Touche

Kudos..
good jorb..

you really did it this time...

wow...I had a post but my mind has gone blank. Not because I forgot what it was, not that type of blank, more like..I've just been blind sided and I'm caught in a stare, type of blank.

See, at least when I put a halt on things I have that ace up my sleeve and I know if you still care...but once you stop doing that, just as you have, then, well...I got nothing, literally.

So I guess you deserve a round of applause; I didn't think it was possible, I didn't think you'd actually stop caring.

It sucks when you know you need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen.

This isn't a power struggle, this isn't a game to see who can ignore who first or the longest. But maybe I shouldn't be telling you all this, maybe I should hold back onto something left of me..but then again, when have I ever held back...I've always told you the truth and told it like it is..even through here I could let you know how i felt, and you would read, and you would get it..

oh wait, that's right, you stopped re(c)a(re)ding...








"**starts s.l.o.w. clapping**"

Cards...

V-Cards, C-Cards...
A-Cards...

all too often we experience situations in which "cards" are laid out to help one or a group through that situation...there are the obvious cards, but you can even delve further and make up spontaneous cards as needed..

in most scenarios cards are used an an excuse for something, and when mentioned they are put into play - kinda like some weird game of Magic, only in real life using invisible cards..so the exact opposite...

excuses can range from being sick, working a double, whatever...it's usually something lame that a person says to try to justify why they cannot perform whatever it is being asked of them, so basically why they suck at life...

i hate card games, random fate based on how the cards were shuffled..at times i feel like life is some fucked up card game - you're dealt a hands of cards and you go to make do with what you got..

but what i really hate more is when people make horrible excuses and try to play them like trump cards...as if they got pocket twos and every card on the flop, fourth street, and river are all face cards, and then they irrationally turn over their cards in some triumphant motion walking away with their hands raised in the air like they shocked the world...get your candy ass back over here...

i feel as if i am a victim of a rigged game this week...maybe i am just not understanding these new rules, made up as we go along...is that how life is..."this was never a problem until now"...