like an unwanted quest...
ughhh, new year, same old shit really....
i'd like to start off by apologizing, i had a good run at updating, but per usual, it didn't last long...i really do not have a reason other than my sleep schedule has once again gone haywire...i've been up to all hours of the night, whether it's staring blankly at a computer screen or then tossing and turning in bed for the remainder....i am not certain what sparked the lack in sleep again, but it's here and it sucks...
now you may say, well, if you are up all night, why don't you use that time to blog - fair enough - the reason is....let's try this...have you ever stayed up for more than 24 hours...and do you remember how your brain functions...or how bout any time you've been so tired you barely make it to bed (ie falling asleep in the car or in line) - right, well, that's me minus the sleep....at those times at night i cannot function to my normal standards...and formulating words into sentences that people will read is quite a difficult task....
so tonight i am going to take one of my last two sleep aids...i'm hoping this chemical interference will put the train back on track...if not, well..i just wasted a pill i consider it's value to amount to its weight in gold...
so goodnight, it's worth a shot..
i'd like to start off by apologizing, i had a good run at updating, but per usual, it didn't last long...i really do not have a reason other than my sleep schedule has once again gone haywire...i've been up to all hours of the night, whether it's staring blankly at a computer screen or then tossing and turning in bed for the remainder....i am not certain what sparked the lack in sleep again, but it's here and it sucks...
now you may say, well, if you are up all night, why don't you use that time to blog - fair enough - the reason is....let's try this...have you ever stayed up for more than 24 hours...and do you remember how your brain functions...or how bout any time you've been so tired you barely make it to bed (ie falling asleep in the car or in line) - right, well, that's me minus the sleep....at those times at night i cannot function to my normal standards...and formulating words into sentences that people will read is quite a difficult task....
so tonight i am going to take one of my last two sleep aids...i'm hoping this chemical interference will put the train back on track...if not, well..i just wasted a pill i consider it's value to amount to its weight in gold...
so goodnight, it's worth a shot..
"i'm just a fuck up who's full of hate, lies, and bile"
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