Black Friday...
even darker results...

So I'm not quite sure why things happen....

So continuing with the awake all night events, we made it back to Bloomington by 5, making excellent for the record. we were kinda thinking Best Buy was open, but who knows, this town is funny and doesn't like to do things normally. so we pull in and come to the realization that they are indeed open...the lot full of cars was the dead give-away. so mindy lets me out and I run in to grab the goodies..all I can say is swarms of people everywhere. I fought through lines to get the DVDs I wanted...and as I am getting an employee to get us the TV that's on sale Mindy finds me...so she gets in line, I wait for the guy to finish up...and go about finding a few other things..

well we waited in line for an hour and a half...and there was a confusion with the TV, cashier telling us to pick it up in the back, the guy in the back telling us to come back later and pick it up in the front...so mindy and I go home and fall asleep...well not intitially....

as we get to her apartment, we found out a few things..one, the heat needed to be turned on - seeings how it was only 56 in there..and two, the biggest of them all, our rats had babies...yup.

so we slept til 330, get ready and headed for work....and work was completely dead...I think I had only 6 tables...none at all for the final hour I was there..there was no wait, I had no tables, I was on the line cooking to be a smartass about things..and I was finally out of there by 915...making 40 dollars...

so I left to go back to Best Buy and pick up that TV...well I knew before even walking in there was going to be a problem, I just got these feelings...so there inevitably was a problem, they sold the TV...so they were scrambling to find one..and they did, the only problem was it was on hold for a lady already....but she was coming in to pick it up on December 1st....so they gave me that one in hopes they received a replacement in enough time for the other customer...and because I was "really nice about the whole thing" they gave me a $10 gift card, I thought that was cute of them..

so I get back to Mindy's, haul it up the stairs, and set it up...made myself a plate of food and then went over to Robert's for Poker Night Friday's...it got "interesting" slash stupid when Wil was betting retardedly without even looking at his cards..whatever, I got fourth out of 8, and only went all in after the fifth round of raising before the flop!!!

I stopped back home and made a phone call...only because she asked me to call her back after I was finished with poker.....well, either coincidental timing or just bad luck...but we "lost signal" (or maybe she hung up on me..it's hard to tell....) and just to make things clear to you, she asked me what I did for thanksgiving...I told her I went to Mindy's..and started rambling about other things just so she wouldn't get any ideas...so I'm rambling, and don't hear a response, look at my phone, and it's been disconnected for quite some time...how long I am uncertain, but Kitty more than likely heard the mindy part and that was it...

I tried calling her back several times, left two messages...we will just have to see what happens....

Random Date
Random Quote

Randomness leads to randomness

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead, with the grace of a man, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure, you really are strong, you really do have worth, and you learn and you learn.

With every goodbye, you learn.













"My pants are on fire!"

First SNOW '05
Light but fallin'

As always I'm here to report the first snow fall of the year...

Well it started early this morning, somewhere around 6-7am...it wasn't anything powerful..just some flurry action; very light and faint, but definitely snow flakes falling...as the temperature dropped under 32 degrees in the afternoon, the snow continued

Half Gone..
..I can only hope for the best...

Knowing something bad should happen is like waiting for the door to open.

So November is halfway finished and I'm crossing my fingers for the rest of the month...I've made it this far, not saying it's all been a bed of roses, but I've made it this far. Of course we all know that the "November Breakdown" came after Thanksgiving last year...And we haven't even made it past the seventh yet....

so what to do with this wish-washy state of things..You got me, I'm just cruising along in the passenger seat of the ride asking if we can get off at the same stop. I really wish something would happen; be it good or bad, just something - the inbetween stage is not a good one, but it is far better than nothing at all.

so to put it nicely, "I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't" I've never quite made it to the top, only rested on the bottom admist the middle of nowhere and beats-me-ville..maybe if I were to achieve making it to the top I would be better off, like it more..but then again it is Jason we are talking about, so who knows...for all we know this may be as good as it gets...

it's really a weird place to be in, everything threatens your lifehood - you struggle for your existence when really, do you even have to? I don't recommend this to anyone, but maybe, just so others know what I am going through..

it's hard to make sense of anything, especially when nothing is expected, moods can change like the turning of the tides; it just happens and there are no foreseeable warnings...You battle and throw yourself out there day after day, to keep hold of the ground you had the day prior, but in reality your just retarding the ever eventual process of your elimination.

what do you do?

talking about it doesn't help, probably just makes things worse..but if it's the most apparent thing on your mind, just what do you do. You hope that by talking about things everything else will just snap and fall into place..And then you become so desperate you hope that "fall into place" is really a metaphor for anything more than what you have, good or bad, just something more.

Jason's getting a little frustrated these days, and the situation isn't helping. I'm thinking of doing really stupid things I know I'll just regret later..things that don't even make sense now, but it's something..something I think will ease the tension, but in reality would just mess me up even moreso.

and then there's an even bigger question of what to do with myself..let's not even go there now.

so this winter should be interesting...I hope for the best, but will assume it's not the case..soon it will be a new year...which means absolutely nothing.









" Living the dream baby, living the dream...if only"

Bright Eyes
All right

Spilt beers, broken drumsets, and a good time

all in all the concert was alright, it had it's moments, both good and bad. despite what some may think I don't think the openers were all that horrible...they were Conner's children if you will, carrying the same folky spirit of telling a song with just a guitar...I liked the first guy the best, the second dude was just lame though...

the harp intro for Bright Eyes was nicely done, and the use of many different musical instruments was what I appreciated the most. the song choice however, not so good.. I know I know, Bright Eyes has so many songs to choose from, how could you ever narrow it down to just an hour set, with a couple song encore as well...well to be honest, it sucked....seriously most of the songs they played were songs I would have hit the Next button on my winamp.

the closer, "Let's Not Shit Ourselves (To Love and Be Loved)" was ridiculously amazing..props for the best closer ever..whodathunk to use a ten minute long song, actual album length ten minutes, no solos or anything like that, to close with..whatever it was cool, though I think they shortened it up just a bit..anyways it was awesome because Conner called out the openers to play with him, and there were at one point two and half drum sets with four drummers...whatever, overzealous use of the drums equals major fun in my book!

Conner of course was trashed by this point, and started to knock over the equipment...even better! so for those reasons, I think it was the best encore I've ever witnessed...

but the venue was too big, very intimidating to the openers, and you know..it's not the type of music you go to a concert for...there is no stage presence or performance, because these guys tell stories...you listen in and out of while you with your friends throwing back a gin and tonic...I would love to see any one of those artists in some dumpy night club, where they are within their element and then everything would be perfect.

so after the concert I went home with mindy, we were going to watch Memento, but that never happened, and thus you have it...my Sunday of no work and a concert.









"Soo I just paid nine dollars for this minisized snack of chocolate cookie dough balls?"