, you tell me that your lover has a broken limb,
you say you're kind of restless now and it's on account of him.
Well, I saw the man in question, it was just the other night,
he was eating up a lady where the lions and Christians fight.
And there are no letters in the mailbox
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in the boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in the mine.
(You tell them now)
Ah, there is no comfort in the covens of the witch,
some very clever doctor went and sterilized the bitch,
and the only man of energy, yes the revolution's pride,
he trained a hundred women just to kill an unborn child.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
oh no, there are no, no grapes upon your vine,
and there are, there are no chocolates in your boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in your mine.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in your boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in your mine.
From: Song of Love and Hate-Diamonds in the Mine
The woman in blue, she's asking for revenge,
the man in white -- that's you -- says he has no friends.
The river is swollen up with rusty cans
and the trees are burning in your promised land.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in the boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in the mine.
Well, you tell me that your lover has a broken limb,
you say you're kind of restless now and it's on account of him.
Well, I saw the man in question, it was just the other night,
he was eating up a lady where the lions and Christians fight.
And there are no letters in the mailbox
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in the boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in the mine.
(You tell them now)
Ah, there is no comfort in the covens of the witch,
some very clever doctor went and sterilized the bitch,
and the only man of energy, yes the revolution's pride,
he trained a hundred women just to kill an unborn child.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
oh no, there are no, no grapes upon your vine,
and there are, there are no chocolates in your boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in your mine.
And there are no letters in the mailbox,
and there are no grapes upon the vine,
and there are no chocolates in your boxes anymore,
and there are no diamonds in your mine.
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
Hmmmmm.......
Well I had something to blog about, been wanting to since last time, but now i forgot, so i'll just blog about whatever.
Apparently Elizabeth, Vince's love, and I, Vince's first love, are one in the same, at least personality and test wise, maybe that's why he loves us both, and it'd be true for the fact that we both fell for him, interesting. i guess since i wasn't around at Rose i wasn't able to fullfill his needs and thus found Elizabeth. pretty messed up concept....
So i've been working at Century 21 Destiny, it's fun i suppose. I mean the people are nice and when things happen it's good. I just hope to get some clients, then i'll really be having fun. But until that happens i guess i'll sit around and answer the phones, you'd be suprised what crazy calls i get. if only i had interent access or a computer at my desk, then that would be the life, i don't think i would ever leave. I'd be able to surf the web, update blogs, read the news, have a hell of a time, just afraid to do it on the company computers.....
Once agian Powerball has rolled over and the jackpot is 250 million. damn that's a lot of money, i'd like to win the lottery, but not that much. If i were to win, you'd be seeing a lot of hand outs. But until that happens, i'll be the one taking handouts....
Oh, my favorite asian Tony is thinknig about coming up to visit me. interesting, we knew each other for one semester at UofM, i mean we hung out a couple times, but after i left we didn't really speak for a year, then out of the blue he's all IM'ing me and whatnot. we've had several long phone calls, the longest being 2 hours, with some dead air of course, i was running around lowell. But i enderstand where he is coming from, i've felt the pain he is feeling now. I think that is why we have been able to come together like we have. but he's battlnig school, lost loves, life, lack of money and everything else I, and a few others have faced already. In a way i think he looks up to me, like he idolizes me, that's cool i suppose. but he's always posting things i said and stuff like that, like i'm some sort of inspiration oh well....
And I must add in here somewhere that brooke and i have been spending some tme together, it was rough a little bit ago, but now things are getting bettter, yay...
So as you can see, I've added a lot of links, though i can't quite do it like zach does, putting every little word as a different link, grrrrr.
well that's all for today, see you next time...that sounds so stupid for an ending...
Well I had something to blog about, been wanting to since last time, but now i forgot, so i'll just blog about whatever.
Apparently Elizabeth, Vince's love, and I, Vince's first love, are one in the same, at least personality and test wise, maybe that's why he loves us both, and it'd be true for the fact that we both fell for him, interesting. i guess since i wasn't around at Rose i wasn't able to fullfill his needs and thus found Elizabeth. pretty messed up concept....
So i've been working at Century 21 Destiny, it's fun i suppose. I mean the people are nice and when things happen it's good. I just hope to get some clients, then i'll really be having fun. But until that happens i guess i'll sit around and answer the phones, you'd be suprised what crazy calls i get. if only i had interent access or a computer at my desk, then that would be the life, i don't think i would ever leave. I'd be able to surf the web, update blogs, read the news, have a hell of a time, just afraid to do it on the company computers.....
Once agian Powerball has rolled over and the jackpot is 250 million. damn that's a lot of money, i'd like to win the lottery, but not that much. If i were to win, you'd be seeing a lot of hand outs. But until that happens, i'll be the one taking handouts....
Oh, my favorite asian Tony is thinknig about coming up to visit me. interesting, we knew each other for one semester at UofM, i mean we hung out a couple times, but after i left we didn't really speak for a year, then out of the blue he's all IM'ing me and whatnot. we've had several long phone calls, the longest being 2 hours, with some dead air of course, i was running around lowell. But i enderstand where he is coming from, i've felt the pain he is feeling now. I think that is why we have been able to come together like we have. but he's battlnig school, lost loves, life, lack of money and everything else I, and a few others have faced already. In a way i think he looks up to me, like he idolizes me, that's cool i suppose. but he's always posting things i said and stuff like that, like i'm some sort of inspiration oh well....
And I must add in here somewhere that brooke and i have been spending some tme together, it was rough a little bit ago, but now things are getting bettter, yay...
So as you can see, I've added a lot of links, though i can't quite do it like zach does, putting every little word as a different link, grrrrr.
well that's all for today, see you next time...that sounds so stupid for an ending...
Sunday, July 06, 2003
Fireworks, nah, just my.......
So the other night at Target, wendy, one of my night teamleads, sees me and tries to start a conversation with me, like normal people do, but this is a particular hard thing for people to do with me there, well least a normal conversation. So she asks me if i shot off any fireworks or anything like that for the fourth, i replied with, "just my dick....and you should've seen the finale". At first she's in slight shock, then comes back with, "you finally got you some sex?" I reply back with, "Oh no, i woke up and masturbated, talk about an explosion." She did her little "oh my" laugh, walked away and said , "you're strange" and chuckled. So now as i sit here i wonder if what i said was on the level, merely just a joke, or not. Tell me what you think, i mean to me it sounds like something i would say, but then agian, am i sane...questionable indeed.....
So the other night at Target, wendy, one of my night teamleads, sees me and tries to start a conversation with me, like normal people do, but this is a particular hard thing for people to do with me there, well least a normal conversation. So she asks me if i shot off any fireworks or anything like that for the fourth, i replied with, "just my dick....and you should've seen the finale". At first she's in slight shock, then comes back with, "you finally got you some sex?" I reply back with, "Oh no, i woke up and masturbated, talk about an explosion." She did her little "oh my" laugh, walked away and said , "you're strange" and chuckled. So now as i sit here i wonder if what i said was on the level, merely just a joke, or not. Tell me what you think, i mean to me it sounds like something i would say, but then agian, am i sane...questionable indeed.....
Friday, July 04, 2003
Something for Zach...
Check out this link,........., click "winning numbers", "frequency of numbers", then "powerball".....
now tell me it's not crazy that the number 42 has been drawn the most times, but sadly not as the powerball number, interesting, but you see my point..although my number 35 comes close to being dranw the most times for both pick 5 number and powerball number, rock on...
Check out this link,........., click "winning numbers", "frequency of numbers", then "powerball".....
now tell me it's not crazy that the number 42 has been drawn the most times, but sadly not as the powerball number, interesting, but you see my point..although my number 35 comes close to being dranw the most times for both pick 5 number and powerball number, rock on...
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
What the Hell is This???
Yeah so i got this from someone else's webjournal, it was easy, just type your name, and this is what i got...
and for my made up name i got...
ok, so they both somewhat fit, wrath of my peers, angry at everything, straight, devious, but the colors are off...
but i'm not sure what to make of this one, they got the number right...
Yeah so i got this from someone else's webjournal, it was easy, just type your name, and this is what i got...
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and for my made up name i got...
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ok, so they both somewhat fit, wrath of my peers, angry at everything, straight, devious, but the colors are off...
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but i'm not sure what to make of this one, they got the number right...
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
Monday, June 30, 2003
Cheese and Wine
Hey it's me and i've got some things to say....why can't i live and let stupid things die, why must i hold grudges? my forgiveness level is virtually nonexistant, or if i do forgive, it is in the back of my mind only to reappear every now and then and eat away at me. grrrrr. another thing is, why am i so critical of everything else. as i said over the weekend, i don't try to do it, but i always find fault in something. i can't let someting go, i have to make soem shitty remark about it/them/whatever. i guess as of late it's been bothering me, go figure...oh you want to hear someting funny....i got carded to go into an R rated movie, what the shit? never in my life have i ever been asked to see my id. when they asked for it, i started to give them my michigan one so i could get my student discount, but they were like no, id with age on it, i was like, excuse me, and then pulled it out for them. yeah, i thought it was a crock...oh and last night i got called 3 times by the same number, in the end it wasn't a prank, they just were given the wrong number and finally got the right one, so they later called and appologized to me, it was funny....ohh and the comments are back up, so all if you could go back and make your posts on all the previous ones, it should be every blog on this page, thanks...
Hey it's me and i've got some things to say....why can't i live and let stupid things die, why must i hold grudges? my forgiveness level is virtually nonexistant, or if i do forgive, it is in the back of my mind only to reappear every now and then and eat away at me. grrrrr. another thing is, why am i so critical of everything else. as i said over the weekend, i don't try to do it, but i always find fault in something. i can't let someting go, i have to make soem shitty remark about it/them/whatever. i guess as of late it's been bothering me, go figure...oh you want to hear someting funny....i got carded to go into an R rated movie, what the shit? never in my life have i ever been asked to see my id. when they asked for it, i started to give them my michigan one so i could get my student discount, but they were like no, id with age on it, i was like, excuse me, and then pulled it out for them. yeah, i thought it was a crock...oh and last night i got called 3 times by the same number, in the end it wasn't a prank, they just were given the wrong number and finally got the right one, so they later called and appologized to me, it was funny....ohh and the comments are back up, so all if you could go back and make your posts on all the previous ones, it should be every blog on this page, thanks...
Friday, June 27, 2003
Mother Fuck
Dammit, just as i make an exciting new post, give great analogies, pose wonderful questions, and publicize it like no tomorrow, the F'ing comment system goes down. Bullmotherfuckingshit is what i say. Damn, damn , damn, it always happens. thanks klink family for fucking up my week, yeah bad enough i have to put up with blogger being down for a day,then you do your maintenance afterwards, convienant, grrrrrrr.......
Dammit, just as i make an exciting new post, give great analogies, pose wonderful questions, and publicize it like no tomorrow, the F'ing comment system goes down. Bullmotherfuckingshit is what i say. Damn, damn , damn, it always happens. thanks klink family for fucking up my week, yeah bad enough i have to put up with blogger being down for a day,then you do your maintenance afterwards, convienant, grrrrrrr.......
Thursday, June 26, 2003
UPDATE
I'm on a roll...
Well blogger fucked up on me during the first post of this, the one time i didn't copy everything before i hit the post button, why does this always happen? anways, like it says, i was on a great streak, i tripped and i was rolling..and nobody could stop me...except blogger, grrrr. So let me tell you about the most recent insights, revolations if you will...
Ok, so i've been working hard today, making posts and such, i even updated my Xanga. Hell i made a new post, triumvirate will be the word to use today, somewhat lengther than normal, but i think we all will enjoy it. but i also updated the picture, hell yes new picture to look at. and in lieu of the new pic, i also updated the subtitle, told you i was on a roll. I mean i want you to go and check it out for yourself, it's a thing of beauty, well to me at least. But i want all the comments from the posed question to go on here, under this posting because, well, i brought it up on here. (i know that sounds wierd, making comments on one blog about another, when they are both run by the same person, ay yi yi) but yeah, "what do you do when the light turns yellow?" it's worded a little diferently on my xanga, but still, what is your response. and it's more than just "how you drive" sort of thing, it's the way you live your life. think about it, that page with the picture and question are of philospoical brilliance. really i'm not crazy. take a minute and reflect on this question, then respond appropriatly on here. i know it is deep, please someone agree with me....
Check it, so in my updated post to the Blue35Tuesday Xanga, i also came up with a new analogy. i may not be as great as the first one, but nonetheless it's golden. basically it goes a little something like this...setup: you know how in horror movies, they actually mention it in Scream, or in video games the evil villian, bad guy, nemesis never die once, old cliche #42. the main characters rejoice after the first "killing" because they think they are free, then out of the blue when they least expect it, they have to fight it agian. well, basically that's what i'm saying love is like, rather love gone wrong, breaking up, giving your heart only for it to be crushed. You and your loved one call it quits, for whatever reason, and you go on fighting how badly you feel, you don't want it to end, or you're trying to figure out why, you're having trouble moving on. then after awhile you come to grips with it and go about your business, only to be struck down by it agian, out of nowhere the depression sinks back in and you're at square one. I know a few of you can relate to this, i've been seeing it happen and able to take notice of it as of late. for some reason i have been able to step out of the frame and look around at things, it's really interesting to see things once you've done that. If you don't understand, maybe the short story on my Xanga will help you out, but in all, i think it's an alright analogy, moving on...
And last but not least, the update we've all been waiting for, the update to the first analogy posted earlier today about life and it's many pieces. ok so you got those little pieces and you're trying to get them together and one falls, what do you do? and everyone knows what they do, they try to rebuild, and once they get everything back into place, they put more attention to that piece that fell...but what happens, another piece falls. they put more attention to the first piece that fell, only to have another piece to fall. then once they rebuild, they put attention on the piece that fell more recent, with less, but still some attention to the first fallen piece, and agian another falls. this process happens over and over, why? hell, it could be that it's not meant to be together, or because the right amount of attention has to be proportioned to the whole, it needs to be balanced adequately, just like life. you can't put that thing together unless every piece has attention, and yes sometimes you need extra help with it, either friend, table, whatever, but it all has to be ballanced out. You can't live your life dropping everything to tend to one matter, leaving behind and forgetting about all those other pieces, less you want to take the extra time to rebuild those back up. I could give examples, but i think we all understand, ok maybe one, "college: need the correct amount of time to study and to party, otherwise you'll fail out", but you see my point. life is all about balance. think about it, balance, that has to be the strongest word, balance. crazy people are said to be unbalanced, your inner ear keeps your equilibrium in balance, it's what the world revolves around. maybe this is stronger to me because i can speak personally about this, and yes, i let some things make me way unbalanced, but to truly put everything into a perfect harmony and balance, is to understand beyond normal thinking, of how you can and can't exist at the same time, how there can be a truth, yet there can't at the same time, to think and understand this is a key principle of buddhism....
the last sentence was achieved after speaking with my favortie asian and his shock to what i had just said to him, so i give him the credit about the buddhist stuff at the end, though i did ask for his help on the subject because i thought it sounded buddhist. the end
P.S. So far I'm liking this new blogger, it's easy ot use, and, so far so good, we'll see how well it stays up though
I'm on a roll...
Well blogger fucked up on me during the first post of this, the one time i didn't copy everything before i hit the post button, why does this always happen? anways, like it says, i was on a great streak, i tripped and i was rolling..and nobody could stop me...except blogger, grrrr. So let me tell you about the most recent insights, revolations if you will...
Ok, so i've been working hard today, making posts and such, i even updated my Xanga. Hell i made a new post, triumvirate will be the word to use today, somewhat lengther than normal, but i think we all will enjoy it. but i also updated the picture, hell yes new picture to look at. and in lieu of the new pic, i also updated the subtitle, told you i was on a roll. I mean i want you to go and check it out for yourself, it's a thing of beauty, well to me at least. But i want all the comments from the posed question to go on here, under this posting because, well, i brought it up on here. (i know that sounds wierd, making comments on one blog about another, when they are both run by the same person, ay yi yi) but yeah, "what do you do when the light turns yellow?" it's worded a little diferently on my xanga, but still, what is your response. and it's more than just "how you drive" sort of thing, it's the way you live your life. think about it, that page with the picture and question are of philospoical brilliance. really i'm not crazy. take a minute and reflect on this question, then respond appropriatly on here. i know it is deep, please someone agree with me....
Check it, so in my updated post to the Blue35Tuesday Xanga, i also came up with a new analogy. i may not be as great as the first one, but nonetheless it's golden. basically it goes a little something like this...setup: you know how in horror movies, they actually mention it in Scream, or in video games the evil villian, bad guy, nemesis never die once, old cliche #42. the main characters rejoice after the first "killing" because they think they are free, then out of the blue when they least expect it, they have to fight it agian. well, basically that's what i'm saying love is like, rather love gone wrong, breaking up, giving your heart only for it to be crushed. You and your loved one call it quits, for whatever reason, and you go on fighting how badly you feel, you don't want it to end, or you're trying to figure out why, you're having trouble moving on. then after awhile you come to grips with it and go about your business, only to be struck down by it agian, out of nowhere the depression sinks back in and you're at square one. I know a few of you can relate to this, i've been seeing it happen and able to take notice of it as of late. for some reason i have been able to step out of the frame and look around at things, it's really interesting to see things once you've done that. If you don't understand, maybe the short story on my Xanga will help you out, but in all, i think it's an alright analogy, moving on...
And last but not least, the update we've all been waiting for, the update to the first analogy posted earlier today about life and it's many pieces. ok so you got those little pieces and you're trying to get them together and one falls, what do you do? and everyone knows what they do, they try to rebuild, and once they get everything back into place, they put more attention to that piece that fell...but what happens, another piece falls. they put more attention to the first piece that fell, only to have another piece to fall. then once they rebuild, they put attention on the piece that fell more recent, with less, but still some attention to the first fallen piece, and agian another falls. this process happens over and over, why? hell, it could be that it's not meant to be together, or because the right amount of attention has to be proportioned to the whole, it needs to be balanced adequately, just like life. you can't put that thing together unless every piece has attention, and yes sometimes you need extra help with it, either friend, table, whatever, but it all has to be ballanced out. You can't live your life dropping everything to tend to one matter, leaving behind and forgetting about all those other pieces, less you want to take the extra time to rebuild those back up. I could give examples, but i think we all understand, ok maybe one, "college: need the correct amount of time to study and to party, otherwise you'll fail out", but you see my point. life is all about balance. think about it, balance, that has to be the strongest word, balance. crazy people are said to be unbalanced, your inner ear keeps your equilibrium in balance, it's what the world revolves around. maybe this is stronger to me because i can speak personally about this, and yes, i let some things make me way unbalanced, but to truly put everything into a perfect harmony and balance, is to understand beyond normal thinking, of how you can and can't exist at the same time, how there can be a truth, yet there can't at the same time, to think and understand this is a key principle of buddhism....
the last sentence was achieved after speaking with my favortie asian and his shock to what i had just said to him, so i give him the credit about the buddhist stuff at the end, though i did ask for his help on the subject because i thought it sounded buddhist. the end
P.S. So far I'm liking this new blogger, it's easy ot use, and, so far so good, we'll see how well it stays up though
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Great Analogy...
So i was talking with my favorite asian, tony, this morning. (oh funny side story, at kendall's open house, eating the fuit salad, i made some remarks about it and it's contents. well there were mandarin oranges in it, and i remembered that Tony is Mandarin. ok i thought it was hysterical). So we were talking about life, love lives, and everything else, and in retrospect of all this i came up with this great, brilliant?, analogy. now remember i had just woken up and instantly he's messaging me, i think he just woke up too, so this is pretty good for that circumstance. I made the comment how nothing in my life can be right all at once, bascially i was trying to state that as you solve or remidy one thing, something else goes amiss. then i made up this analogy on the spot to describe what i meant, and it's something i think we all can relate to as well. My life and what's been gonig on recently with it can best be related to when you're putting something together (like a model or anything that has come undone for that matter). You've got your fingers holding all the little pieces together (basically i am saying your life's problems are in your control, only you have reign over them, hence they are in your hand), and now all you have to do is screw it together, make it one (you want everyting to always be right, one entity, nothing wrong, all one piece), but, as we all know, there's always that peice that slips away, falls off, and so forth (i think this is selfexplanitory, solve one thing, there goes another).
now when i spoke to heather about this shortly after tony, she had some insight for this analogy
heatherlouise27: that's good...but it's not always just one piece, right now it seems like the whole thing just fell apart and now i have to start all over by putting them all together again...who the hell knows if things will ever be screwed together
heatherlouise27: matter of fact, i know they won't be, cuz that's not life
Blue35Tuesday: i don't think they ever will be, and that is how life is,
Blue35Tuesday: but you have to have help when putting it together, friends, family, something, to help you get things in order
heatherlouise27: ok, this may sound messed up but how do you know how they are to be put together in the first place? what shape should they take?
Blue35Tuesday: because of the ideals in your head
Blue35Tuesday: you think that's how they should be
heatherlouise27: should be? or want them to be?
Blue35Tuesday: yeah
Blue35Tuesday: both
Blue35Tuesday: we want them to be like that, and therefore think they should be like that, for our betterness
wow, fucked up conversations early in the morning. maybe i should wake up every morning with some sort of philospoical question and attempt to answer it, or not. if you have any insighteither make a comment, or do like the others and chat to me online, i think we all know my aim name. have a great day....
So i was talking with my favorite asian, tony, this morning. (oh funny side story, at kendall's open house, eating the fuit salad, i made some remarks about it and it's contents. well there were mandarin oranges in it, and i remembered that Tony is Mandarin. ok i thought it was hysterical). So we were talking about life, love lives, and everything else, and in retrospect of all this i came up with this great, brilliant?, analogy. now remember i had just woken up and instantly he's messaging me, i think he just woke up too, so this is pretty good for that circumstance. I made the comment how nothing in my life can be right all at once, bascially i was trying to state that as you solve or remidy one thing, something else goes amiss. then i made up this analogy on the spot to describe what i meant, and it's something i think we all can relate to as well. My life and what's been gonig on recently with it can best be related to when you're putting something together (like a model or anything that has come undone for that matter). You've got your fingers holding all the little pieces together (basically i am saying your life's problems are in your control, only you have reign over them, hence they are in your hand), and now all you have to do is screw it together, make it one (you want everyting to always be right, one entity, nothing wrong, all one piece), but, as we all know, there's always that peice that slips away, falls off, and so forth (i think this is selfexplanitory, solve one thing, there goes another).
now when i spoke to heather about this shortly after tony, she had some insight for this analogy
heatherlouise27: that's good...but it's not always just one piece, right now it seems like the whole thing just fell apart and now i have to start all over by putting them all together again...who the hell knows if things will ever be screwed together
heatherlouise27: matter of fact, i know they won't be, cuz that's not life
Blue35Tuesday: i don't think they ever will be, and that is how life is,
Blue35Tuesday: but you have to have help when putting it together, friends, family, something, to help you get things in order
heatherlouise27: ok, this may sound messed up but how do you know how they are to be put together in the first place? what shape should they take?
Blue35Tuesday: because of the ideals in your head
Blue35Tuesday: you think that's how they should be
heatherlouise27: should be? or want them to be?
Blue35Tuesday: yeah
Blue35Tuesday: both
Blue35Tuesday: we want them to be like that, and therefore think they should be like that, for our betterness
wow, fucked up conversations early in the morning. maybe i should wake up every morning with some sort of philospoical question and attempt to answer it, or not. if you have any insighteither make a comment, or do like the others and chat to me online, i think we all know my aim name. have a great day....
Monday, June 23, 2003
Don't Say You Didn't
Yeah, well tonight was one fucked up night, yeah i'm swearing, i'm fucking aggitated. well there's so much that happened, but basically i didn't end up gonig to RtC like i said i was going to, and apparently planned. yeah, but right now, i know they are there, and i know they are just talking shit right now. started by one individual, which got another going, and then they all chimmed in. hell they even got andy in it as well. it just fucking pisses me off, they have no idea what the situation is, yet they are quick to judge and put in their shitty little comments. grrr, fuck it. i'm so...i don't even know, like i said tongiht was a night from hell. all i know is i'm fuckng hungry and this is one pissy blog, there hasn't been one of those in awhile. well i guess those fuckers can make it up to me tomorrow (tuesday) if they so wish, or i can get them back, i do nothing all day tomorrow...century 21 cancelled their floor meeting, and i got myself off from alco, only to be ditched kinda, and i don't work at target, one hell of a fuckng day tomorrow, let's see what happens...this is your only redemption bastards...
Yeah, well tonight was one fucked up night, yeah i'm swearing, i'm fucking aggitated. well there's so much that happened, but basically i didn't end up gonig to RtC like i said i was going to, and apparently planned. yeah, but right now, i know they are there, and i know they are just talking shit right now. started by one individual, which got another going, and then they all chimmed in. hell they even got andy in it as well. it just fucking pisses me off, they have no idea what the situation is, yet they are quick to judge and put in their shitty little comments. grrr, fuck it. i'm so...i don't even know, like i said tongiht was a night from hell. all i know is i'm fuckng hungry and this is one pissy blog, there hasn't been one of those in awhile. well i guess those fuckers can make it up to me tomorrow (tuesday) if they so wish, or i can get them back, i do nothing all day tomorrow...century 21 cancelled their floor meeting, and i got myself off from alco, only to be ditched kinda, and i don't work at target, one hell of a fuckng day tomorrow, let's see what happens...this is your only redemption bastards...
Sunday, June 22, 2003
The Name's Dumass...
Ok, after a quick look over the "Let's See..." posting i noticed that as i was telling my quasi sleep-deprived story about being somewhat insomniac, i went on totally diffferent tangents and never really got on track agian.so yeah, i'm a dumbas, what can i say. see that's the reason why i don't make many casual postings, if i do, it's an event, also another reason why i don't read, i have ADHD, or something like it. I guess that's all for now, just ranting about myself being retarded, until next time, this is jason angus signing off.....
Ok, after a quick look over the "Let's See..." posting i noticed that as i was telling my quasi sleep-deprived story about being somewhat insomniac, i went on totally diffferent tangents and never really got on track agian.so yeah, i'm a dumbas, what can i say. see that's the reason why i don't make many casual postings, if i do, it's an event, also another reason why i don't read, i have ADHD, or something like it. I guess that's all for now, just ranting about myself being retarded, until next time, this is jason angus signing off.....
Damn....
Ha, she was right, i would fall to my little blog....well instead of talking about that, just yet, i'll talk about other random crap.....Oh so i think it is unbelievable the fact that my insomnia state might be coming back, but it's not really insomnia, it's a little different, let me explain...thursday=got some sleep til about 10, was up for a bit and tried to lay back down, due to unsettling things and phone calls and this and that i didn't clunk out til after 630, then got up at 915 and headed to the land of high to work at target for the evening, but also making a quick stop into RtC to see Andy and Vince. After work i had to take a fellow employee home in merillville, damn people, and then it was onto shopping at meijer. they were having thier saturdaze sales, i got 4 jack's pizza for 6.36! realizing it was well after 9 i quickly flew home where i tried shoving all the frozen stuff i bought into the little top freezer part, showered then it was onto nancy's. from 10 to 12ish she was giving some new agent orientation thing. she's...i don't want to say out of fear of the wrong people seeing it, but you all know what i think. Came home a little bit later and got things together here, got directions and a time for the comstock open house, so as i said in my previous blog, i wasn't able to eat. came to the conclusion that the open house didn't start til 3 so i had time to kill, not enough to sleep, but i wasn't tired anyways. so i headed up to office something or another and got some legal paper and other things i needed, then headed back to lowell. luckily there were signs and thus was able to find the place. i did eat, but it wasn't plate filling and i didn't go back for seconds. played a quick game of volleyball or so and then we all sat down. there were a lot of people i didn't know, no big whoop, i'm antisocial so it's ok, but more people came as the time passed. then entered Corinne (i think that is how you spell it, pronounced Core-inn) with the light coming from behind her i thought she took a stunning resemblance of my lovely brooke. Ironically enough she sat across from me and soon there after started to make conversation with me. even her personality reminded me of her, i quickly pointed this out to her and asked if she knew brooke, but she didn't. we talked, her about stupid things, me about my lovely brooke, it was good. i thought a funny thing that happened was we were taling then, for some reason i had to say my name, so i said jason angus, the first time everyone heard my name in full, but i was just saying it to one person, everyone over heard and it was funny how one by one everyone made a comment, first it was corinne, saying how she knew me, and other chimed in after wards, funny, but the clincher is someone whom i never seen before tunred to me and was like, "oh yeah, i remember you, i touched your hair" and left it at tat like i sould remember or something. what in the hell? ah well back to my main story..left there around 7, then laid down. got up at 930 and headed to target. crazy time, up for 22 hours on little sleep, then only getting 2 hours of sleep, and heading back out to target. got done with that and got home by 715, got woken up by a phone call at 1111 and then stirred from there on out til i got out of bed around 1230 and here i am. agian i am hungry as hell, but am holding out for that free open hosue food, kendalls' open house is today, but i am waiting for someone like vince to return my call so we can go over together, i hate going to these things alone.so it's about 3 and i think i'll wrap up this post. i've already ruined my day, but i won't talk about that, instead, i'll listen to music, later get free food, pass out agian, and then go to work, hopefully all my worries will wash away, or something of the sort. till then. hopefully i'll blog later, maybe tomorrow, yeah, i l*******, goodbye.....
Ha, she was right, i would fall to my little blog....well instead of talking about that, just yet, i'll talk about other random crap.....Oh so i think it is unbelievable the fact that my insomnia state might be coming back, but it's not really insomnia, it's a little different, let me explain...thursday=got some sleep til about 10, was up for a bit and tried to lay back down, due to unsettling things and phone calls and this and that i didn't clunk out til after 630, then got up at 915 and headed to the land of high to work at target for the evening, but also making a quick stop into RtC to see Andy and Vince. After work i had to take a fellow employee home in merillville, damn people, and then it was onto shopping at meijer. they were having thier saturdaze sales, i got 4 jack's pizza for 6.36! realizing it was well after 9 i quickly flew home where i tried shoving all the frozen stuff i bought into the little top freezer part, showered then it was onto nancy's. from 10 to 12ish she was giving some new agent orientation thing. she's...i don't want to say out of fear of the wrong people seeing it, but you all know what i think. Came home a little bit later and got things together here, got directions and a time for the comstock open house, so as i said in my previous blog, i wasn't able to eat. came to the conclusion that the open house didn't start til 3 so i had time to kill, not enough to sleep, but i wasn't tired anyways. so i headed up to office something or another and got some legal paper and other things i needed, then headed back to lowell. luckily there were signs and thus was able to find the place. i did eat, but it wasn't plate filling and i didn't go back for seconds. played a quick game of volleyball or so and then we all sat down. there were a lot of people i didn't know, no big whoop, i'm antisocial so it's ok, but more people came as the time passed. then entered Corinne (i think that is how you spell it, pronounced Core-inn) with the light coming from behind her i thought she took a stunning resemblance of my lovely brooke. Ironically enough she sat across from me and soon there after started to make conversation with me. even her personality reminded me of her, i quickly pointed this out to her and asked if she knew brooke, but she didn't. we talked, her about stupid things, me about my lovely brooke, it was good. i thought a funny thing that happened was we were taling then, for some reason i had to say my name, so i said jason angus, the first time everyone heard my name in full, but i was just saying it to one person, everyone over heard and it was funny how one by one everyone made a comment, first it was corinne, saying how she knew me, and other chimed in after wards, funny, but the clincher is someone whom i never seen before tunred to me and was like, "oh yeah, i remember you, i touched your hair" and left it at tat like i sould remember or something. what in the hell? ah well back to my main story..left there around 7, then laid down. got up at 930 and headed to target. crazy time, up for 22 hours on little sleep, then only getting 2 hours of sleep, and heading back out to target. got done with that and got home by 715, got woken up by a phone call at 1111 and then stirred from there on out til i got out of bed around 1230 and here i am. agian i am hungry as hell, but am holding out for that free open hosue food, kendalls' open house is today, but i am waiting for someone like vince to return my call so we can go over together, i hate going to these things alone.so it's about 3 and i think i'll wrap up this post. i've already ruined my day, but i won't talk about that, instead, i'll listen to music, later get free food, pass out agian, and then go to work, hopefully all my worries will wash away, or something of the sort. till then. hopefully i'll blog later, maybe tomorrow, yeah, i l*******, goodbye.....
Saturday, June 21, 2003
Let's See....
Well, this is a response, in blog form to a comment on my last post made by Zach. Ok, so for the first question, i'm not sure how long it will be, i'll make a general statement and say my house will probably be on the market for about 60 days. I am not off the ALCO payroll, yet, i still go in and work, and i think next week george has me down for a lot of shifts, i'll see what i can do. I haven't gotten any money from working with nancy yet, though she has, "given" me money for bringing the buyer george to them, she said that would be to cover some start up fees such as name badge, business cards and such. Target is target, i'm happy with them, but there's a new team relations person who is really stinging everyone on attendance issues, and i'm at the end of that stick as well, on probation and such and calling off for my ear infection. hopefully they don't fire me, i've seen 2 walk-offs since i've been there, and one person somewhat justifully fired, but still there's always the others that should be fired but somehow are still there. i see good things to come with this munster store opening. Sadly i haven't learned any songs on the guitar yet, i am stil trying to learn how to progress my chords, i really suck at that, but i got the intro to stairway down pretty well. in fact zach, i'm using methodists suck to help me learn progression, thanks. and last, but never least, brooke and i are, well brooke and i, we all know how that is. i love her very much, but at times it seems i just can't do enough to please her. i don't know what i can do, i make her mad, and she doesn't know why, but when we're good, we're great, i just wish we had more times like that.well that's all for now, hopefully that fills you up, now time for sleep....
Oh, side note, funny little story i thoguht i should add in, i've been hungry ever since i went shopping, and we all know that going shopping while being hungry is a bozo no no. that was at 8 or so, then i had to make it home to shower and change to go to the real estate training thing. so now it is 2 and i still have not eaten, but this whole time i've been telling myself everytime i say that i am hungry, i say no, you are going to an open house,, there will be food there. i told me mom not to let me eat, and as i sat here and blogged i made a post it note not to eat, free food awaits. so yeah i thought that was funny, i'm sure you all can picture that, well yeah, i'm off for my free food before i die, good day.
Well, this is a response, in blog form to a comment on my last post made by Zach. Ok, so for the first question, i'm not sure how long it will be, i'll make a general statement and say my house will probably be on the market for about 60 days. I am not off the ALCO payroll, yet, i still go in and work, and i think next week george has me down for a lot of shifts, i'll see what i can do. I haven't gotten any money from working with nancy yet, though she has, "given" me money for bringing the buyer george to them, she said that would be to cover some start up fees such as name badge, business cards and such. Target is target, i'm happy with them, but there's a new team relations person who is really stinging everyone on attendance issues, and i'm at the end of that stick as well, on probation and such and calling off for my ear infection. hopefully they don't fire me, i've seen 2 walk-offs since i've been there, and one person somewhat justifully fired, but still there's always the others that should be fired but somehow are still there. i see good things to come with this munster store opening. Sadly i haven't learned any songs on the guitar yet, i am stil trying to learn how to progress my chords, i really suck at that, but i got the intro to stairway down pretty well. in fact zach, i'm using methodists suck to help me learn progression, thanks. and last, but never least, brooke and i are, well brooke and i, we all know how that is. i love her very much, but at times it seems i just can't do enough to please her. i don't know what i can do, i make her mad, and she doesn't know why, but when we're good, we're great, i just wish we had more times like that.well that's all for now, hopefully that fills you up, now time for sleep....
Oh, side note, funny little story i thoguht i should add in, i've been hungry ever since i went shopping, and we all know that going shopping while being hungry is a bozo no no. that was at 8 or so, then i had to make it home to shower and change to go to the real estate training thing. so now it is 2 and i still have not eaten, but this whole time i've been telling myself everytime i say that i am hungry, i say no, you are going to an open house,, there will be food there. i told me mom not to let me eat, and as i sat here and blogged i made a post it note not to eat, free food awaits. so yeah i thought that was funny, i'm sure you all can picture that, well yeah, i'm off for my free food before i die, good day.
Friday, June 20, 2003
Hey, What Up Yo....
Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I know it's been awhile for me to update, or even go on a streak of steady bloggings, even my Xanga is behind. So what is going on with me, well somehow I am still living in my house, yes I am selling it, but I'm still here, i keep telling myself that it won't be for much longer so when it does happened, I will be prepared. I got started with my real estate thing, I work for Nancy at Century 21 Destiny Realty in Lowell, yay. Yeah, a homeless realtor, go figure. well my internet connection is being a bitch, can't load up thses pages worth crap. I'm not sure as to why I am donig this, I mean I have nothing to really say. I've taken some time off from ALCO, partly because i hate it and trying to get my feet wet in this realty thing, and since i've asked for some time off george has been a **insert bad word here** agian. apparently because i don't work at alco, he assumes i don't work at all, as shown here in this conversation:
gtvon (12:26:39 PM): i'll go eat something now
gtvon (12:26:45 PM): and then to work
gtvon (12:26:49 PM): you know what that is?
gtvon (12:26:54 PM): >:o
he's always said i can take 28 days off, and bla bla bla, yeah, i've said before i want to quit alco, it's pathetic. and since i've taken some days off i've loved it, i've been catching up on my sleep and everything, Ohh how i wish i could do this more often, i knw i've said this before, but i don't want to qork so much especially when brooke is in town, i want to be able to spend time with her. oh what a crazy world we live in. oh, and thanks to vince for letting me borrow your guitar, even though i'm still trying to make time to play it, sad face, well that's it, i'm gonig to sleep now...
Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I know it's been awhile for me to update, or even go on a streak of steady bloggings, even my Xanga is behind. So what is going on with me, well somehow I am still living in my house, yes I am selling it, but I'm still here, i keep telling myself that it won't be for much longer so when it does happened, I will be prepared. I got started with my real estate thing, I work for Nancy at Century 21 Destiny Realty in Lowell, yay. Yeah, a homeless realtor, go figure. well my internet connection is being a bitch, can't load up thses pages worth crap. I'm not sure as to why I am donig this, I mean I have nothing to really say. I've taken some time off from ALCO, partly because i hate it and trying to get my feet wet in this realty thing, and since i've asked for some time off george has been a **insert bad word here** agian. apparently because i don't work at alco, he assumes i don't work at all, as shown here in this conversation:
gtvon (12:26:39 PM): i'll go eat something now
gtvon (12:26:45 PM): and then to work
gtvon (12:26:49 PM): you know what that is?
gtvon (12:26:54 PM): >:o
he's always said i can take 28 days off, and bla bla bla, yeah, i've said before i want to quit alco, it's pathetic. and since i've taken some days off i've loved it, i've been catching up on my sleep and everything, Ohh how i wish i could do this more often, i knw i've said this before, but i don't want to qork so much especially when brooke is in town, i want to be able to spend time with her. oh what a crazy world we live in. oh, and thanks to vince for letting me borrow your guitar, even though i'm still trying to make time to play it, sad face, well that's it, i'm gonig to sleep now...
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Here's a Little Something I Thought Was Funny...
Ok, so Tuesday morning comes, just get off work at Target and headed over to Retail Rodeo, i mean ALCO because i was unable to place my order on monday. I'm there, so my thing and Geroge is being pissy once agian, part reason why i left early on Monday, so i told him in lieu of this I wouldn't be coming infor my tuesday night schedule, i don't want to be around in a place that treats me like that, the world does enough for me. He then starts bitching about how tight the schedule is, funny thing, he was just complaining on monday how we could afford to loose at least one person per shift each day, i laughed. then without even questioning why i needed the day off, he yells to me about how he doesn't think it is fair to take a day off to move my shit, yet let's think back to one week ago, he took off an entire weekend and a week's worth of vacation to "move" into his house. the reason why i put move in quotes is because he was given 9 days to get everything over into his house and unpacked, well everything's over yes, but it's all in the garage, and what's worse is that all his stuff had to be moved out of the apartment that first wekend, so what he did with the other 7 days is beyound anyone. once agian i chuckle. I don't know, it just angers me when people are hypocrites.well that's about all for now, i'm sure i'll ramble some more later
Ok, so Tuesday morning comes, just get off work at Target and headed over to Retail Rodeo, i mean ALCO because i was unable to place my order on monday. I'm there, so my thing and Geroge is being pissy once agian, part reason why i left early on Monday, so i told him in lieu of this I wouldn't be coming infor my tuesday night schedule, i don't want to be around in a place that treats me like that, the world does enough for me. He then starts bitching about how tight the schedule is, funny thing, he was just complaining on monday how we could afford to loose at least one person per shift each day, i laughed. then without even questioning why i needed the day off, he yells to me about how he doesn't think it is fair to take a day off to move my shit, yet let's think back to one week ago, he took off an entire weekend and a week's worth of vacation to "move" into his house. the reason why i put move in quotes is because he was given 9 days to get everything over into his house and unpacked, well everything's over yes, but it's all in the garage, and what's worse is that all his stuff had to be moved out of the apartment that first wekend, so what he did with the other 7 days is beyound anyone. once agian i chuckle. I don't know, it just angers me when people are hypocrites.well that's about all for now, i'm sure i'll ramble some more later
Thursday, June 12, 2003
Quick Little Things...
So i had many things to blog about, so much stuff has been going on the past week, but i haven't had any time to blog about them, and because it goes so far back and the newer stuff relies on the older stuff, and i can't remember all the details, it will go without being said, instead here are just some random statemtns that are/went through my mind in no order whatsoever.....
Brooke is back, yay. i know now why i can't eeat candy, i've been really tired lately, i saw this coming, my radar made a new noise the other day, one i haven't heard in my 3 years owning it.deep, the target in highland is hiring, yes that's right all you people who need jobs, i learned the A chord, i suck, i am partly to blame, the Matrix 2 is crap, the dogs are gone, i'm running out of time, i drove without my glasses, i need to get adequate sleep, but i'm not liking the dreams i've been having, does everybody know, why why why, doing laundry is expensive, sometimes the pain is too much, but then agian i'm still here, so it hasn't reached "enough" yet, 3 hours shifts? that's funny, i don't know what else, i forgot everything i was going to say as i sat down screw it i'm donw, there's a post for you...
So i had many things to blog about, so much stuff has been going on the past week, but i haven't had any time to blog about them, and because it goes so far back and the newer stuff relies on the older stuff, and i can't remember all the details, it will go without being said, instead here are just some random statemtns that are/went through my mind in no order whatsoever.....
Brooke is back, yay. i know now why i can't eeat candy, i've been really tired lately, i saw this coming, my radar made a new noise the other day, one i haven't heard in my 3 years owning it.deep, the target in highland is hiring, yes that's right all you people who need jobs, i learned the A chord, i suck, i am partly to blame, the Matrix 2 is crap, the dogs are gone, i'm running out of time, i drove without my glasses, i need to get adequate sleep, but i'm not liking the dreams i've been having, does everybody know, why why why, doing laundry is expensive, sometimes the pain is too much, but then agian i'm still here, so it hasn't reached "enough" yet, 3 hours shifts? that's funny, i don't know what else, i forgot everything i was going to say as i sat down screw it i'm donw, there's a post for you...
Thursday, June 05, 2003
MWHAHAHAHAHA
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Very High |
| Schizoid: | Moderate |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | High |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | Very High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
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Tuesday, June 03, 2003
I Feel Like Shit
Ohh, I am in a terrible condition. I don't even know where to begin. Let's go with waking up...whenever it is that i do wake up, i am in much much pain. My entire head throbs in pain. opening up my eyes to see what time it is hurts, followed with sharp shooting pains in my temples. my jaw hurts, and i can feel this pain extending to my ears. I toss and turn, rolling over to get comfortable, but nothing is achieved. This happens everytime i wake up. if i am asleep and something wakes me up, i cannot fall back asleep. I may have been asleep for 15 minutes and still have 6 hours to go, i can't fall back alseep. i try everything to get back to sleep, and when i finally do, it's only moments before i have to get up, and getting up is impossible. this goes round and round. it makes me want to cry at times, i'm not sure what is causing this, but i want it to stop, i cannot function properly with iths going on, i drag through thr day, wishing i could go to sleep, and when i do get to lay down, i can't. it's like a terrible hangover that won't go away. ahhh, that is all, goodinght.
Ohh, I am in a terrible condition. I don't even know where to begin. Let's go with waking up...whenever it is that i do wake up, i am in much much pain. My entire head throbs in pain. opening up my eyes to see what time it is hurts, followed with sharp shooting pains in my temples. my jaw hurts, and i can feel this pain extending to my ears. I toss and turn, rolling over to get comfortable, but nothing is achieved. This happens everytime i wake up. if i am asleep and something wakes me up, i cannot fall back asleep. I may have been asleep for 15 minutes and still have 6 hours to go, i can't fall back alseep. i try everything to get back to sleep, and when i finally do, it's only moments before i have to get up, and getting up is impossible. this goes round and round. it makes me want to cry at times, i'm not sure what is causing this, but i want it to stop, i cannot function properly with iths going on, i drag through thr day, wishing i could go to sleep, and when i do get to lay down, i can't. it's like a terrible hangover that won't go away. ahhh, that is all, goodinght.
Thursday, May 29, 2003
Conspiracy Theory...
Yeah well i noticed this little scandal in the very own Lowell Tribune, i think Zach would be all over this. i'd provide to you a link to see this article, but they don't have a website, so you'll just have to go and buy your copy this week. ok so back to the scandal, it's on the very cover of the paper, top left hand article, something stating LHS Student Council gives scholarship, and thne that's where the copntroversy begins. it's the first time the SC has given out money as a scholarship, also the check for $250 in the picture is being handed from Alysha Tomlins to Lynette Kregel. now the funny thing with that is alysha has a high postion in the student council, and lynette is also her best friend! So they were in collusion with one another to give this money away, i bet they had some sort of deal wherein they split it 50/50 or something, yeah you know what i'm talking about. but the story gets worse when told by heather rosinwinkel, that the $250 given out as a scholarship was the $250 that her class gave to the student council to help with trips and other shit. well yeah, i thought that i should bring this up, oh wait, i hear the feds coming, got to run...........
Yeah well i noticed this little scandal in the very own Lowell Tribune, i think Zach would be all over this. i'd provide to you a link to see this article, but they don't have a website, so you'll just have to go and buy your copy this week. ok so back to the scandal, it's on the very cover of the paper, top left hand article, something stating LHS Student Council gives scholarship, and thne that's where the copntroversy begins. it's the first time the SC has given out money as a scholarship, also the check for $250 in the picture is being handed from Alysha Tomlins to Lynette Kregel. now the funny thing with that is alysha has a high postion in the student council, and lynette is also her best friend! So they were in collusion with one another to give this money away, i bet they had some sort of deal wherein they split it 50/50 or something, yeah you know what i'm talking about. but the story gets worse when told by heather rosinwinkel, that the $250 given out as a scholarship was the $250 that her class gave to the student council to help with trips and other shit. well yeah, i thought that i should bring this up, oh wait, i hear the feds coming, got to run...........
Sunday, May 25, 2003
Stupid Little Things....
Here's a webiste via Asain Tony, yeah it's funny, poorly translated shit, i think only a couple of you will like it or get it, like andy or vince, but here it is
http://www.engrish.com/
yup, imagine that, engrish, got to love it..
Here's a webiste via Asain Tony, yeah it's funny, poorly translated shit, i think only a couple of you will like it or get it, like andy or vince, but here it is
http://www.engrish.com/
yup, imagine that, engrish, got to love it..
It's Another Tequilla Sunrise....
Ok that is the song that Barcus' started to make up song reminded me of, if that made any sense. we were coming back from Zach's and the clouds in the sky looked as if they were fake, some picture or portrait, something, so then barcus says, false horizons or fake horizons, same thing, and i was like oh my dad that's so in depth. so from there it went into making it a song. and ten it went into fake horizon, tequilla sunrise, and we both started laughing, yeah that was good...So i sit here hungry as hell trying to blog about yesterday. i know we got down there, met up with zach, anne, and steph and i was hungry so we ate at El Rodeo, but damn do i hate mexican food.it wasn't what i wanted, but i settled for some chicken something ornother, i think it was a number 8, they didn't have 35, stopped at 33. yeah the menu was huge, i almost needed a magnifying glass to read the tiny text as well. there were too many options. we jokingly said this was the biggest thing steph read all semester. damn tis talk about food is making me hungrier!!! So to wrap this baby up, we went back to zach's, PLayeD with the guitaRs, mAde praNKphonE caLLs, went for walks, watched shit on zach's computer, it was a good time, i don't remember falling asleep though, and damn the caps button F with me, and i'm too lazy to go back and fix it because during that typing i had already fixed it 12 times, grrr. i give up on that, plus i'm F'ing hungry. that's all..
Ok that is the song that Barcus' started to make up song reminded me of, if that made any sense. we were coming back from Zach's and the clouds in the sky looked as if they were fake, some picture or portrait, something, so then barcus says, false horizons or fake horizons, same thing, and i was like oh my dad that's so in depth. so from there it went into making it a song. and ten it went into fake horizon, tequilla sunrise, and we both started laughing, yeah that was good...So i sit here hungry as hell trying to blog about yesterday. i know we got down there, met up with zach, anne, and steph and i was hungry so we ate at El Rodeo, but damn do i hate mexican food.it wasn't what i wanted, but i settled for some chicken something ornother, i think it was a number 8, they didn't have 35, stopped at 33. yeah the menu was huge, i almost needed a magnifying glass to read the tiny text as well. there were too many options. we jokingly said this was the biggest thing steph read all semester. damn tis talk about food is making me hungrier!!! So to wrap this baby up, we went back to zach's, PLayeD with the guitaRs, mAde praNKphonE caLLs, went for walks, watched shit on zach's computer, it was a good time, i don't remember falling asleep though, and damn the caps button F with me, and i'm too lazy to go back and fix it because during that typing i had already fixed it 12 times, grrr. i give up on that, plus i'm F'ing hungry. that's all..
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Part 3: Still Bitching...
Yeah, i can't wait to sign the termination papers. i already have planned what i would say, now ifinnaly get to say it. Reason for leaving, " Everyone here is the biggest group of worthless lazy fucks i've ever delt with, to be in their presence is a social demotion, even before punching in, just walking into the building i feel i have succumbed to the lowest depths of soceity and become as stupid and worthless as much as they are. i'd feel beter working with destructive mentally handicapped people. may god have pity on your souls. And we got a fucking pespi machine in the store."
Yeah, i can't wait to sign the termination papers. i already have planned what i would say, now ifinnaly get to say it. Reason for leaving, " Everyone here is the biggest group of worthless lazy fucks i've ever delt with, to be in their presence is a social demotion, even before punching in, just walking into the building i feel i have succumbed to the lowest depths of soceity and become as stupid and worthless as much as they are. i'd feel beter working with destructive mentally handicapped people. may god have pity on your souls. And we got a fucking pespi machine in the store."
Part 2: Quiting...
Just some points I forgot to mention, and feel the ned to still say...
All in all, ALCO has been the single worst thing that has happened to me, it has been the destruction of my life. If we take a trip back to december 2001, shit was hitting the fan between me and college. as we all know, things didn't go through, this and that, thus i had to depart, but that's only half the story. the reason why i gave up on college so quickly, besides the fact that i hated it, i had the false ideals that i was able to get a job wherein i was guaranteed 40 hours a week, i would do this along with my other job at costas. As i have already said though, it's hard to make it in this world on a $6.40 an hour paycheck. The place is literally a joke, i've never been apart of, heard of, would ever imagine a place like this. most jobs, ...grrrr...i can't even get into it. I know zach has always told me to use my status, my experience, and such from alco to get a better job, well i'm saying fuck all that, i wanted to get several years of this under my belt before anything like this would happen, now to hell wit it is what i am saying. i really don't know how the manager has statyed in business, or kept his status for so long, everything is amazing me. if the opened up to their eyes to see what the real worl is around them, maybe they could better themselves, but no, fuck it, i'd rather have some desk job where i get no respect at all, even there i'd get more respect than at alco, those ungratful, ingratted, idiotic, wordscan'texpressmyhatredforthem, cretins...can you tell i'm pissed? yeah well, that is all from the depths for now...
Just some points I forgot to mention, and feel the ned to still say...
All in all, ALCO has been the single worst thing that has happened to me, it has been the destruction of my life. If we take a trip back to december 2001, shit was hitting the fan between me and college. as we all know, things didn't go through, this and that, thus i had to depart, but that's only half the story. the reason why i gave up on college so quickly, besides the fact that i hated it, i had the false ideals that i was able to get a job wherein i was guaranteed 40 hours a week, i would do this along with my other job at costas. As i have already said though, it's hard to make it in this world on a $6.40 an hour paycheck. The place is literally a joke, i've never been apart of, heard of, would ever imagine a place like this. most jobs, ...grrrr...i can't even get into it. I know zach has always told me to use my status, my experience, and such from alco to get a better job, well i'm saying fuck all that, i wanted to get several years of this under my belt before anything like this would happen, now to hell wit it is what i am saying. i really don't know how the manager has statyed in business, or kept his status for so long, everything is amazing me. if the opened up to their eyes to see what the real worl is around them, maybe they could better themselves, but no, fuck it, i'd rather have some desk job where i get no respect at all, even there i'd get more respect than at alco, those ungratful, ingratted, idiotic, wordscan'texpressmyhatredforthem, cretins...can you tell i'm pissed? yeah well, that is all from the depths for now...
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Real T
just an update for you guys, i passed my last text and therefore passed my class. now it's onto the state examination for me, and upon passing that i will be known as a realtor. Heck, i even have my very first listing, my own damned house. I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. more updates to come....
just an update for you guys, i passed my last text and therefore passed my class. now it's onto the state examination for me, and upon passing that i will be known as a realtor. Heck, i even have my very first listing, my own damned house. I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. more updates to come....
Monday, May 19, 2003
It's Official...
Yeah, as you know from following that last link, you found out what my other online journal is. Yeah well, as you can see most of my true posting has been on there, no gas crap on that, but it was fun. I'll still use both just for the hell of it. but if you read both, make comments so i know what you think, just take two seconds, that's all...
Yeah, as you know from following that last link, you found out what my other online journal is. Yeah well, as you can see most of my true posting has been on there, no gas crap on that, but it was fun. I'll still use both just for the hell of it. but if you read both, make comments so i know what you think, just take two seconds, that's all...
Saturday, May 17, 2003
Friday, May 16, 2003
Again, where to go...
Well this isn't about me being homeless,it's about, you guessd it, gas prices......anyways..yeah, Ever part of the "evil triangle" as i like to call it has different prices. Merrillville has the highest with $1.49, then it's on to lowell with its $1.47, but te cheapest i've seen it for thus far has been sherrervill with $1.41....this is sad, the highlight of my day is turning out to be finding out what the gas prices are around this area.....and yes it gives me an excuse to say that i blogged recently..he he he...on te note of where to live, well i still have been bumming around my house, my mom hasn't left yet, but she says we have to go in a week...she wants me to list the house for her, since school will be finishing up this coming monday, then on to the state final. i hope i do well, my test scores have been getting progressivley worse....i hope i pass the class let alone the state test. wish me luck...
Well this isn't about me being homeless,it's about, you guessd it, gas prices......anyways..yeah, Ever part of the "evil triangle" as i like to call it has different prices. Merrillville has the highest with $1.49, then it's on to lowell with its $1.47, but te cheapest i've seen it for thus far has been sherrervill with $1.41....this is sad, the highlight of my day is turning out to be finding out what the gas prices are around this area.....and yes it gives me an excuse to say that i blogged recently..he he he...on te note of where to live, well i still have been bumming around my house, my mom hasn't left yet, but she says we have to go in a week...she wants me to list the house for her, since school will be finishing up this coming monday, then on to the state final. i hope i do well, my test scores have been getting progressivley worse....i hope i pass the class let alone the state test. wish me luck...
Thursday, May 15, 2003
Well, Gas has a bunch of prices.....
We had $1.51 in St John area this morning, then in lowell mid-day it went down to $1.49....crazy.....
Oh, and i also realize how annoying this is getting because i am not actually posting anything worthwhile anymore, but gets me out of the non-posting stage as well, double edged sword, take or leave, it still cuts
We had $1.51 in St John area this morning, then in lowell mid-day it went down to $1.49....crazy.....
Oh, and i also realize how annoying this is getting because i am not actually posting anything worthwhile anymore, but gets me out of the non-posting stage as well, double edged sword, take or leave, it still cuts
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
Monday, May 12, 2003
Sunday, May 11, 2003
What's Worse, To Strike Fear In Your Enemy, or Completely Annihilate Your Enemy?
So we had a marvelous old school pity party...haha no pun intended for those who were there who get that joke. It was Joe, Barcus, Mike L, Salai, Twan, and myself. We would have had a few more but last second fallouts..well, fell through. Duncan understandably didn't want to travel to Sherrillville, Dewes had something go down with his girlfriend he needed to tend to, Jimmy was celebrating every holiday possible it seemed, and Vince had already headed back down to Rose. So we gathered, at my place of everywhere, it's nice to know i can still draw in the crowd even though all my shit is packed up. I felt bad about it. but soon we were on our way. The funny thing about going to RtC, is that we are starting to see more and more lowell faces there, well i guess it's not funny, but rather depressing. **sidetrack...You can look at our RtC venturing in two ways. 1: Ii was like the stock market, we got in as it was going up, we rode out it's peak, and cashed in before it started to drop...this would be very true of last years attendance...2:It's like a sports team, let's say the Chicago Bulls back in the 90's. We just moved to chicago in the late 80's, started growing fond of the team, and then before you know it they were winning championship after championship and everybody was a fan...then of course with time the tema disinagrated,fell apart, traded away, but yet here we are still loyal fans, tuning in every now and then to see how our team is doing.....this is true of tis year's attendance,..****So we ended up seeing Mr Gianotti along with Andrea Marvel and some other people, disturbing yes. we ate, enjoyed it, G thought some girl was trying to get in his pants, highly doubtful, then decided to take off to Meijer to buy some supplies for our night's talkings. At thispoint Twan and Joe headed back for lowell. We got some TP from Meijer, on sale of course and headed to lowell as well, but kept questioning who we were going to "hit". in the end we decided to save it for a better planned night, i know we need warming up and all, but we don't want to do a sad job, we need to go all out, so we dropped mike L off at home, then as w were pulling away i thought of a great idea, " Why not attach a note to a full roll of TP stating, 'It's Coming...' to all the people we've hit before or would like to hit" Now this was the most brilliant idea possible, hell yes threats!!!! IF only there were some way for me to link the picture i took of our gget up on here...zach help me out yo...the picture is brilliant as well, it's soo propaganda looking, i couldn't have done better if i tried. Our society today lives off of the scare factor, we live our lives in fear every day of stupid random bullshit, killer bees, and whatnot, yeah michael moore's bowling for Columbine stated all this, so you need to see it so i don't have to say it agian. Fear, yes! People will only destroy themselves living in fear, and all you had to do is plant an idea in their head.....we'll see how this turns out.....
So we had a marvelous old school pity party...haha no pun intended for those who were there who get that joke. It was Joe, Barcus, Mike L, Salai, Twan, and myself. We would have had a few more but last second fallouts..well, fell through. Duncan understandably didn't want to travel to Sherrillville, Dewes had something go down with his girlfriend he needed to tend to, Jimmy was celebrating every holiday possible it seemed, and Vince had already headed back down to Rose. So we gathered, at my place of everywhere, it's nice to know i can still draw in the crowd even though all my shit is packed up. I felt bad about it. but soon we were on our way. The funny thing about going to RtC, is that we are starting to see more and more lowell faces there, well i guess it's not funny, but rather depressing. **sidetrack...You can look at our RtC venturing in two ways. 1: Ii was like the stock market, we got in as it was going up, we rode out it's peak, and cashed in before it started to drop...this would be very true of last years attendance...2:It's like a sports team, let's say the Chicago Bulls back in the 90's. We just moved to chicago in the late 80's, started growing fond of the team, and then before you know it they were winning championship after championship and everybody was a fan...then of course with time the tema disinagrated,fell apart, traded away, but yet here we are still loyal fans, tuning in every now and then to see how our team is doing.....this is true of tis year's attendance,..****So we ended up seeing Mr Gianotti along with Andrea Marvel and some other people, disturbing yes. we ate, enjoyed it, G thought some girl was trying to get in his pants, highly doubtful, then decided to take off to Meijer to buy some supplies for our night's talkings. At thispoint Twan and Joe headed back for lowell. We got some TP from Meijer, on sale of course and headed to lowell as well, but kept questioning who we were going to "hit". in the end we decided to save it for a better planned night, i know we need warming up and all, but we don't want to do a sad job, we need to go all out, so we dropped mike L off at home, then as w were pulling away i thought of a great idea, " Why not attach a note to a full roll of TP stating, 'It's Coming...' to all the people we've hit before or would like to hit" Now this was the most brilliant idea possible, hell yes threats!!!! IF only there were some way for me to link the picture i took of our gget up on here...zach help me out yo...the picture is brilliant as well, it's soo propaganda looking, i couldn't have done better if i tried. Our society today lives off of the scare factor, we live our lives in fear every day of stupid random bullshit, killer bees, and whatnot, yeah michael moore's bowling for Columbine stated all this, so you need to see it so i don't have to say it agian. Fear, yes! People will only destroy themselves living in fear, and all you had to do is plant an idea in their head.....we'll see how this turns out.....
Saturday, May 10, 2003
Is Blood Thicker Than Water???
So with this upcoming Mother's Day, well tomorrow, it has sparked some good questions, or just thoughts of family hatred in my head. I continue. One good question is, since my mother is abandoning me, do i still get her a mother's day card or present? I think i will just get a card, probablly a lame general one, but she's deservant enough of that. And family structures are a great thing to see and analyze. There's families that a very close together, and they are always there for oneanother. They eat dinner together, support each other during rough times, at sporting events, do familiy picniks and so forth. Then of course you have just the opposite, the family hates each other, doesn't do anything together, and are happy when the kids move out. And then from those two points you have the natural blend towards the middle. Of course i could have said that the evil negative family side is one that either aborts the child, gives then up for adoption, an abussive family, or whatever else, but for this blog i will use the family that i did. I will say my faimly started out as the first family, they were doing everything possible for me, putting me into baseball, judo, awarding my achievements in schoolwork. As i grew older i was able to get myself out of baseball and judo, they weren't reqarding enough for me, but i was tricked as to keep doing well in school, so i did. Well basically i really didn't have to do well in school, once you are given the disguise of a great student, you don't have to do much to get good grades. Teachers pre-determine what kids will do well, and others stuggle, once you have that name set for yourself, you're set...but this is in another blog/essay which will came later. Anyways off of that rant, where was i.....oh so yeah, as i grew older it was now expected of me to do everything i did before, without any just rewards, just do it, if there were to be any imperfections in this, i was in trouble, not good enough. I beleive the most disturbing fact that i remember was when i was a sophmore, decided to double up on my math bacause i wanted to take calculus when i was a senior, so for the third or so six weeks grade i got an A-, a 91% or something. Maybe it was a semester grade, but i really think it was just a six weeks grade, but regardless, when my parents saw this they raised questions, "why are you only getting a 91%, what's with the A-", and mind you, none of this was said sarcastically. I remember crying shortly after this confrontation, it was just an A- i thought, it was beyond passing, and was still an A, a 4.0, this wasn't college, and it was just a six weeks grade. I think it was that point in my life i realized i would never be good enough for anybody. Throughout my life i've always been doing for others, i've been tricked into thinking that by doing well in school i was doing well for myself, this wasn't so, it just gave my parents someting to brag about, to make them look better, "look at what we produced" **damn, back on that school subject....Anyways, I had to get a job, my parents were going to stop giving me an allowance for oing my chores, but ontop of the job i still had the chores to do. When people see my room and my stuff they think it's been given to me, and i quickly correct them. I've purchased everything, cell phone and monthly payment, car insurance,any repairs for the pink car at the time, i even bought that, my TV, sounds system, these were my rewards, nothing was giving to me by my parents besides shit. I remember when the whole pity party fiasco went about the beginning of the senior year, how quickly they turned themselves agianst me over something so stupid. Yet later when it came time to fight mrs.cusic, they were no longer on mr.brown's side, but were "wanting" to help me. I made it to college, but couldn't escape the fact i don't have money and was sent back to rot here. I tried to help my mother in the beginning, but i knew what would happne all too soon. And now the time has finally fallen, these are my darkest hours. My mother is leaving to Missourri, I don't have enough income to get a place to live. I try to work my 2 jobs, gong to school for the past 6 weeks or so, but George still gicves me shit on everything, and doesn't make the schedule an easy one for me, but allows for others not to show, like i am an integral part of the stores functions, it i were, he would listen to me more often, but then i say this is another blog rant in which i know i will go off very badly. So til then Fuck off, i don't say that too often, but don't press me, you know who i'm talking about. Anyways, this blog has totally lost sight of where it was going, kinda like myself, so now i will leave you in the dark and bring this to a close. One last cry for help before they close the lid, the dirst's piling up, goodnight.
So with this upcoming Mother's Day, well tomorrow, it has sparked some good questions, or just thoughts of family hatred in my head. I continue. One good question is, since my mother is abandoning me, do i still get her a mother's day card or present? I think i will just get a card, probablly a lame general one, but she's deservant enough of that. And family structures are a great thing to see and analyze. There's families that a very close together, and they are always there for oneanother. They eat dinner together, support each other during rough times, at sporting events, do familiy picniks and so forth. Then of course you have just the opposite, the family hates each other, doesn't do anything together, and are happy when the kids move out. And then from those two points you have the natural blend towards the middle. Of course i could have said that the evil negative family side is one that either aborts the child, gives then up for adoption, an abussive family, or whatever else, but for this blog i will use the family that i did. I will say my faimly started out as the first family, they were doing everything possible for me, putting me into baseball, judo, awarding my achievements in schoolwork. As i grew older i was able to get myself out of baseball and judo, they weren't reqarding enough for me, but i was tricked as to keep doing well in school, so i did. Well basically i really didn't have to do well in school, once you are given the disguise of a great student, you don't have to do much to get good grades. Teachers pre-determine what kids will do well, and others stuggle, once you have that name set for yourself, you're set...but this is in another blog/essay which will came later. Anyways off of that rant, where was i.....oh so yeah, as i grew older it was now expected of me to do everything i did before, without any just rewards, just do it, if there were to be any imperfections in this, i was in trouble, not good enough. I beleive the most disturbing fact that i remember was when i was a sophmore, decided to double up on my math bacause i wanted to take calculus when i was a senior, so for the third or so six weeks grade i got an A-, a 91% or something. Maybe it was a semester grade, but i really think it was just a six weeks grade, but regardless, when my parents saw this they raised questions, "why are you only getting a 91%, what's with the A-", and mind you, none of this was said sarcastically. I remember crying shortly after this confrontation, it was just an A- i thought, it was beyond passing, and was still an A, a 4.0, this wasn't college, and it was just a six weeks grade. I think it was that point in my life i realized i would never be good enough for anybody. Throughout my life i've always been doing for others, i've been tricked into thinking that by doing well in school i was doing well for myself, this wasn't so, it just gave my parents someting to brag about, to make them look better, "look at what we produced" **damn, back on that school subject....Anyways, I had to get a job, my parents were going to stop giving me an allowance for oing my chores, but ontop of the job i still had the chores to do. When people see my room and my stuff they think it's been given to me, and i quickly correct them. I've purchased everything, cell phone and monthly payment, car insurance,any repairs for the pink car at the time, i even bought that, my TV, sounds system, these were my rewards, nothing was giving to me by my parents besides shit. I remember when the whole pity party fiasco went about the beginning of the senior year, how quickly they turned themselves agianst me over something so stupid. Yet later when it came time to fight mrs.cusic, they were no longer on mr.brown's side, but were "wanting" to help me. I made it to college, but couldn't escape the fact i don't have money and was sent back to rot here. I tried to help my mother in the beginning, but i knew what would happne all too soon. And now the time has finally fallen, these are my darkest hours. My mother is leaving to Missourri, I don't have enough income to get a place to live. I try to work my 2 jobs, gong to school for the past 6 weeks or so, but George still gicves me shit on everything, and doesn't make the schedule an easy one for me, but allows for others not to show, like i am an integral part of the stores functions, it i were, he would listen to me more often, but then i say this is another blog rant in which i know i will go off very badly. So til then Fuck off, i don't say that too often, but don't press me, you know who i'm talking about. Anyways, this blog has totally lost sight of where it was going, kinda like myself, so now i will leave you in the dark and bring this to a close. One last cry for help before they close the lid, the dirst's piling up, goodnight.
Friday, May 09, 2003
It's a Gas Gas Gas.....
So what's the deal with the gas prices as of late? Everyday there has been a different price on the marqee, and I'm not exaggerating either. A few days ago it was holding steady at $1.39 to $1.41 here in lowell, then it dropped to $1.38, followed by the next day, a drastic drop to $1.31, which then lead into the skyrocketting price of $1.57, whic then dropped down to $1.51, and now at it's current price of $1.43. Six days, six different prices. When the initial drop to 1.31 came about, following lowell's drop to 1.38, i was going to blog about if that rate keeps up we'll be at zero within months....hahaha..but then it went up hours later, way up, and it keeps flucuating..i'll keep everybody up to date with the prices daily...oh yeah, by the way, oil and gas companies have been reported from last year's business as having the highest profit gain it has ever had....greedy bastards....
So what's the deal with the gas prices as of late? Everyday there has been a different price on the marqee, and I'm not exaggerating either. A few days ago it was holding steady at $1.39 to $1.41 here in lowell, then it dropped to $1.38, followed by the next day, a drastic drop to $1.31, which then lead into the skyrocketting price of $1.57, whic then dropped down to $1.51, and now at it's current price of $1.43. Six days, six different prices. When the initial drop to 1.31 came about, following lowell's drop to 1.38, i was going to blog about if that rate keeps up we'll be at zero within months....hahaha..but then it went up hours later, way up, and it keeps flucuating..i'll keep everybody up to date with the prices daily...oh yeah, by the way, oil and gas companies have been reported from last year's business as having the highest profit gain it has ever had....greedy bastards....
Rain Song....
So it was pouring last night, i loved it,though i was at work, but it reminded me of last week when it stormed just like this....you see the reason why i remember it so well was because i woke up to the sound of a great storm. You see, all my years living in the basement i lost in touch with nature in that aspect. Not one night living here in the basement did i wake up and hear rain, or thunder, or see the lighting. It was probably the sadest thing after i moved here. But for some reason, in the middle of the night, all the sounds woke m, here in the basement. When I woke up, i was all dazed lik i normally am, i had to think twice as to where i was at. After getting some senses together, i was overwhelmed with happiness, i took a moment to take it all in, then i curled up in a ball, and fell back asleep. It was one of the greatest things to have back. ok, I was at michigan for a couple months, but, i say this sparingly, remember it raining when i was there. Of courese it rained on every trip up and down there, but any weather i got when i was there, was nothing great, yeah it rained, but maybe i had a certian expose that didn't allow for me to get that great feeling. i know my windows did leak when it rained. But i vaguely remember anything of the sorts when i was sleeping...
On the note of it raining last night, apparently the power blikbed in lowell, or went out for a bit, whatever, when i got home, microwave and clocks were flashing. I instantly got happy and rushed down to my computer...you see i recently purchased a backup power supply,and this would be the first time i would be able to use it... well to let you know it works, my computer was up and running and everything was great, i wished i had been able to be on it when it happened, having nothing but the warm glow of the monitor to light your unpowered room, ahhhhhh....
So it was pouring last night, i loved it,though i was at work, but it reminded me of last week when it stormed just like this....you see the reason why i remember it so well was because i woke up to the sound of a great storm. You see, all my years living in the basement i lost in touch with nature in that aspect. Not one night living here in the basement did i wake up and hear rain, or thunder, or see the lighting. It was probably the sadest thing after i moved here. But for some reason, in the middle of the night, all the sounds woke m, here in the basement. When I woke up, i was all dazed lik i normally am, i had to think twice as to where i was at. After getting some senses together, i was overwhelmed with happiness, i took a moment to take it all in, then i curled up in a ball, and fell back asleep. It was one of the greatest things to have back. ok, I was at michigan for a couple months, but, i say this sparingly, remember it raining when i was there. Of courese it rained on every trip up and down there, but any weather i got when i was there, was nothing great, yeah it rained, but maybe i had a certian expose that didn't allow for me to get that great feeling. i know my windows did leak when it rained. But i vaguely remember anything of the sorts when i was sleeping...
On the note of it raining last night, apparently the power blikbed in lowell, or went out for a bit, whatever, when i got home, microwave and clocks were flashing. I instantly got happy and rushed down to my computer...you see i recently purchased a backup power supply,and this would be the first time i would be able to use it... well to let you know it works, my computer was up and running and everything was great, i wished i had been able to be on it when it happened, having nothing but the warm glow of the monitor to light your unpowered room, ahhhhhh....
Monday, May 05, 2003
Pass the Cheese Please
Well I had some things I wanted to blog about, and write in my other journal...but damned if i don't remember them, and some were contingent upon other ones to make. Well let me just give you some random things to read as if not to waste this spce, but yet your time. Hmmm, well i got home Friday and my mom's, well Jenny, was in the driveway, yet she wasn't to be found, plus one dog was missing. So she has yet to return, not that i care, but poor shashanee is acting like she was bad or something, won't eat or drink, and has actually came downstairs to see me a couple times. Funny, this will be one of the last times i get to say that, ha. I remember the last timei had to say goodbye to this place...Michigan..enough said. Saying goodbye to my dogs last time made me realize what was happening., it was sad, everything hit me, i had to move on, and then i cried. Just like the time mother called me at school and put the phone up to the dogs ear, and they got all happy and freaked out when i spoke to them, yeah that's sad. I highly doubt my mother will call my cell after she moves out. I probably won't see my mother or grandparents for a long time, maybe they'll be invited/come to my wedding, all i can say is they best bring gifts. Anyways, so my mother isn't around and i wanted to take her to see "The Wizard of Oz", you see my mom is really into this Wizard of Oz crap, don't ask me why, she even goes to the Wizard of Oz fest in Chesterton, they literally close off town for 3 days for this thing. But yeah she's not here, she she can't go, her loss. So i got to study for my second of three tests for my class. I'm sure I'll do fine, why not, it's just a test....
Well I had some things I wanted to blog about, and write in my other journal...but damned if i don't remember them, and some were contingent upon other ones to make. Well let me just give you some random things to read as if not to waste this spce, but yet your time. Hmmm, well i got home Friday and my mom's, well Jenny, was in the driveway, yet she wasn't to be found, plus one dog was missing. So she has yet to return, not that i care, but poor shashanee is acting like she was bad or something, won't eat or drink, and has actually came downstairs to see me a couple times. Funny, this will be one of the last times i get to say that, ha. I remember the last timei had to say goodbye to this place...Michigan..enough said. Saying goodbye to my dogs last time made me realize what was happening., it was sad, everything hit me, i had to move on, and then i cried. Just like the time mother called me at school and put the phone up to the dogs ear, and they got all happy and freaked out when i spoke to them, yeah that's sad. I highly doubt my mother will call my cell after she moves out. I probably won't see my mother or grandparents for a long time, maybe they'll be invited/come to my wedding, all i can say is they best bring gifts. Anyways, so my mother isn't around and i wanted to take her to see "The Wizard of Oz", you see my mom is really into this Wizard of Oz crap, don't ask me why, she even goes to the Wizard of Oz fest in Chesterton, they literally close off town for 3 days for this thing. But yeah she's not here, she she can't go, her loss. So i got to study for my second of three tests for my class. I'm sure I'll do fine, why not, it's just a test....
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