"Have You Ever Searched for Something You Hoped not to Find?"

Ok, i don't know if you understand what i am asking, so let me clarify. ok the human passion for curiousity is an amazing thing, we're always looking for answers, or the story behind something, I mean look how many types of Enquirer magazines there are and how many get sold. Unsolved Mysteries was one of my favorite TV shows as a kid; parapsychology (and the movie Ghostbusters) is crazy, I love it. It's another realm we haven't fully been able to define, also along with the psuedo-science of psychology itself, that being only 200 years old...anways tangent, sorry....So people always want to know the truth, whether the truth will hurt or not, people just want to know. And in some cases they have a hunch about something, so they do some researching, talking to people, reading books, whatever, searching to fulfill thier idea in their head, or to make it false. They want to find what they are looking for to satisfy the pleasure superwgo part of the mind who must succeed. On the other hand, they know that if they do find what they are looking for, they will be crushed, mentally, emotionally, heartbroken, whatever. But the superego isn't always a good thing to have a strong one of...when they come up short of finding the truth, no leads, nothing, they feel let down, and then "know" it's there. they dig and dig, when in reality the hunch could have been a mere whimse of rumor blowing in the breeze. whatever it may be, do you know what i'm talking about?I only have one example fresh in my mind, but it's not the way i was thinking..oh well, comment if you have any insight whatsoever.....