Long Overdue

Can you feel it..
because i don't want to...

it's here....what you ask...well, a lot of things....it's my first post in a long time, even longer if you don't count that half-assed internet down update...this is the first worthy post in some time...maybe this month...wow...

what else is here...the holiday season...that's here too..what with thanksgiving yesterday and Black Friday today...people putting up their xmas trees and radio stations, now legally, playing xmas music...

and even though november is coming to a close...something else is here too...that seasonal thing i love oh so dearly...

but i won't get into it, i don't want to be called out as some big bitch, or little bitch either....but you know what i hate...criticism...i've received too much flack for this blog and my daily updates...so far as to it not being called a blog but a 'day-log'......

definition: A blog (a contraction of the term "Web log") is a Web site, usually maintained by an individual with regular entries of commentary, descriptions of events, or other material such as graphics or video.

personal blog: The personal blog, an ongoing diary or commentary by an individual, is the traditional, most common blog. Personal bloggers usually take pride in their blog posts, even if their blog is never read by anyone but them. Blogs often become more than a way to just communicate; they become a way to reflect on life or works of art. Blogging can have a sentimental quality. Few personal blogs rise to fame and the mainstream, but some personal blogs quickly garner an extensive following. A type of personal blog is referred to as "microblogging," which is extremely detailed blogging as it seeks to capture a moment in time. Sites, such as Twitter, allow bloggers to share thoughts and feelings instantaneously with friends and family and is much faster than e-mailing or writing. This form of social media lends to an online generation already too busy to keep in touch.

back in my hay-day when i was part of a triumvirate who ran a website that caused a lot of noise in highschool and had me getting escorted to classes by law enforcement, one of the things we learned number one was, update....update update update...you won't keep a fan base if you don't update regularly...we did our best to do so, but looking back, and even then, we knew we could have done a lot better of a job...

looking back at the posts from the past from years prior, i tried to do just that...update everyday...2003 and 2004 came close...of course i remember the great streak where i had 12 posts in something like 2 hours...back in the day...

is my blog any less of a blog just because everyday you see an update...don't other bloggers try to do this....i mean, i blog for myself, as most bloggers do the same...it's a personal journal..something i do for myself, and if others read it, well then, ok...i always have said my perfect girlfriend would read my blog as it is a better insight to my mind...but as for understanding...it'll help..but not much...i'll just appreciate you more

and as for pissing off people...it seems that's the only thing i am good for..whether it be this blog or through my twitter..or my fake facebook identity..bob johnson...it seems as if i ever post a comment or status or whatever with Bob, it comes back to me...through multiple people...ok, i didn't think i would ever have to spell it out for all y'all, but seriously...the jangus is my 'real' account, bob johnson is my 'fake' account...but that's to say that everything on facebook isn't a big joke anyways...for reals people, get a fucking life and quit being so god damned vain...

so the seasonal depression is here, the internet is back up, so i'm sure you'll be getting more blog updates..funny how i have the will to do nothing at all, yet i promise updates...well, i never promised..i only make promises i can keep...

read if you want...i do this for me, not you.. i'm not looking for a fan base, i'm not hoping to be made famous, to be published..this is an outlet for me and my thoughts, my daily shit...if you read into what i write the wrong way, it's because you done fucked it up and don't understand...because, at one time you did...

"dammit...you know it's the holidays when you go shopping and you hear *cling cling cling* fucking salvation army...."