Wednesday, June 30, 2004

If You Go In with the Attitude
of You Vs the World..

You'll in doubt get that of which you didn't have...

So yeah..still going strong..time around me is set funny..there are several clocks, the ones I look at are not he right time....yeah, mess with my head some more......I can't make it to the store in 11 minutes..by my watch..by the computer time I missed my window of opportunity to finish the deal....and my stomach is still saying it's time to eat..

anyways, I think I am going to give Jim a call, I need something right now and I don't feel like going to Merrillville....not even my area...people should stay where they are...what, no...

yeah, so, had you heard me last night, you would have no idea what I was saying....after it all settled I think the doors swung in..making me content? let them have it their way...I'll be a baby in a minute....the part of me that wants to be an ass, can do so, an easily....I was cracking jokes all night...then it turns into this stand off, and I get defensive, very baby like..then there's the, "let's do this" and get it done with...you got to catch me in the right mood, otherwise it will all be off...so I think that was the mood I fell asleep to, and it's what I got right now...actually, it's nothing, hunger is all over that one...and once food/sugar gets into me, well then that may change the subject..but then again, this is all text...we know how it will go down in reality....

but for those of you who want it the other way....there's always that slight glimmer of a chance...if you want that, crack me in the back of the head now...something's going down

make me what you will..and to fuck with you all.....*enters angry rant*..just need visuals here..that's all.....and this needle to jab into me some more...yeah, there we go....

to all you from afar, caught behind, in my past....ta fuck with you......you were really never good for anything anyways...

and to you that are anew...my armor's been stripped, I'm in the corner, and I'm waiting....
..A Perfect Day
What a Happy Night

So, lets start out with this....the room is spinning, couldn't even tell you why....my stomach is growling...I think I may want some food..in a bit...but lack of nourishment would "help" explain the shaky hands, I look like Vince..this week hasn't really been a good one, I'm sure my body is hating whatever it is that is going on....on the bright side the weather is really frickin' nice out....I have a headache, but it's one of those headaches..like lack of caffeine or something headaches....whatever it is, I don't know....

I have to write about the Lego piece, don't let me forget...everytime I go to do something, it's right after 3, and then I crash harder than a penguin....

anyways, went to see "spiderman 2" last night...yeah, for some reason the theaters thought it'd be such a hit to make the release on a Tuesday/Wednesday at midnight..*rolls eyes*...I didn't care, (a running theme for me one may say) I mean it's something to do after 12 so yeah, I'll go to the movies despite what it is....despite whatever may come...what a story...

I could go into details, but again, I say I don't give a fuck..and again my cursing has caught someone off guard....I wasn't about to have them not buy the ticket and go without someone just because I was there..and yeah...she was invited, she made it into her schedule to go see the movie...I'm not going to make anyone do anything for me..hell if anything, I could walk away, I'm "that" lego piece here..whatever...

frankly my dear, I don't give a damn.....yeah, cliche, but it's true, I don't care what you people do, say, or are going to say/do..I am on myself here.

if that last sentence sounded wrong, it probably is, to you. Anyways I could do without, do without a lot of things...and as much as I would like to hold something over others, I just want their bridge to be built...that's what I do, self sacrificing son of a bitch....making the paths of others grander, while my nation resembles that of a third world country, kudos...

so the movie...wasn't anything spectacular...in fact, it wasn't very good at all..."as the Spaniards would say, you're el terrible" what with the horrible lines, bad cinematography, and the scott salai evil villain...oh and the crap ass ending, it ranks right up there with "the day after tomorrow"..insert your own funny little joke combining the two here"...I mean granted, the movie did have it's deeper meaning, better than the first one, I mean aspect was good...but damn...tobey tobey tobey....I don't know what to say....

So in my version, there's a lot more sarcasm..I think..ok, maybe not, I think she nailed it, or my mind has completely altered any and all meaning of the words that the same lyrics run through my mind...with my intentions...go figure..connect that.

to be honest....things couldn't be getting better for Jason, I mean damn...the theme song for this year, well as of recent has to be, without a doubt, "It's a Beautiful Life"..you know the one I'm talking about...off of the Night at the Roxbury CD...yeah-a..

sitting here I want to take a B/W photo..it seems fitting..

so before I make this too long...and do something entirely stupid that I'll regret because I didn't get to say what I wanted to, I am going, some jackpad is eying my shopping cart...


"I have to go now" *click*

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

If I Could Say It All...


..The only words to come out would be















Goodbye Jason

Monday, June 28, 2004

Yeah-A




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now I suppose this is partly true..but the dreams I have where sex is involved, usually doesn't evolve me...is my life that devoid of sex.....fuck no!

Friday, June 25, 2004

Misconceptions, Lies, and My Life....


..all because I work with double agents and spies....that really should have been a tangent italicized under the title, but I'm going a little different with it right now....

This week from hell should be over soon enough, we should all hope so at least, before I do something totally out of line... that I already haven't done...anyways...

But lets focus on the positive things here....yeah, so all my troubles slip away when I'm with my friends, I enter a new world...I'm used to things like this, certain people having this effect on me, though some have more of that impact on me and I wished they were around me more often, but yeah...things were good yesterday, hung out with a large group of friends...got kicked out of the chinese restaurant...played dance dance revolution and again got kicked out of there.. oh shit that reminds me..brb..

Ahhh there we go..a little bit of irrationality on my part, and a little nudge on yours...it's a done deal in my world....

just like the time (and anytime) when I was driving and jim wanted to go to meijer to get gummy worms...and he started to say "hey let's go to meijer" as we passed it, but he knew my spontaneous no holding back ass would have swerved left out of the straight lane to do it...ahhh good times....

anyways, I'm just waiting this one out, I suppose there's nothing left for me to do really....

ok, and I just finished that up as well....I'm doing good....but there's one more thing I'm supposed to do, but I don't see the need for it now...whatever, I'll let it pass now and I'll hate myself for it later, you watch...it'll be hysterical....

anyways, as for you two timing, good for nothing, spilling the beans, cat out of the bag people...two timing...ta hell wit you....at least you agreed with me not being the aggressor/problem/cause of the completely random,fallacious unbecoming...haha, that means you still suck and I rock..at times....now let me die



this has been an "AP" presentation

~AP~

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

This is just sad...
..and I am just jason

well well, what do we have here, looks like a post to me....but there's something about this post that is a little off.....oh yeah, it's me that's off, that's right....

I always said I am my own un-doing, and has been spoken to me several times in return as well (don't you love people you love), but I really did it last night..which set up the tables for this morning...

I had a dream after it all went down....I was standing on the railroad tracks..it was in the evening, maybe right after dusk, or right before dawn...anyways, I stood there, heard the train coming and accepted my fate..I didn't wind up there accidentaly either, I intentionally stood there...and as the train got close I felt right, all was calm and well....and right before the train hit me (note that I was not looking at the train during any of this, just around, but anywhere not where it was coming from) the scene changed to the interior of my car where on the seat sat a stack of envelopes with peoples names on them....as "I" sorted through them I was able to read the letters I wrote to this people....I was only getting the main parts, but I think I got through 6 of them or so...I'm not listing names because...well I'll tell you if you ask, there are somethings money can't buy, for everything else there's debit mastercard....

I awoke as I was reading the letters, to the alarm of my phone going off..and I was emotionally drained...I hate to get all sad and emo on you, but I didn't want to get up, and was sad and upset that I actually was awake....

things only slid down after that.....I left, there was an argument...I cursed...I was upset..I was irrational.....tires squeeled, F bombs were dropped, horror and pain on the faces I left behind....I was cornered after I awoke..a testy thing to do..approach me when I wake up...an even off-balanced thing to do, get to me...

my day wasn't good, hasn't really gotten any better, though maybe slightly..still hungry...everyone at work knew something was wrong..said I looked the most pissed they have ever seen me...I was about ready to breakdown at any second....

where will I be tonight...tonight the time when I will need the most help and nurturing...beats me...this post will be read too late for anyone to do anything about...at least for this topic...

hitting rock bottom means you've got something to stand on, something under your feet (under your thumb?) but how's it when it keeps giving way, and all you feel under your feet is the air from below passing you up....

once again the summer will eat me away...I think time has sped up a bit and this is my November..hate to make such brass claims as that so early on, but I'm hungry and I may just lash out at you too....

this has been a post by jason angus

oh yeah, thanks to all for the mention of myself in all your journals, full name and all, made me feel a bit better about the world and the impact I am having on it...

Friday, June 18, 2004

Titles are like asses...
everybody's got 'em, and they all stink, smell the roses bitch!


Ohhh, I did some things I really shouldn't have...whoops..well, no one was harmed in the process, well maybe just me, and my inner-self, feelings, and the like...well I knew it was going to happen, especially after the days I have been having and whats been going on, so I blame you (no band plug there) but yeah, you are being blamed....all of you

anyways, I saw "Saved" the other day, hilarious..you should go see it...another movie came out today I want to see, only because they stole Zach's title...."Coffee and Cigarettes"....I don't know what it is about, but I need to see it on principle...should technically see it with Zach, but where is he....what has he been up to...nobody knows...no more blog to update the world with, no more weekend phone-calls shooting the shit updating each other...is the brother alive? well he turns 21 soon enough..and if I know zach, and zach's family, there'll be one hell of a party...if that is he is still alive...

so what's going on.....hmmm, future plans run-down,..?:
going to get my car fixed...
taking a road trip to Michigan (more than likely alone)
going to a lot of shows
visit jimmy at the carnival, goshen
throwing/crashing parties
going to cedar point
being creative
going on a multitude of dates with my many harlots...I mean ladies
having a mental breakdown towards the end...
pissing a select few people off
wrapping it up with a trip to the fairs (Illinois state and lake county...)
and then its so long marianne, closing time, na na na na..goodbye

what a plan, and I know I forgot somethings in there but I didn't do it intentionally..well I am off now, rondevousing this weekend with some more randomness...already did canada...next we'll hit some ho-dun state like Wyoming...hit the coasts, Cali to Seattle, then swing round and round to Maine...I want real Lobster.....surf...turf...

this has been an eye witness report by AP

so FU

LOL



TTYL


AIWILIY
Shameful Props...
to me...

Yeah buddy I am loved, wow...I would have never guessed it, but yeah, somebody out there does appreciate me for who am I, granted it is a guy, I am looked at, not understood, but looked at....wow....my week has just gotten better..

So yeah, what I am talking about is an entry made on Pete's journal...and for those of you who don't want to click the link, here's a little blurb...god I rock...

"...then I went out with jason, god that kid is fun, I go for like 3 days without seeing him and then hang out with him again and I'm like man this is great, I wish I would of done this yesterday too, really complex he is, and I like that the most about him, his journal is cool too..."

oh god, I am feasting in my own self gratitude and overindulgence...I can probably live off this for awhile, ha!

so yeah, I love you all..now, and *insert shameless plugs here* read, comment, go to http://coinslotband.com, better yet, just go to one of their many concerts (they've all got kids to feed)....

Monday, June 14, 2004

Don't Read Too Deep...
You need some room for my tongue...


So this is a post, be happy...well, I should be the one that is directed at...it's Monday/Tuesday and I have my Blog for the week already in..fuck yes....

on a different note, I want to go see Saved this week some time...with a quote like, "I'm filled with the love of christ" who wouldn't want to see it, oh satirical humor always gets me....I guess it's better when it hits close to home, what...or rather, you can see yourself as one of the characters...or someone else...anyways, who should go with me...good question, so many people on the docket, yet, not......

well people, be expecting a call from me Tuesday/Wednesday to go see this movie....depending on your work schedule I may have to reschedule....

Vince's Birthday was Sunday, how exciting...Happy Birthday Vince-y..poo...yeah

so what else is going on....not much really.. I mean there is..and I always have a story or twelve to tell, but yeah, nothing worth your while I haven't already told others....

shit giggles

ummm, estate auctions are cool...so are mandolins....and cheese..I almost spelled that with a z..damn work...

so yeah...I've got nothing, and there's nothing for me....going to my bowl-o-blue box now.....this is silent jay saying, good day

*at least I'm not saying toodles, the silence is more deafening...*

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Suck My Dick Bitch..
And I'll take you back...

Anyways, that was completely random, but not entirely, I overheard someone say it and thought it was either glorious or completely stupid, probably just as bad as being a "Fantastic" person...whatever...

Good goff, it's already June....June..mother fucking June....yes, June has caused me to swear, to hell with it all..

it's been awhile since I posted, I know...but, to tell you, I came here just to make a post, to not let myself down anymore than I am already at...

but actually I have been writting my occurrences and typical whatnot in my travel journal..as some might call..yeah..it keeps me up and up with writing/blogging/rambling/and what have you....and of course it's the one book where all is let out, no holding back..becuase only I read it, and I'm not holding anything from myself, why would I do that...

good god is it warm here, ohhh, I think I can deal with being cold a lot better than being warm..you can always try and make yourself warm....but cooling down..well that's another story....

tomorrow I am going to Terre Haute with Vince..I forget the real reasons why, but who needs reasons to do anything anymore, honestly..(oh man, I'd hate to be in one of those moods again..) so yeah, off all day tomorrow, and that's what I'll do...then...who knows....got class on friday, sat off again, but there's an auction I am going to...then...maybe I'll pick up a shift for the night...unless something is going on....ohhh and then friday night I have a planned evening out kinda..and sunday is a double, of course..and who knows....got to stay out of this town though....it's nothing but trouble, in all reality it is....look around you fools....man oh man...I had my high, now all I see is a low..

so there's not much time..and I can't even comprehend what is happening...just living it day by day, and actually getting really frickin' behind in the process..

alright, so that's my que to leave....I heard the china bell gong off so I'm outtie...like a volvo....what?

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

HEY! I'm Talking Here...

Yeah, that's right, i felt the urge to continue with this little bit of insider trading information....

all is not as well as it seems...actually, it's not coming off as "seeming" alright anyhow, so what the hell...

It's june, summer time...school is over...i've got but a couple months....not even...we'll go with days....they are in the double digits, no triple sec for me here...

yeah, that idea slightly hit me for a brief moment of history...thinking about it and how little time there was left..i will not be able to accomplish what i intended..or anything that will come to me soon....why put ny more effort into it all right now..let's cut the losses and plan for what's ahead..but i won't

stupid bitch.

i like how many paragraphs i am getting out of this...always meant something...

sluts and hoes...

sooo for those of you who i am like a book, read away...though all the stories are the same and probably cliche....i just would like to know how the ending is....

for various reasons...

the bed will not see me tonight


still loving the dot dot dot...

and who isn't

i'm loving it

roller coasters aren't fun...and this ride is too bumpy

the fictional character says, "hello"

so what will help this...this so called "slump" to those of you who like to label things...

a swift kick to the groin..or a well placed hand job

what?!@!

HA, and the bitches are getting fatter!!

do i sound bitter to you, because i taste coke bottles

shit, i'm done




*****this was a draft, never published as an actual post...no reasoning was given....
Post 555???

How bout that...anyways, the real topic....

There's brilliance in my deception...no, really there is......honestly

if it's one thing I will be remembered for, or maybe not and would like to be, is my extraordinary ability to talk myself out of any situation possible...any stupid little predicament...something I don't want to talk about, something I don't want to answer, I can generally get myself out of....oh god, and you thought the ramblings were worthless..

haha, I think we all remember the AOL CD incident at Circuit City....enough said....

And the other bit of deception would be this here blog..yeah, a wasteland depository for my thoughts....though only partial.....I post in such a way that unless you know the one clue that I leave out, you won't understand a thing I am saying...."you type with such vaguity..yet filled with so much detail"..quote from zach...

it's like I'm too afraid to come right out and say it..so I'll hide it by leaving out the most important detail and go right into everything else....but yet at the same time I want to be caught...I mean every criminal wants to be caught....they leave a calling card, something behind, a flaw to their seemingly flawless plan...Subconsciously we all want to be caught....I want to be caught just a well

this here thing is filled with so much crap that if anyone ever found out what I was actually talking about, they'd stop dead in their life tracks...but I continue....

so come people..catch up with me...this game isn't any fun when I'm kicking all your asses so terribly...come on, read into it..put two and two together...I'm dying here...I'll give you a dollar...a few of you were so close, keep trying...and remember I like to distract my way out of things, so don't think you are cold when really you are hot...




and oh my god, I think I was just duped into the greatest deception ever...well I'll be...HA

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Merrrrrrrrrr....

You know, sadly enough that has never been a title for a blog posting..and believe me I looked. Astonishing isn't it...but if we all remember correctly, and in fact I had to be told this...the very title of this blog, the entire thing that is, was Merrrrrrr with some crappy subtitle as always, but still....the whole thing was called Merrr at one time in history. So that means I never titled a blog post Merrr because of the pure unadulterated redundancy..makes sense...because I was almost positive I made a post called Merr, but then I also remember renaming it for that simple fact it was the damn title.....

wow, a lot of garble there....but this comes to light only for the reason I heard somebody else say it...yeah, somebody else said Merrrr, in question form. Yeah, I about creamed myself when I heard it...it's not every day you meet someone who uses such made-up crazed words as yourself and (insert other things here...) or has their initials make up the word M.E.R., ouch, sorry abut that, low blow.....I'm even hurting from that one....

but yeah...I can't remember the origin for Merrr...but slightly I do..there are parts of it I remember..maybe stemming from the Latin root Merp, or is it Greek..something like that...

anyways, that's all I gots for now..just something I wanted to share with you all..kinda like show and tell, rather it was stumble upon something weird and tell it to the select few who still read...goodnight

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Lasagna Day 05/22/04
Well actually 05/23/04..shut up...

Well Saturday was a fun filled day...a long awaited day, that only made everyone wait more...

I worked at the Robin in the morning, knowing I should have gotten it off or switched or something..but left it alone..got off and starting making my way to Jim's...but he wasn't home, so what to do...killed an hour and a half driving the 1/2 hour is trying to get from Scherreville to Highland, no joke...and as soon as I got there I go right to it..getting out all the ingredients and going to town...

Jim left again to pick up his girl Amy..everyone else was at Pete's, so I was alone...then Tom showed up and I directed him to Pete's as well....I got off to a late start not only because of the delay, but because I forgot to prep the damn garlic...yeah, that took a lengthy time..but once that was out of the way it was clear sailing...well as clear as a 4 hour sauce can take...

everyone eventually made their way back to Jim's and we waited..and waited....Pete had to work at Target..and well, left before eating..yeah....

I felt terrible, cooking this dinner for the folk and having them eat so frickin' late....I slaved in the kitchen for 6 hours..I even enslaved Amy and Jessica who were nice enough to pretend to want to help out...they helped cut up the rest of the garlic and some of the vegies...there were a couple times I could have used a few more burners on the stove, but whatever..I made with what I had, and in pretty good fashion too...

I cooked on Saturday and we ate on Sunday..it was close to 1230 when dinner was finally served..everyone enjoyed it, or so they told me..maybe it was just the prolonging of the hunger that did it, or maybe all the love I put into it, but yeah I thought it was alright..

and thankfully Jessica took it upon herself to make dessert, a yummy chocolate cake...Relieving that stress from myself, but I did have a cake planned to boot..but I didn't have to make it, whew, relief....

so we had 2 and a half lasagnas to go around...I was really stressing at the end, running down to almost nothing for ingredients and toppers...time definitely not on my side, and a crowd of people dying of starvation with one already gone..yeah I was feeling it the next morning...at least one showed sympathy towards me, made me feel a bit better, but still I fucked up

and the funny thing is, I actually got calls from old friends on Saturday, asking if I wanted to do something, how funny is that...but it gets better..when I told them I couldn't because I was cooking lasagna their response was, "so...who are you in love with?" oh man, it kills me...

anyways that was my tumultuous weekend...how was yours???
Have I Given Up...

on people, but hitting the head here I'd have to say my friends..well what used to be my friends...

why are certain things bothering me unlike ever before, what's the deal. I mean I am trying to do my best here, let this phase pass so we can get back to track like normal...

driving you to a point where breaking seems all but too certain, their annoying little tendencies spinning you in circles..and then they do something to show that they are:caring..that they are:compassionate..they are:friends...what gives..

so based on past experiences, I'll bite my lip, not let myself get pinned, stay out of the corners, even when those fuckers are pushing you in there...and keep my distance I guess, whatever works....just let the cycle take its course...
It's Been A Couple...
Or I've Had a Couple...

Alright, here's a little bit of useless information that pertains to nothing in particular, has no relevance onto anything, no point, significance, the points can't even stand alone, makes utterly no sense and is just a bunch of garbage to begin with, but in light of saying it 12 times in most recent history, here it is again...

The Point System:

So everybody has in their head the ideal mate, some people can narrow it down to shoe size, which is just crazy...but for me, well, I really don't have an envisioned woman, I mean really, what's the point....you're just wasting everyone's time with that sort of nonsense..making everyone live up your expectations and standards when they are built upon an ideal system, and we aren't living in a communistic state so why bother???

So as for me, I play it by ear really..I'm always open to new ideas, will hear anybody out, and tries to (I say try only because I know I can't always be perfect) but isn't judgmental based on first appearances...

But then there's the point system...so when I meet someone I can like them or dislike them...however it turns out, they can earn "points" in my book by having/doing/being/whatever some of the following things....

Bonus Points:
- you are wearing a skirt or like to wear skirts,any length of course that's fine by me...you like to get dressed up in a skirt every now and then, ok... *side tangent, if I asked you to wear a skirt for a special occasion don't get pissed for whatever reason you have against me that day
- if you can speak French, it's so dirty I like it...kinda ties in with the next thing, yet not..
-or just have have an accent in general, like Egle with her Lithuanian accent
-or are mexican, latino, spanish, whatever..can't explain tat one to well...maybe it was Vanilla Sky that sealed the deal with that one....or maybe yet it was the Wagners..yeah I could so go for that
- Musically inclined...can play an instrument or sing, something like that..don't have to be a master, just show some liking and interest..
- Crazy...but in that good way, not the psychobitch going awol on your ass..crazy in the good way, you know...

I don't know how much the next are "bonus points" but are something...
- must appreciate good (my) music..Led Zeppelin, Bob Dylan, the Stones, etc..maybe I'm getting too ideal for you
- Not stupid..must show some intelligence...must like going to the art museum, aquarium, plays, etc..
- oh, and as for kissing goes...has to do one thing, one word..not gong to it into it, but yeah, that has to be there...

Now of course there are "bonus points" and "Extra Credit points" the difference is subtle, but there....let me explain...meet a girl, she has a given characteristic I like, such as wearing a skirt..she gets a bonus point for that..it's a random thing..nobody gets docked points for not having those characteristics..it's just a slight preference sort of thing..but then the extra credit points are something that is beyond the norm, nothing I would ever ask for, but found someone who had it/was it/whatever, they get extra credit points...nobody asked them for it, but they went out on there own, put forth the extra effort and BAM...understand???

Extra Credit:
Basically pretty simple stuff..if you are an actress, or are extremely rich, famous, model, musician in the sense you are really good at whatever you play or are in a band, an author, famous artist/photographer..you know, something along the lines of that..

Now most of the time the girls I like are the brown/dark haired girls..breasts just a handful (all I need), maybe wears glasses...smarter than I, pretty girls to me.....and then there is the one girl every cycle to come in who breaks all those norms..the blonde haired, blue eyed, large breasted, ditzy girl...like Egle...but that always amounts to nothing (which is for the better) and I'm back to the good ol norm..

I think that's everything...but I feel I forgot something..who knows, well, whatever the case may be, those are just some things I'd like, not necessities, but whatever, it's late and I need to lay down now....

Monday, May 24, 2004

That Was A Close One...

Yeah, my mother is back in town and I almost made a trip over to my grandparents, accidentally..I forgot she was coming up this week for something, but luckily I remembered before I even got started over there

I remember having the conversation with my grandma on Friday about the whole ordeal. my grandma called us both stubborn..she actually thinks my mother is more stubborn than I am, wow....

but yeah, she should be gone by wednesday, evenso I'll call before I even make an attempt over there this week...or I "could always just stop in anyway, I'm sure your mother would like to see you...you've only got one mother..." yeah, she only has one kid, and that's all she'll ever have *zing* oh god, I always love to bring out those jokes about my mother whenever possible...because not only is it funny, my grandmother even laughs at them, ha.

so yeah, just a little bit o info for you all...

Friday, May 21, 2004

Cheese on the Concrete....

Just a quick update....who knows how long it will be before I post some more...and I was on a roll too I know....

Let's see...today is Friday..I think it may be a movie night....lord knows I'll attempt that with a girl..but that'll fail (even though she said to call) and I'll end up doing what I do every night....

Remind me to order my mouse pad....mouse pad, who would ever have guessed....yeah, order that...

Tomorrow is Lasagna dinner party night....yeah, cooking two lasagnas..one very meat filled, the other very not meat filled....I've decided I'll be too exhausted to make desert so someone else has to make/buy a chocolate something....has to be baked too, baked chocolate and Merlot is an orgasm of the senses....

then after the dinner date, we will all watch a movie of my picking....and lordy will everyone shoot me for my picking....So Pete said he'd never watch another movie with Hugh Grant in it again, well he'll break this vow when he watches Love Actually with me...ha...ha..ha

but that's all I have on the screen for this weekend..next weekend there's a show...and yeah..that's it....wait, isn't there a show this weekend too??? oh my, well whatever....see you in my dreams ~ Jason Face

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Conversation...

Is priceless....I hope I never utter the words, "well, this is an enlightening conversation" or some other sort of witty ass sarcastic remark such as that ever again....because damn, I love conversation..and I suppose even when there is "nothing" left to be said, it's just at a point when it's either really awkward and for some reason you "can't" talk, or maybe you and the other people/person are on the same exact wave length, you know what you are thinking....I'm rambling I'm sorry.....

I guess I've just enjoyed the past outings a lot..and maybe the conversations have rocked so much for everyone is because they are new..throwing new people into the equation can usually add up for some fun..sadly it's just getting more outrageous as well...which goes with my other topic to come in another post...

Random Idiot: So what did you do last night Jason
Jason: Oh the usual...Alt+Tab'ed at a ridiculous rate in order to decide which pics I liked..you know, same ol same ol
Random Idiot: ...

yeah, there's some props for ya kid, originality I lacked, though revised, still the same thing..take it

did have a good conversation in the beginning of the night last night, already mentioned that before, as I said, it got me know where but it was still nice to get it out..

then I had a conversation online later that was just as good...

ohh, and I had the greatest conversation...never said and can only be replayed in five years, maybe..depending if I feel like diverging such information to the public...

ohh, and why do I say, "goodnight" at the end of my posts when you just as I know damn well I won't be going to sleep for an extended period of time..it's just funny to see..

Well, that's all for now...Jason Face out
You're Fantasies Are Unlikely, But Beautiful...



Yeah..that's a painting, not a picture...

So I stumbled upon some of Gerhard Richter's work, I like his style, and well...he's damn good at it..

so here's a link for you to check out some of his other works...

makes me want to get to Chicago everso more quickly..when is that trip..anywho...

alright, enough creative energy..I'm off